forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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i hate myself.
i hate how i talk, i hate how i look, i hate who i've become.
i wish i could be a better person. i wish i was something meaningful, but i'm not. i threw myself away.

Bb go to bed

I'm going up to my great-uncle's lake house tomorrow but my leg still hasn't healed :[
Probably won't be able to swim, but tbh I don't like lake water much anyways

I'm going up to my great-uncle's lake house tomorrow but my leg still hasn't healed :[
Probably won't be able to swim, but tbh I don't like lake water much anyways

I'm going to my mom's friend's lake house on Sunday, enjoy your lake
I'm just excited because there's a place with really good fried chicken at that lake and I would have already gone if my summer camp hadn't closed because of the 'rona

I'm going up to my great-uncle's lake house tomorrow but my leg still hasn't healed :[
Probably won't be able to swim, but tbh I don't like lake water much anyways

I'm going to my mom's friend's lake house on Sunday, enjoy your lake
I'm just excited because there's a place with really good fried chicken at that lake and I would have already gone if my summer camp hadn't closed because of the 'rona

Enjoy your lake too!!

Update: My sister has a fever, lake day might get canceled

D:<

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

i hate myself.
i hate how i talk, i hate how i look, i hate who i've become.
i wish i could be a better person. i wish i was something meaningful, but i'm not. i threw myself away.

Bb go to bed

too early

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

Ewwww gross

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

Ewwww gross

Mhm. There were so many times I'd pull out a book and she'd make this face and then be like "this is disgusting, you aren't borrowing this. I don't want you reading this"

I'm just glad she isn't like one of my friend's moms. My friend can't read a n y t h i n g that her mom hasn't already okayed, it fucking sucks

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

man that sucks. My parents are kinda like that. I remember in 4th grade or smth they didn't let me read a valentine's dad themed kids book. I started reading books online idk if ur library has that but there's this thing called hoopla.

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

man that sucks. My parents are kinda like that. I remember in 4th grade or smth they didn't let me read a valentine's dad themed kids book. I started reading books online idk if ur library has that but there's this thing called hoopla.

11/10 recommend Hoopla if you have access to it!!

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

Ewwww gross

Mhm. There were so many times I'd pull out a book and she'd make this face and then be like "this is disgusting, you aren't borrowing this. I don't want you reading this"

I'm just glad she isn't like one of my friend's moms. My friend can't read a n y t h i n g that her mom hasn't already okayed, it fucking sucks

Nasty
I can probably get away with more than I try to, I'm guessing I could probably check out anything that doesn't have, like, two guys kissing on the cover or a super gay title, but I'd rather play it safe just in case.

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

Ewwww gross

Mhm. There were so many times I'd pull out a book and she'd make this face and then be like "this is disgusting, you aren't borrowing this. I don't want you reading this"

I'm just glad she isn't like one of my friend's moms. My friend can't read a n y t h i n g that her mom hasn't already okayed, it fucking sucks

Nasty
I can probably get away with more than I try to, I'm guessing I could probably check out anything that doesn't have, like, two guys kissing on the cover or a super gay title, but I'd rather play it safe just in case.

Yeah. The issue for me happened because she came into my room and I tried to hide the book so she wouldn't see it. She saw me hiding it, demanded to know what I was trying to hide, and then I had to show it to her and I knew that she'd read the description, so I covered my ass by lying that I didn't mean to borrow it

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

Ewwww gross

Mhm. There were so many times I'd pull out a book and she'd make this face and then be like "this is disgusting, you aren't borrowing this. I don't want you reading this"

I'm just glad she isn't like one of my friend's moms. My friend can't read a n y t h i n g that her mom hasn't already okayed, it fucking sucks

Nasty
I can probably get away with more than I try to, I'm guessing I could probably check out anything that doesn't have, like, two guys kissing on the cover or a super gay title, but I'd rather play it safe just in case.

Yeah. The issue for me happened because she came into my room and I tried to hide the book so she wouldn't see it. She saw me hiding it, demanded to know what I was trying to hide, and then I had to show it to her and I knew that she'd read the description, so I covered my ass by lying that I didn't mean to borrow it

Jeez, dude, no wonder you vibed so hard with Fahrenheit 451-

OH Eva, I didn't tell you, since you weren't here

I was gonna read "Felix Ever After" and then my mom caught me D: I managed to cover my ass so thankfully I'm not in trouble, but now I don't get to finish it and I'm unhappy D:

D:<
Dude no offense but your mom kinda sucks
I'm holding out for my library to hopefully reopen, otherwise I'm also trying to get my card switched so I get the emails and not my mom. Not just so I can read more openly queer books, but because I'd like to be able to know when my holds are in without it 1) clogging up her inbox and 2) having to be forwarded to me.

None taken. At least it's not like two years ago when she fucking policed my library bag. Like, she literally read the description for every damn book that I borrowed, and if she didn't like it, I couldn't borrow it. It sucked ass
Nice! Yeah, I'm supremely thankful that I have my own library card

Ewwww gross

Mhm. There were so many times I'd pull out a book and she'd make this face and then be like "this is disgusting, you aren't borrowing this. I don't want you reading this"

I'm just glad she isn't like one of my friend's moms. My friend can't read a n y t h i n g that her mom hasn't already okayed, it fucking sucks

Nasty
I can probably get away with more than I try to, I'm guessing I could probably check out anything that doesn't have, like, two guys kissing on the cover or a super gay title, but I'd rather play it safe just in case.

Yeah. The issue for me happened because she came into my room and I tried to hide the book so she wouldn't see it. She saw me hiding it, demanded to know what I was trying to hide, and then I had to show it to her and I knew that she'd read the description, so I covered my ass by lying that I didn't mean to borrow it

Jeez, dude, no wonder you vibed so hard with Fahrenheit 451-

I–

fair point

I live in fear that she will discover that Cinderella is Dead contains a lesbian character and…idk what she'd even do with it, but it wouldn't be good

My copies of Crier's War, Loveless, and Wilder Girls are tucked snugly between some less queer books

Yeah, I just figure that as long as it doesn't look like I'm hiding it, she won't care lol

Also i gotta go now, goodnight!

Night!

Star Wars does a lot of noncanon stuff that's just fun. Look at the abundance of Lego shows it has that are just little noncanon stories.

Frickin Yoda Chronicles Lol.

i hate myself.

I don’t.

i hate how i talk, i hate how i look, i hate who i've become.

I don’t see why the first two matter. The third might be serious, so I wish you luck on improving yourself.

i wish i could be a better person. i wish i was something meaningful, but i'm not. i threw myself away.

I hope you will be a better person. You are meaningful. You haven’t thrown away your life. You still have a ton to go.

Jeez, dude, no wonder you vibed so hard with Fahrenheit 451-

What an answer.

:D

I went to the store wearing my straw hat(as I do) and the cashier recognized it and I'm so fucking happy
Next time I go, I'm gonna wear my King of the Pirates hoodie