forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Guys I wrote over 1,000 words today and I'm gonna do it again tomorrow, mark my words

oh shit
guys that pun wasn't intended
I have leftover puns from when I was terrorizing my friend using bad puns, apparently

I didn’t notice the pun that’s great!

Me: Write normal fanfics
Also me: A n g s t

Me: Write
Also me: A n g s t

Jyn I just wanna write something nice
But then the sad backstories start to kick in
And there's crying
_{On my part and the character's}

I think I have one story that could be classified as "nice" and it's a musical that I haven't even finished a single song for.

I have some nice stuff I’m pretty sure. But today I wrote some screaming so.

I have an ongoing fic that's relatively happy, one that I wrote today, and a singular oneshot
That's it lmao

I'm considering starting a series of fics where my favorite character just keeps getting tortured lol

A lot of my stuff started off nice enough, but as I get older and more capable of handling themes, dark stuff, etc. it gradually grows darker. It's odd, because I feel like a lot of my stuff manages to be dreary without killing off too many characters. God, this feels like a humblebrag, ew

What no that’s illegal.^^

A lot of my stuff started off nice enough, but as I get older and more capable of handling themes, dark stuff, etc. it gradually grows darker. It's odd, because I feel like a lot of my stuff manages to be dreary without killing off too many characters. God, this feels like a humblebrag, ew

Meanwhile for the same reasons, some of my darker stuff got less dark and possibly more nuanced.

To clarify, I don't mean Grimdark^TM, I mean that it got more nuanced than "this are the bad guys, they're bad because they're evil and the good guys are good because they're good". My recent love for messy leads probably plays into that too.

You know when you just get ticked by a short story that you're assigned to read and analyse the setting for your English class, but you're so upset that you're struggling to analyse the setting, and you're just really angry at what happens in it… no just me.
If you ever want a good blood boiler read "Girl" by Jamaica Kincaid and “Everyday Use” by Alice Walker.
Both of them really just… Gah, made me upset. I mean they're supposed to but still.

Me: Write normal fanfics
Also me: A n g s t

Me: Finish that fanfic
Also Me: Looses my sanity by reading fics by 10 year olds
never finished that Fic

Online school started today
Time to die mentally

My mom is just UGHGRHGHHG. Okay small story time.

My mom is just UGHGRHGHHG. Okay small story time.

Spoiler - click to show.

So my mom is very much someone I don't want to be, she is mad almost constantly and just fusses over the SMALLEST of things. Like if a single candle is out of place, The WHOLE WORLD needs to know the failure of her daughter.
Like I get having OCD, but this is overkill.
I'm literially to my breaking point where being at school is my only safe place….
Idk what else to do…..
I can't leave because I have nowhere else to go.
I'm just at a loss.

Okay but same though and i'm really sorry you have to go through that too. My mom blames me for not helping/ comforting her in her marital issues and accuses me of leaving her to suffer.

My mom is just UGHGRHGHHG. Okay small story time.

Spoiler - click to show.

So my mom is very much someone I don't want to be, she is mad almost constantly and just fusses over the SMALLEST of things. Like if a single candle is out of place, The WHOLE WORLD needs to know the failure of her daughter.
Like I get having OCD, but this is overkill.
I'm literially to my breaking point where being at school is my only safe place….
Idk what else to do…..
I can't leave because I have nowhere else to go.
I'm just at a loss.

Okay but same though and i'm really sorry you have to go through that too. My mom blames me for not helping/ comforting her in her marital issues and accuses me of leaving her to suffer.

You took the words from my mind.

I'm in band listening to a Flamenco Guitarist, giving Band kids a history lecture…..
So much misinformation I literally can't. Like…. The Greeks weren't stupid, if a person got sick they had an idea of how to fix it, they had a god of medicine, why would have had a god of medicine if they didn't have it.
Man this guy pushes my buttons.

Like dude, using big words and then telling us what they mean does not make you sound smart.
We know what cyclical means.
And there's this little twerp teachers pet kid in the chat being like, "Oh and also this and this fact and this fact." Like dude, no one thinks your cool or smart we think your obnoxious.

We were doing captions in government in google slides and we came out with some pretty funny one’s
we were the only group that was close to finished

Just gonna vent this in hopes it'll help how horrible I feel currently:

Being short doesn't make me less of a man.
Being baby-faced doesn't make me less of a man.
Being vulnerable doesn't make me less of a man.
My past doesn't define who I am.
My present is only temporary.
My future is what I make of it.
I am not shackled to the belief that I should be what others think of me.
I am allowed to feel emotions without being ashamed for having them.
I am allowed to be me without having to conform to toxic masculinity just to prove to everyone else that I'm as much of a man that I say I am.

Fucking hell.

i've been having having really bad anxiety over something that haven't even happened yet

also ace, u don't have to prove anyone anything to anyone to be who u are.

I'm in band listening to a Flamenco Guitarist, giving Band kids a history lecture…..
So much misinformation I literally can't. Like…. The Greeks weren't stupid, if a person got sick they had an idea of how to fix it, they had a god of medicine, why would have had a god of medicine if they didn't have it.
Man this guy pushes my buttons.

He said the Greeks had no medicine?