forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Idk I’ve just been hearing that people in high school are fake and all that and not to tell your secrets to anyone and I haven’t known her for that long but I do trust her and we’re pretty close friends but I’m just so scared that if she doesn’t like me anymore she’ll tell people or accidentally out me or something fnjfhdk I’m just so anxious

My mom has been a major helicopter parent lately. I'm in high school and she still won't let me have a phone, and she's made it very clear that when I do, she will go through it as often as she likes. She won't let me have any social media besides Pinterest and Snapchat, and if she knew I was on this site, she'd lose it. She almost took away my internet access because I wouldn't show her the video I was watching (it was an interview with kidnapping survivors). She's threatened to delete my accounts several times because I wouldn't show her things. She has all my passwords and recently revealed that she goes through my devices. She still won't let me listen to music with language in it and while he doesn't care, she has made my dad enforce the same restrictions on me when it's just me and him. She unironically accuses me of turning emo any time I wear dark clothes and suspects some of my friends of being a bad influence (they're not, just kind of edgy and chaotic). I love her dearly and would trust her with my life, but these things have been bothering me lately. Am I overreacting or are these things really that big of a deal?

Jupiter, my parents do basically the same thing, and I'm really sorry you're going through that :/ you aren't overreacting, but in my experience, there isn't much you can do except bide your time and wait

some parents say you can tell them anything then when you say you think that you’d be better off dead they take it as a personal attack and accuse you of purposely provoking them and say that that’s why you can’t have adult things like social media

lol imagine being able to express yourself, i wouldn’t know about that 🤪

Hello! I survived Idaho and traveling by myself for the first time. I finished 2 books and found a cow bone. I almost didn't survive the weekend. I almost got into an accident (Not my fault) when I was practicing driving and I had a really bad migraine which led to me sending a friend a picture of my giant stuffed shark with my hand flipping him off.

some parents say you can tell them anything then when you say you think that you’d be better off dead they take it as a personal attack and accuse you of purposely provoking them and say that that’s why you can’t have adult things like social media

why is this my life? lmao, it's funny because my parents do the same thing. They always tell me to consider their feelings when i break one of their rules or some thing, and they don't understand that it's literally not personal. y'all just happen to be the people setting rules for me, it wouldn't matter who it was, i'd still disobey them because i'm young and hungry for experiences and freedom that you deprive me of. it wouldn't matter if my parents were zendaya and tom holland, i'd still disobey them simply because i don't like the rules that are set for me. so once again, IT'S NOT PERSONAL.

god i'm unreasonably upset about this again
tw for grooming

it's just really overwhelming right now to feel all that aha

god i'm unreasonably upset about this again
tw for grooming

Spoiler - click to show.

i don't know if i've ever talked about this on here but i got hella groomed a year ago, it lasted for two years, by someone i really cared about and looked up to. i was looking back at old messages from a gc before this really picked up. and that is my fault, obviously i shouldn't have been trying to upset myself on purpose but it made me so mad to see people, including myself, being so nice to him when he was about to fuck me up for life within the next month or so. and i shouldn't be so angry at these people because they didn't know. it's probably more like anger that none of us listened to the people who tried to warn us.

it's just really overwhelming right now to feel all that aha

yeah I get how you feel, I got groomed on here about a year or two ago as well. It's really hard not to blame yourself for not realizing

hi, I just want to express that I dont have a phone either (im 16 abt to be 17)
and it makes me feel super mega isolated

Oof yeah I was in that place, the only reason I was allowed to get a phone was for collage, I understand you.

sometimes my parents are so strict about everything I do, but not on any of my other siblings, it makes me feel like im targeted.

Like I almost feel they only take care of me because they have to, and dont really care for me as a person all that much, considering my parents and siblings all have fun times watching tv together, but im not aloud to, and sit in my room, listening to them be happy and laugh and it makes me cry, like I want to be included to, I want to be loved and taken care of, I want appreciated.

god i'm unreasonably upset about this again
tw for grooming

Spoiler - click to show.

i don't know if i've ever talked about this on here but i got hella groomed a year ago, it lasted for two years, by someone i really cared about and looked up to. i was looking back at old messages from a gc before this really picked up. and that is my fault, obviously i shouldn't have been trying to upset myself on purpose but it made me so mad to see people, including myself, being so nice to him when he was about to fuck me up for life within the next month or so. and i shouldn't be so angry at these people because they didn't know. it's probably more like anger that none of us listened to the people who tried to warn us.

it's just really overwhelming right now to feel all that aha

yeah I get how you feel, I got groomed on here about a year or two ago as well. It's really hard not to blame yourself for not realizing

i wonder if it was the same person actually. also, i'm really sorry dude, that's awful

god i'm unreasonably upset about this again
tw for grooming

Spoiler - click to show.

i don't know if i've ever talked about this on here but i got hella groomed a year ago, it lasted for two years, by someone i really cared about and looked up to. i was looking back at old messages from a gc before this really picked up. and that is my fault, obviously i shouldn't have been trying to upset myself on purpose but it made me so mad to see people, including myself, being so nice to him when he was about to fuck me up for life within the next month or so. and i shouldn't be so angry at these people because they didn't know. it's probably more like anger that none of us listened to the people who tried to warn us.

it's just really overwhelming right now to feel all that aha

yeah I get how you feel, I got groomed on here about a year or two ago as well. It's really hard not to blame yourself for not realizing

i wonder if it was the same person actually. also, i'm really sorry dude, that's awful

It was hard, do you want to talk about it in dms?

So ummmm
Basically right now I have an issue for the last date of our one play of the semester. I have a major band competition on the same day. So basically I might be getting demoted to a less significant role if they can’t change our performance date. It sucks because this is the only performance of the year I’m guaranteed to be in. And after two years where we couldn’t do any performances, this is the worst.

So ummmm
Basically right now I have an issue for the last date of our one play of the semester. I have a major band competition on the same day. So basically I might be getting demoted to a less significant role if they can’t change our performance date. It sucks because this is the only performance of the year I’m guaranteed to be in. And after two years where we couldn’t do any performances, this is the worst.

awh, im sorry :(

I got into a play at my local theater before I recieved my dance schedule. Turns out that the play practices overlap with one of my favorite dance classes, and I'll have to choose between them. I enjoy theater more than dance as a whole, but I have so many wonderful friends in dance that I wouldn't see otherwise, as none of them go to my school or live near me. I really don't want to choose between the two, and I have to do it soon because they're both about to officially start up.

Last night I was having some sort of sensory overload/overstimulation thing and was crying because the frogs were so loud. Then I decided to be proactive and get a flashlight to find the frog outside my window. I threw him into a field then came back and tried to wash my face, but guess what? Frog slime mucus juice stuff can burn your eyes!

I started trigonometry today and i'm surprised and proud that i didn't cry. that probably won't last long though. it's just frustrating because i'm usually such a fast learner but i feel so stupid when it comes to math. i hope this year goes well.

guilt. just,,,,,, guilt. over everything. all the time.
(how do I make it do the spoiler thing??? I can’t remember)

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So, I've probably slept 3 hours consecutively in the past week and for some reason when I tried getting to sleep tonight my brain thought "Imagine your past self (Like still single digits self) Ran up to you and hugged you, and for some reason that just made me break. I had 2 different trains of thought with this and they were "You've got so much shit coming to you that you don't deserve" and "Oh God, you're gonna be so disappointed with yourself when you take a step back and actually look at me."

So ummmm
Basically right now I have an issue for the last date of our one play of the semester. I have a major band competition on the same day. So basically I might be getting demoted to a less significant role if they can’t change our performance date. It sucks because this is the only performance of the year I’m guaranteed to be in. And after two years where we couldn’t do any performances, this is the worst.

Yeah so they couldn’t change the date so I can only be an understudy for a role at most
This fucking sucks. I’m trying not to make a big deal about this because my theater director really did want to change it to help me but she just couldn’t do it.

So ummmm
Basically right now I have an issue for the last date of our one play of the semester. I have a major band competition on the same day. So basically I might be getting demoted to a less significant role if they can’t change our performance date. It sucks because this is the only performance of the year I’m guaranteed to be in. And after two years where we couldn’t do any performances, this is the worst.

Yeah so they couldn’t change the date so I can only be an understudy for a role at most
This fucking sucks. I’m trying not to make a big deal about this because my theater director really did want to change it to help me but she just couldn’t do it.

im really sorry, thats sucks a lot :(

So ummmm
Basically right now I have an issue for the last date of our one play of the semester. I have a major band competition on the same day. So basically I might be getting demoted to a less significant role if they can’t change our performance date. It sucks because this is the only performance of the year I’m guaranteed to be in. And after two years where we couldn’t do any performances, this is the worst.

Yeah so they couldn’t change the date so I can only be an understudy for a role at most
This fucking sucks. I’m trying not to make a big deal about this because my theater director really did want to change it to help me but she just couldn’t do it.

im really sorry, thats sucks a lot :(

Thanks dude…I’m really trying to not get upset over it but the reality is I’ll probably be going into my senior year without having done any productions. I know things will get better and I’ll get over it, but right now it just really hurts.