forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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I hate noise
I hate buzzers and alarms and motorcycle and moped assholes revving their engines as they drive by and fire alarms and just
Loud sounds that make me want to cover up my ears and cry

Same. My school has a bunch of balloons up because it's some spirit week again, and my fear of loud noises coupled with my even greater fear of a school shooting are not mixing well as everyone keeps popping them. I mean I like the balloons, I've already stolen two, but it's so easy to let the air out (there's a tab on them) rather than pop them and scare the bejeebus out of someone.

Hnnnn no my ears hurt just thinking about it
I would genuinely be crying if that happened

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The duality of writing a song vs having major voice dysphoria :(

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The duality of writing a song vs having major voice dysphoria :(

ughhhhh same :(
i can't stand my voice

Tw: suicide attempt

Tw: suicide attempt

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Nothing quite like when your friend tells you that they tried to kill themselves a few weeks ago, and then tells you how many times they've tried and holy fuck that's a lot and you didn't even know

i actually have been in that exact same situation believe it or not. if you wanna talk about it, i'm here <3

I’ve heard of something in conversations where people can get completely thrown off if someone isn’t engaging in the conversation. Like, there’s almost an exchange of energy between two people for example. You exchange the energy by engaging properly in the conversation. But when one person isn’t doing that, they drain your energy and make you feel all down and bored.
Well imagine that for me but it’s a relationship, not a conversation. The worst part about this is that I don’t feel like I’m their partner, I’m just someone to use and vent to, and I know I have said I would offer support to people in need but the thing is this person gives nothing in exchange. Just drains me, like I said. Worst thing is the relationship started out fine but the longer I know this person, the worse it all gets.

Have you had a Talk with your SO about it?

I have this big fear of a heart attack and i know it's irrational but i have some chest pain and wrist pain on my right hand and it's giving me lots of anxiety. Also for some reason my wrists have always hurt randomly.

Have you had a Talk with your SO about it?

A little bit, but I gave up. He’s not really the type to listen to reasoning from others.

What's keeping you with your SO, if you don't mind my asking? It sounds like the relationship has been draining for you.

I’m going to say this in the lightest way possible since my partner is a user on here although if he reads this he’s most likely going to know I’m talking about him.

Just unsure of how he’ll react. We’ve never met irl luckily, and we surely can’t right now with the pandemic and all that. But there are some breakups I’ve seen that are peaceful, and others are unfortunately more aggressive.

Well, I will tell you this. If you bring it up and he makes an effort to do better for you, it's worth staying in the relationship. But at the end of the day, if communication isn't good between you two and you have a hard time bettering yourselves there, it may be good to call it quits before any serious conflicts arise.

I have this big fear of a heart attack and i know it's irrational but i have some chest pain and wrist pain on my right hand and it's giving me lots of anxiety. Also for some reason my wrists have always hurt randomly.

yeah that's a mood. Same thing with me, I would look into precordial catch syndrom. Its fairly common and besides the pain, it's relatively harmless. The biggest issue with it is it can cause anxiety which can worsen symptoms and cause hyperawareness obessions (heartbeat anxiety, would not recommend as its very hard to get rid of). As for wrists, humans are built poorly and if you type, write, draw, or otherwise use your hands or sleep slightly weird you will get wristpains if you're predisposed to it.

Well, I will tell you this. If you bring it up and he makes an effort to do better for you, it's worth staying in the relationship. But at the end of the day, if communication isn't good between you two and you have a hard time bettering yourselves there, it may be good to call it quits before any serious conflicts arise.

Believe me, I’d love to have broken it off, and I have made the attempts to do so, but I’m worried he’ll do something

tw//death, suicide

So I’m kind of waiting until I know for sure he won’t do anything or at least is in a stable situation before I break the news.

Mmmmmm I’m scared that I’m gonna be kicked off of this writing project I was chosen for just because I haven’t interacted with it enough before now but I didn’t think there was anything I was supposed to do and a h

I've decided to quit my job ✌
My mental health is taking a big hit, and something has to give. I have also contemplating quitting on several occasions already, so it's time.

Good for you, Bec!

I've decided to quit my job ✌
My mental health is taking a big hit, and something has to give. I have also contemplating quitting on several occasions already, so it's time.

hell yeah we stan mental health support!!!!

It's not even a bad job or a bad setup. It's just bad for me, and at a bad time, yknow?
I've been feeling really bad about quitting, like I took it for granted, or things like that, but uhhh, it's probably for the best that I leave and start going to therapy again.

Hnnn
My grandpa gave me a mental breakdown over being on my phone and having dessert
Guilt tripped me for being on my phone despite everyone else being on theirs
And said "I told our not only hide while eating" even though I had moved out to be in the living room with everyone else after he said not to be to the side
Then rapped the top of my head a couple times and told me old get myself together
And this man is very much the kind who doesn't care if he hurts you mentally, did it to my dad for years
So I'm sitting there trying not to make a scene or cry because I've had past trauma from things like this and hnnnnnnnnn
I'm better now but fuck I'm not

TW: hospitals?? & psych wards?? idk if i need to put this here but better safe than sorry
Okay! So! i got back from the hospital for the 7th time today. and they wont admit me even though i'm unstable and i just aaaaaaa i need to go back but my parents are exhausted and arent in a good state to drive so i cant go to the hospital and i'm scared to call my therapist

Tw: Death