forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

tune

that song makes me feel so much more than i need sometimes

AH FUCK
THIS DUDE JUST GOT IN A REALLY REALLY BAD ACCIDENT OUTSIDE MY HOUSE, LIKE THE TRUCK FLIPPED A FUCKING LOT.
They- they say no one was injured, but I'm quite literally about to have a panic attack, I- jesus fuck nonono

Oh my god… I don't know what to say, but I hope you're alright. If they say nobody was hurt, all you can really do is trust them until they're proven wrong

I feel so stupid. I almost broke down because somebody insulted my intelligence as a joke, but I dont know why but it seriously got to me and I feel so pathetic because usually I have really thick skin and I just-

My intelligence is the only thing I have ever prided myself on. I'm not talented, athletic or pretty and a 4.0 GPA is the only thing I got going for me

I don't like the rubber bands in my mouth
I can play 2 different musical notes with them, though

This election makes me super nervous– especially with me living in the south and in a Trump county.

Hey, can we put shooting related stuff under spoilers/triggers?

Murder too, perhaps?

NEW RULE:

Thanks Ella babe.

<3

That you cannot listen to music on a Chromebook

I've been hearing music on a Chromebook, through youtube. . .

That you cannot listen to music on a Chromebook

I've been hearing music on a Chromebook, through youtube. . .

oh i loved using yt music
back when my smol chromebook worked

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There's this kid in my math class who used the f slur to his friend (both who are not queer) and it made me wildly uncomfortable. Should I tell the teacher?

I doubt there's anything she can do if it wasn't directed at you and didn't happen in front of her. But if you think she'd be more compassionate than that, and you think it'd be worth it to tell someone, then please do. I'm sorry you had to hear that. It's always weird when loose language to some is upsetting to others.

Y'all ever just, thinking about someone and you're all like, "this person is the best person ever, I'm so glad we're friends, I love them so much."

And then a little later you're thinkin' about em again and you're like, "I can't fucking stand this person, why I do even associate with them?"

But then a little later you're right back to loving them and get sad that you ever thought that.

Probably not.

all the fuckin time

God, that moment when you really need to talk to your therapist about perhaps having APD but can't becuase she's a white cis boomer who doesn't understand anything I say

Damn, that really sucks.

i don't know what im gonna do in the future. I can't afford to pay for college and im not good enough for any scholarships. And even if i find some way to pay, idk what i'd want to do. Like idealy i want to go to art school but it's really expensive and will put me in debt and the salary for artists is pretty low. But im also scared i'll end up in some job i hate for the rest of my life akjhdhgh

Oh yes thanks to the only irl fren I can reliably keep in contact with that doesn't include discord.
I love when you flat-out tell me that my singing voice sucks, that's just what I needed to hear today-

so impostor syndrome right?
well, dumb brain says "haha what if you're faking depression and you just want people to feel sorry for you"
and i'm flipping SICK and TIRED of it
i want to shut my brain off
i want to run away

and it doesn't help that i am also severely anxious all the time
so then i just sit and suffer

aggressively tries not to cuss in this next part

and WHO IN DATACAT'S NAME THOUGHT THAT AMPLIFY WAS A GOOD PROGRAM TO DO SCIENCE ON
why does this exist

i don't know what im gonna do in the future. I can't afford to pay for college and im not good enough for any scholarships. And even if i find some way to pay, idk what i'd want to do. Like idealy i want to go to art school but it's really expensive and will put me in debt and the salary for artists is pretty low. But im also scared i'll end up in some job i hate for the rest of my life akjhdhgh

Here's some two cents from an art college person that you absolutely don't have to listen to but I hope it helps:
There are very few artists who work in only art. Most of us have day jobs, and that's okay. I actually work as a secretary at a dance studio, my friend and I are both going into teaching to fund our studio work, and I know many artists who have jobs at grocery stores, book shops, and coffee places. Having a job doesn't mean you can't do art.
As for the college thing, what do you want to get out of it? For me, the most I learned about art was stuff I haven't tried before or things I needed studio space and equipment for (metalwork, ceramics, etc.). I did learn how to critique and manage deadlines, but that's more practical than technical skill. My advice is to find out what you want, and find another way to get it if college is out of range for you. If you need studio space to work, check your local centers or see if any studios rent. For learning technical skills, youtube is honestly so full of resources and I would be happy to recommend some channels if you're into digital or painting in general. The internet has so many great platforms to learn art on, it just takes some self-drive and discipline to make yourself learn, if you struggle with that have a friend call you out and make deadlines for you. Skillshare is also a great site if you can afford it, you can get a discount from tons of youtube channels and it has things like interactive projects and homework.