forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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This is a mockery of the United States

also holy shit i remember you from when i still had my old account! hiiiii~~

Today was my first day back at school and I know it doesn’t seem like a big thing but all my friends from my first period theater last semester got moved to the second period theater and I’m still stuck in first while now literally everyone I actually give a damn about is in second period. They just all look like they’re having so much fun….why am I always left behind…

tw: EDs

Ive been recovering from ana for over a month now and just relapsed due to a video with no tw on it and now i dont know what to do

aaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAH i am going to r i o t
can i just function like a normal person at least once sdfghjkl

Yall, I just learned my roommate at college is at risk of not being able to stay in school this semester due to finances, and I'm like really worried. She's already struggling to complete her major on time, and she has a kind of not great home life (her parents are lovely, but her brother makes things really hard on the family in many ways and stresses her tf out when she already has problems w anxiety).
And also our other roommate- or they were supposed to be, anyway- had to take the year off bc finances and Covid, so like ahhhhh
And I also have 2 temporary roommates rn who are strangers, and they seem nice enough, but make me anxious af (they're only supposed to be here a week or two while their room has maintenance done, but ahhhhhhhhh)
AND if my current roommate does end up not being able to stay in school this semester, I'm going to be living alone, but also at risk of getting strangers shoved into my suite with me because there's space.
Like fuck dude. There is nothing good about this situation.

Probably shouldn't have had caffeine at 7 pm :)
Wide awake and stressing out.
Tw death

Update: I slept a bit, and now it's been about 11 hours since I last had caffeine, so uh, I think it's just ~anxiety~

TW: EDs

You can always vent to me! I've suffered from

in the past so I can at least sort of relate.

Tw death

I'm at this girls memorial service right now and I just…

I never knew her but she was in my yearbook class and it's sad that shes gone

I'm sitting here with one of my best friends and she knew the girl that died really well and apparently she was amazing and kind and everything good

It's just eating me away inside that I never got to know her and she was only 16 when she passed.

hey
i get that feeling

i really do
trina was too young
and had i known that she only had so much time left live
i would've made a better effort to know her

and one of my really good frens? he was even closer to her than i was.

it fucking sucks
i'm not gonna lie
it sucks to know that they're suffering

best advice i can give you is:
-some quotes:

When we lose someone we love, it leaves a giant hole in our lives. You can't push the memories aside as if they'd never existed. You remember them. You remember them for the wonderful times you had together. You cherish those memories as you cherished the person themselves. And you learn how to cope with the loss. you don't ever forget, but each day it becomes a little easier to bear the loss.

- personal experience:
when i learned trina had passed–
i was in a state of shock
for awhile, i couldn't believe that she was dead
that i'd never talk to her again

and at the same time, what i wanted most, and what i wanted the least, was someone to come tell me everything was gonna be okay while giving me a big hug
i wanted to just fucking isolate myself
and i wanted to surround myself with support
and i wanted to just give up
on everything

but in the end,
knowing that there's someone there for you
it really does help

so even if you don't feel like you're doing much
you're probably doing more than you think

Just found out my mom might have Covid.
She's fine, just, yknow, sick. But um. If she's positive and I ended up getting it, I'm fucked. Not in the sense I'm high risk.
I was scheduled to get my vaccine this week, and I can't if I test positive.
I also have a really important doctor appointment coming up next Monday. I have a sleep disorder that's basically spent the last few years sabotaging my life, and I'm finally supposed to get some treatment. It took so long to get scheduled, and I have very limited availability because I'm at college 2 hours away. And it's one of multiple appointments I have to go to before I actually get said treatment. Meanwhile, I've been falling asleep during even the most engaging classes for four or five years, I'm a danger to myself and maybe others on the road, and I'm too fatigued to carry out a lot of activities that would keep me in better physical and mental health than I have been.
And YES, I'm dreaming up a worst case scenario, but this worst case scenario would set me back in a lot of the things I've done to better take care of myself and advocate for myself.
Also my university is really fucking shitty about enforcing quarantine and providing resources to students who choose to quarantine. Like I shouldn't be going out to the dining hall for food if I've been directly exposed???? But they won't stop you. Idk, the idea of full on quarantining is stressing me out. I'm thinking I'll prob just have to leave my dorm and get takeout…… even though that's not ideal, it's all I can do to actually feed myself.
Sorry I'm rambling but bro, why the fuck now????? This couldn't have happened over break? Or waited a few weeks until I was not at home?

Yo, Bec. I’m sorry, dude. Not the best at comforting, but remember that it’s statistically probable that it’ll get better and it’s not as bad as it feels.

Divorced My 3rd Husband Yesterday.

Sure you did.

Divorced My 3rd Husband Yesterday.

i can be your 4th

tw? eds

Hhhh we love anxiety symptoms that look like covid symptoms

Hhhh we love anxiety symptoms that look like covid symptoms

Mood. and then my anxiety loves it even more, thanks health anxiety.
_{I hate when it happens to me, I hope you feel better soon!}

Thank you! I think just letting myself lay in bed, curl up in blankets, and relax helped a lot. And my stomach seems to be feeling better at least.

is it normal and okay to just feel like laying in bed all day cause you're too exhausted to get up except for taking care of things only you can do so that's exactly what you do

lowkey wondering cause i've been told indirectly over and over that if i do this
i'm just being a lazy ass and need to get my ass out of bed and i'll feel better

but i did get up today
i was at my pc for like an hour or two and i was still so tired
and crashed maybe fiveish hours after i woke up idfk

Nah, it doesn't make you lazy at all.
Now it's not normal, per se, for it to be a consistent, recurring thing, beyond maybe just crashing on weekends (that can be a sign of mental illness, whether it be depression or something else. A lot of us have been there.)
But again. Sure as hell doesn't make you lazy. Sometimes getting up doesn't make you feel better, and that's okay too.

okay thank you
i really needed to hear that today <3

Well, That's been me for the past week oof.
For me it's currently still Seasonal Adjustment Disorder mixed with iron deficiency. What I do for getting back into a normal schedule (which is super easy but so hard when you feel like sleeping) is taking iron suppliments and vitamin D, then i pretend to be a plant and drink plain water and sit by a sunny window first thing in the morning. The vitamins stuff you might want to consult with an adult first, but it can help if you're physically crashing, same with the water. The sunlight thing works for me cause it makes my brain think daytime, which gets bad with SAD because it's dark so early. In theory its all just fixing physical problems and tricking out the mental ones for me.

If you're really tired all the time, it's very worth it to try and figure out why. I know my stuff probably won't apply to most people if any, but if anything helps it's worth a shot!

^^^ For sure. Like sometimes it's strictly mental health related. But for some of us it's definitely a physical health thing too.
Like for me it's depression plus sleep disorder. Took me years to figure the latter out though.

alright thank youuu-

Pickles has her True Crime Don'ts, I have my Creepypasta and Serial Killer Don'ts
Serial Killer Don'ts with Ash:
If you're gonna make a mess of a room, don't get it on the ceiling, be considerate of the cleanup crew

Creepypasta Don'ts with Ash:
If your dead aunt leaves you a letter saying not to go in the basement, don't go into the basement, and especially not through the door that you were pretty sure wasn't there a second ago

Thanks Ash, I'll be sure to tip the cleanup crew as well 👍

is it normal and okay to just feel like laying in bed all day cause you're too exhausted to get up except for taking care of things only you can do so that's exactly what you do

lowkey wondering cause i've been told indirectly over and over that if i do this
i'm just being a lazy ass and need to get my ass out of bed and i'll feel better

but i did get up today
i was at my pc for like an hour or two and i was still so tired
and crashed maybe fiveish hours after i woke up idfk

Just remember that even though you aren't lazy for not getting up, sometimes thst can be very mentally unhealthy.

hm oki