forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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yeah…Thanks Xanny.

having one of those days where i'm scared all my creativity is behind me?? what if i've gotten as good as i can and this is it??
i guess being on the internet and looking at other people's stuff is bad for me bc i start comparing myself and wondering– what connection to creativity and emotion do the better writers have that i don't?
and is that connection even one that can be created, or do you have to have it from the beginning or not at all?

It's ok to compare your work to other's, but you have to be careful. There's a blurry line between analyzing and putting down your own work. On the otherhand, the fact you do compare your work and know you have more to learn means you will continue to improve. Nothing is stagnant, and if you continue to work on your writing (or art, music, sports, everything), you will grow.

As for this connection thing, I think it's something you build as you go. No one is born talented. Some people just learn a little faster than others, but there's no use comparing yourself to them. If you do look at other's work, instead of comparing, analyze it away from your work. See what they do and try to see how they did it, and then put it away and go back to your work with the knowledge.
_{This is what I do for art, I hope this makes sense :)}

It's-a me, Ash

Does anybody else call like, 9/10 fictional characters babe, baby, sweetie or hon?
It doesn't even matter if I like the character or not, they all get pet names

Okay so my ex sent me this:

Ice I'm sorry for the way things ended up with us towards the end of it and I still love you I probably always will and that will always hold you in a special place in my heart and that if you ever need to talk about anything feel free to text or call
Idk how you feel but I have been wanting to tell you this for a long time, this has been knawing at the back of my head for a while now and I just needed to tell you

And I…uhh…don't know what to say? We broke up like. a little over two years ago, so it's not like we just broke up and he's just getting over it still

Help

You don't owe him anything Ice,
Anything, you don't have to respond, you don't have to give him the light of day.
If you don't feel comfortable saying anything don't, you don't owe him anything.
His feelings don't mean you have to respond to them.

also he misspelled gnawing which i think reaffirms relsey's point

The thing is, we've been keeping in contact on and off ever since I moved away, so it feels weird to not respond?? Hnnng

Also yeah, his spelling leaves much to be desired he spelled his own name once and I uhhhh

It's-a me, Ash

Does anybody else call like, 9/10 fictional characters babe, baby, sweetie or hon?
It doesn't even matter if I like the character or not, they all get pet names

Wait I forgot to add: This only applies to male characters, ladies get names such as 'queen' and 'goddess'

Also, forgot to add for guys: Angel, sweetpea

Okay so I was just scrolling through tumblr, like you do, looking at Sanders Asides stuff cause the new episode just came out.
And I just witnessed. Some of the most cursed fucking shit I have ever seen
I'm not gonna share what it is because its not child friendly whatsoever. If you really wanna know what it was pm me
But wow. I feel like someone smacked me into a brick wall

I honestly kinda hate myself right now because people are going through actual problems and horrible tragedies yet I have the audacity to be this ungrateful and overdramatic

So yeah it's not very fun but it is what it is

So….

I honestly kinda hate myself right now because people are going through actual problems and horrible tragedies yet I have the audacity to be this ungrateful and overdramatic

So yeah it's not very fun but it is what it is

There is a picture a friend of mine showed me a while back to demonstrate relative pain. Just search for "Wolf Arrows" It'll pop up. At the time it was her way of displaying her argument against her dad who was arguing that she should be fine and she needed to grow up and move on. I saw it and thought, that is why we can't compare ourselves to others.
What you can handle is different then someone else. You know those older people who say "You don't have it so bad I've been through worse this isn't hurting me so it shouldn't hurt you." Their wrong. because they have already been through some of the hardest times of their lives and they have survived it, but for you this is the hardest time and you can't look back on something else to say that if you got through that you can get through this. And sometimes you run into your new hardest moment. I think a lot of us are going to look back at 2020 and say "If I survived that, I can survive this" It will be our new hardest moment.
You're not committing a moral crime by having a bad day when someone else is out there with a day that's objectively worse. You are allowed to feel hurt, and broken and scarred. That's ok, you are allowed to feel that way.

I'm stressed, my stomach hurts, I can't stop smelling smoke and things are blurry and shifting (anxiety hallucinations). I wanna cry. My friend is sad and I'm bad at cheering people up. Idk what to do. I feel like I'm gunna throw up. So much work to do. I can't.

my grandma, yesterday: yeah ur mom said we can watch that anime thing u got from the library
me: yAy

my mom, just a little while ago: oh there's a political thing going on
me, just now: ya'll done yet?
my mom: no, go stay with the cat while the plumber's here

like,,, why did they agree to watch an anime with me if they're gonna absorb themselves with politics whenever i ask if i can watch it??? it may seem like a dumb thing to get upset over but they genuinely tricked me into thinking they were gonna let me watch some aNime

and since it's on a dvd i need the blu-ray player upstairs to watch it but nOoOo they're interested in politics now. curse you, political events!!

So….

Spoiler - click to show.

I've been reading The Boys graphic novel series. I like the premise of the series and the story, however I don't like that derogatory terms are used in regards to the LGBTQ+ community and that a certain R-word are used frequently in the first 20 or so issues just for the sake of "edgeines". Not only that, but the N-word is said as well. I can understand that the creators wanted the series to be edgy and why they wanted it to be that way, but using these terms just for edgeines in a series that is already edgy without their use is disgusting and unnecessary!

I'm reading IT right now and the n word is used too. I know it's somewhat historically accurate but it doesn't sit right with me.

A few LGBT slurs too.

Welp i got so stressed i acquired a massive migraine. Lasted for hours so I just crashed at 7. I'm actually fairly well rested tho.

Well, I'm sorry that your head hurt, but I'm glad you got rested <3

y'all def don't remember me since i was new (and irrelevant) but i have returned
so heyyy it's lemon/ramona

uhhhh i am Sick And Tired of life rn and i wanna d i e

Hi.

I'm reading this book and I'm sitting here having to force myself to not cry because the main character reminds me of myself and he's bein a complete asshole who's insucure about being in a long distance relationship and broke up with his boyfriend becuase of it and it reminds me of the shit I pulled and how I'm lonely and angry and insecure

never mind I'm fine

After conducting research, I can confirm that I am a ✨human disaster✨