forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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thanks for the ideas everyone!

its been 3 hours and ive only watched 4 minutes of this fricking video

Well it's late but, Age and time are two Idea's, also, what country you live in what area of said country, your education, your employment or lack there of. Your Gender, Your race, your Sexuality. Those are just the ones from the top of my head.

i forgot i had a presentation tomorrow so guess who's frantically making a powerpoint while trying to memorize 3 pages of text on cultural legacies of art movements?
Not me cause i'm going to bed.
_{I'm going to HATE my alarm tomorrow but o well}

_{that made me laugh so much ahahahahahah}

What do you do when your so called friends tell your other friends that I am a slut??? and a Whore…..
All because I am Poly …. WTF I am literially never gonna live happily ever without SOMEONE making my life a living hell.

What jerks. I may not get polyamory but other people's consensual relationships aren't my business. Friends especially shouldn't judge you like that, and if they do they should keep it to themselves and not gossip.

Am I the only one on here to avoid doing school?

I mean, Eh I just chat people until school is over.

I'm in algebra class right now lol

Lol I'm at lunch

Dealing with signing up for SSI is giving me stress-induced headaches…. I've been attempting to get a hold of this guy that said to call him for the past 6 days, and I only have 10 days to try to reach him. I've even left callback numbers so that he can contact me and haven't heard anything!

Stop f<"(ing me over and answer the d!?n phone, you a@@hole!

Aw my friends just ditched me to go do sports stuff

my teachers went all out today and emailed my parents about my grades how nice of them?

You know, I don't know why it's just now setting in how much of an absolute failure I am.

TW/ invalidating mental health

You're mom sucks.
Those are all real issues that deserve serious medical attention. You deserve to be taken seriously and treated properly. I'm sorry you're not getting that at home.

Bro that’s literally so fucked. Like social anxiety is a really big issue for lots of people, it’s debilitating, especially if you’re having hallucinations.
So who’s coming with me to fight Swim’s mom?

The hallucinations aren't really hallucinations?
Like, I know it's not happening really
But it feels that way, you know?
And they're super vivid and a always that same thing
I feel like it's tied more to OCD of Autism, both things a 1) therapist 2) phycology teacher and 3) school counselor have told me it's likely I have
But my parents are terrified of putting me on medication or letting me get help at all, because it's expensive and 'i don't need it' according to my mom
My dad is actually warming up to it, surprisingly, but my mom has revealed herself to be the literal Boomer she is

Yeah I get that, I get sort of anxiety caused hallucinations at night.
And yeah if multiple people have said you might have a condition like that then it’s definitely possible
The fact that they won’t even let you get help is..annoying. From someone who also has boomer parents, my parents have little to no true understanding of mental illness, and it can be very frustrating.

Well, I had a therapist, but the place dropped our insurance, and the other place even closer by is known to be a money mill
And my dad had admitted the only reason he'll let me get medication is because he self medicated with illegal drugs for years

RANT TIME
I'm super behind on my schoolwork - like, weeks behind. And the grading period ends Friday and I have no idea how to make it all up. I just can't focus - I literally can't. I saw a Tumblr post once that said something like "it's like being possessed but with myself" and that it exactly what it's like. I just can't stay on one thing for more than a few minutes, if that. I can't even focus on things I want to do. I'm mad at myself to the point of minor self-harm, but I can't stop. I just don't know what to do. On the inside I'm panicking but on the outside I'm just watching Life in the Dreamhouse edits. I just can't focus and now my dad is mad at me and I just want to scream or cry, maybe both. I've had two emotional breakdowns in the past four hours. I don't know what's wrong with me and why I can't focus.

RANT TIME
I'm super behind on my schoolwork - like, weeks behind. And the grading period ends Friday and I have no idea how to make it all up. I just can't focus - I literally can't. I saw a Tumblr post once that said something like "it's like being possessed but with myself" and that it exactly what it's like. I just can't stay on one thing for more than a few minutes, if that. I can't even focus on things I want to do. I'm mad at myself to the point of minor self-harm, but I can't stop. I just don't know what to do. On the inside I'm panicking but on the outside I'm just watching Life in the Dreamhouse edits. I just can't focus and now my dad is mad at me and I just want to scream or cry, maybe both. I've had two emotional breakdowns in the past four hours. I don't know what's wrong with me and why I can't focus.

This might sound a little dumb but have you tried listening to Super Mario Kart music while doing your work? I've had the exact same issue and it really did seem to help me turn in piles of homework I didn't do all of November.

Okay but Swim I feel you, I hallucinate at night but it's my sleep issues and depression that cause it and no matter how much i try to tell my family that I'm suffering they just think it's me being a Moody Teenager™️

RANT TIME
I'm super behind on my schoolwork - like, weeks behind. And the grading period ends Friday and I have no idea how to make it all up. I just can't focus - I literally can't. I saw a Tumblr post once that said something like "it's like being possessed but with myself" and that it exactly what it's like. I just can't stay on one thing for more than a few minutes, if that. I can't even focus on things I want to do. I'm mad at myself to the point of minor self-harm, but I can't stop. I just don't know what to do. On the inside I'm panicking but on the outside I'm just watching Life in the Dreamhouse edits. I just can't focus and now my dad is mad at me and I just want to scream or cry, maybe both. I've had two emotional breakdowns in the past four hours. I don't know what's wrong with me and why I can't focus.

Gosh i relate to that so much. I had to miss 2 weeks of school and now I have so much work to do and no matter how much I try to focus I still can't concentrate. And because of how much school I missed, I have to learn a bunch of new stuff and I have so many tests and so little time to get things done

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Max take me with you I'll help you fight Swim's mom

Seriously bro that's so fucked. I wish there was something I could do other than just say "damn dude that sucks" but there isn't ;-;

Also Jupiter, there's a few things that really help me focus on stuff when my brain's being like that. The "No Thoughts Head Empty Nintendo Music" type of videos really help me personally, ironically. Also make sure you're remembering to drink water, forgetting to do that won't do you any favors

Yeah you know what, fuck it-
here it is

yes it mentions a certain user that i don't know if she still follows this thread or not
please don't mention that section
i dont want to talk about it for god's sake

anyways
tw: suicide i think i'm not sure if i mentioned it in here, pedophelia, death? general caution i'm not even sure

aND YES
it is a google doc
ok that is all

i just needed to share my feelings
… just another thing i wrote, cause i realised i only have a week left…
or rather
he only has a week left

Don’t you love when you don’t want to go to your three hour band rehearsal because you have a mountain of work that’s due either tonight or tomorrow and you’re trying to explain this to your mother and she just goes “that’s not my fault”
Like I never said it was
I just need help, because I can’t do this all and go to my band rehearsals
Literally the only thing I want is help, and no one’s helping

Well I literally just had my biggest breakdown ever in front of my mother and I screamed and cried and she just…didn’t care.
Or at least not enough to let me skip or even be late to band.
Out of the hundreds of rehearsals I’ve gone to, she won’t even let me skip one.
And she just said that I’d be able to do it all and it’d be fine
So that’s that I guess….can’t wait to inevitably break down again while at the rehearsal