I mean…a few details here and there, like that she was deleting her account so she couldn't be tracked or something like that, I believe

Who's Lori??

Y'all know that feeling when you're just sitting there, trying to do your pointless work, and you have to strongly resist the urge to scream

All too well

Yes, I do know that feeling.

_{I wanna fucking die aha}

Please don't die, Maddie. Even if we don't talk much at all, I still care about you and would hate to see you gone. I don't think there's much I can do to help you, but you can always talk to me, I'll always try my best to do something for you.

I just don't think I can do this anymore, honestly
Whenever I try and think about the future I just feel hopelessly empty
I can't imagine living long enough to have a job to support myself with or to get married or whatever
Every day feels the same, and the same is just tedious, useless busywork that gives me more stress than it's worth
I wish I could just stop doing it, but I can't
I don't have the energy to keep going for another two weeks of this shit

I really don't know what I can say to help you. If anything at all. But it's worth a shot.

Years ago, I was the same. Couldn't fathom the idea of growing older and supporting myself with a job. I cried a lot because I thought I was getting nowhere.

But I realized that even though every day seemed like was going the same way, the same dull path, the same mistakes. I realized that I didn't need to stop walking, but rather, I needed to make my own path. It won't be perfect, it'll be bumpy along the way, it'll be hard to traverse. But you can make it Maddie. I sincerely believe it. I swear to you that life will get better, no matter how much it decides to kick you in the knees now.

So here I am now, I'm still walking the path, and I'm still here. I surely do still fall down, but what matters is getting back up. I don't do it alone, so you don't have to either. I'm sure there are many people here who would gladly extend a hand to help you. I know for sure that I'm one of them.

Did that make sense at all?

thank god for the power of headphones and very loud music

that's the only stuff keeping me sane rn

I just don't really have hope for the future, you know? My parents tell me to think about how future me would feel, but that's not motivation for me. I don't care about being alive, and I can't make myself care. I don't have the energy to make motivation where there's none. I've had two mental breakdowns in the past two days and I'm at my fucking limit. I don't care about the work. I don't want to do it. I just want it all to stop so I can finally catch a fucking break

Unfortunately, I can't give you anything more than a I know what you mean and I empathize.

Same here. I'm sorry, Maddie.

Watching military documentaries makes me so much more excited to enlist

I was watching a documentary just a little bit ago. It was kind of interesting. It wasn't on the military though.

Which branch do you plan on enlisting in?

Don't know for sure. Maybe marines.
I'd like to do air force, but at the same time I have some personal reasons not to.
It's just, I already have depression, anxiety, panic disorder, and PTSD.
I feel like that's not a good mix.
But I'm at least doing basic training/boot camp. I've promised myself that.

here is a screaming baby cotton ball reminding you to take care of yourselves

Self care? must be nice.

Self care? must be nice.

-_-

here is a screaming baby cotton ball reminding you to take care of yourselves

thank you ella
this is by far the most important thing I've seen all day

Self care? must be nice.

-_-

it was sarcasm, Im sorry @NutEllaDraws if i upset you

you’re fine lol

you’re fine lol

Alright offers chocolate covered fruits want some?

:/

:/