Man, I just love when people think that I can do everything

Bro, I almost cried tears of joy for the first time in my life today.

Really? Do tell.

It's not all that special really.

Someone pulled me aside today and gave me this short spiel about how great she knew I could be. She said how much that my words amaze her on a daily basis and she said that she knew I could do great. She told me about how she knew I was showing my full potential and that I was dulling my own glow.

She went on to talk about how she understood how stressed and sad I've been lately and how she noticed. It really just made me happy to know that someone noticed and even care. Really the thing that made me the happiest to hear was her tell me these words: "Dude, you have to act like somebody because you're going to be somebody. I know you will". I almost walked away crying after all of that. The last words she said to me were "You seemed like you needed to hear that". I just can't put into words how happy it made me or even why.

That's like the cutest fucking thing

Yoo that's so cool! Like you said, you probably just really needed to hear that. It's really good when someone cares that much to take the time to notice you and then tell you about it.

Yeah! It really brightened the rest of my day. The next time I see her I'll have… something for her. I don't know what though…

She a good friend of yours or pretty random or what?

I can. So can other people. The more you do it, the easier it gets.

I've tried. Hasn't worked
Also that sounds like. Slightly unhealthy

Dom not everyone compartmentalizes their feelings like you do. chill my guy.

I mean, I didn't even try until I turned 14. What I mean is that it can be learned (unless it is a genetic predisposition that has to be triggered.) And it might be a little unhealthy, Idk, but it took away from some bad qualities I had.

I'd consider her more of a good acquaintance.

I can. So can other people. The more you do it, the easier it gets.

I've tried. Hasn't worked
Also that sounds like. Slightly unhealthy

Dom not everyone compartmentalizes their feelings like you do. chill my guy.

I mean, I didn't even try until I turned 14. What I mean is that it can be learned (unless it is a genetic predisposition that has to be triggered.) And it might be a little unhealthy, Idk, but it took away from some bad qualities I had.

Not to be that person, but fun fact that's what serial killers do to keep their lives separate. Every though you probably aren't a serial killer. Is it bad that that's something I kind of wish I could do?

I'd consider her more of a good acquaintance.

You might want to look into making her a friend.

Maybe…

I can. So can other people. The more you do it, the easier it gets.

I've tried. Hasn't worked
Also that sounds like. Slightly unhealthy

Dom not everyone compartmentalizes their feelings like you do. chill my guy.

I mean, I didn't even try until I turned 14. What I mean is that it can be learned (unless it is a genetic predisposition that has to be triggered.) And it might be a little unhealthy, Idk, but it took away from some bad qualities I had.

Not to be that person, but fun fact that's what serial killers do to keep their lives separate. Every though you probably aren't a serial killer. Is it bad that that's something I kind of wish I could do?

Well I do have psychopathic tendencies. Even as a child I would attempt to stifle emotion to things that promoted a response I found to be unpleasant. Now I do that with empathy. (Though sometimes it's not my choice and my relationship with empathy is complicated.) But I now live a life where I nearly always successfully manage to shut down any minor negative emotional response. The bigger ones are a tossup. But I sometimes let those out if I feel the pros outweigh the cons.

Literally forget bad moods today, everyone.

I have a genuine reasons for why I’m happy as opposed to last night and those reasons are:

1) An extremely serious conversation with Nate
2) I got my braces off!!!,,,,!!’
3) I made plans for this weekend with a close friend
4) AND LO AND BEHOLD I DON’T FEEL SICK AAAAH (turns out I was just bloated from about to start my period)
5) And I’m in a funky jazz mood 😎

Here’s a picture of me and my braces off because I want to show it off:

I swear it feels fake

I can. So can other people. The more you do it, the easier it gets.

I've tried. Hasn't worked
Also that sounds like. Slightly unhealthy

Dom not everyone compartmentalizes their feelings like you do. chill my guy.

I mean, I didn't even try until I turned 14. What I mean is that it can be learned (unless it is a genetic predisposition that has to be triggered.) And it might be a little unhealthy, Idk, but it took away from some bad qualities I had.

Not to be that person, but fun fact that's what serial killers do to keep their lives separate. Every though you probably aren't a serial killer. Is it bad that that's something I kind of wish I could do?

Well I do have psychopathic tendencies. Even as a child I would attempt to stifle emotion to things that promoted a response I found to be unpleasant. Now I do that with empathy. (Though sometimes it's not my choice and my relationship with empathy is complicated.) But I now live a life where I nearly always successfully manage to shut down any minor negative emotional response. The bigger ones are a tossup. But I sometimes let those out if I feel the pros outweigh the cons.

I have a thing to say but I feel like it would be better if I stayed quiet. I don't wanna call Dom out in front of everyone.

I approve that you are feeling good Emi!

Whereas there's me who had her fun weekend plans cancelled because of SNOW.

I'm so mad at myself. I get mad for such stupid, small things. I'm REALLY PISSED OFF about a movie!!

I mean, I'm always pissed off, but I wanna keep I my hate for things that really matter, like pedophilia, not a stupid movie.

BUT OH GOD, I WANT THAT MOVIE* AND HOLLYWOOD TO BURN IN THE FUCKING HELL

BURN IT! BURN IT ALL LEAVE NOTHING UNBURNED

Burn burn BURN

*Monster Hunter

Wait's the tea with it? Does it condone pedophilia or something?

I can. So can other people. The more you do it, the easier it gets.

I've tried. Hasn't worked
Also that sounds like. Slightly unhealthy

Dom not everyone compartmentalizes their feelings like you do. chill my guy.

I mean, I didn't even try until I turned 14. What I mean is that it can be learned (unless it is a genetic predisposition that has to be triggered.) And it might be a little unhealthy, Idk, but it took away from some bad qualities I had.

Not to be that person, but fun fact that's what serial killers do to keep their lives separate. Every though you probably aren't a serial killer. Is it bad that that's something I kind of wish I could do?

Well I do have psychopathic tendencies. Even as a child I would attempt to stifle emotion to things that promoted a response I found to be unpleasant. Now I do that with empathy. (Though sometimes it's not my choice and my relationship with empathy is complicated.) But I now live a life where I nearly always successfully manage to shut down any minor negative emotional response. The bigger ones are a tossup. But I sometimes let those out if I feel the pros outweigh the cons.

I have a thing to say but I feel like it would be better if I stayed quiet. I don't wanna call Dom out in front of everyone.

dom that's actually pretty normal to shut down a negative response….not really a psychopathic tendency

Wait's the tea with it? Does it condone pedophilia or something?

No no, it's just a movie about a game series I love and Hollywood is just SHITTING OVER ITS LORE FOR NO GODDAMNED REASON
GODDAMIT HOLLYWOOD, FUCKING LEAVE MY FAVORITE GAMES ALONE

(The pedophilia comment was something like of "I should keep my hate for the things that truly matter", but alas, I can't. I need to get mad at everything, big or small. I wish I could keep the hate for the big things.)