forum Personal Venting Chat, New and Improved! (Without Jerks)

Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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You know how to swipe your eyes nicely, right?

You know how to swipe your eyes nicely, right?

No please explain
Also my face gets super blotchy even after it's been a while, and my voice and hands are still shaky. Which is why irl after I've cried and feel better, my friends don't believe me. I'm also always much more liable to break down in tears again after.
But I only cry tears of frustration in public anymore. They're too hard to control.

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Emi, I'm really detached from my flesh vessel so it's hard to know what to say. I've never dealt with anything like that, but it sounds exhausting and depressing. Please don't belittle this problem to the point where it never gets brought up. Can you talk to your parents about it? Maybe tell them the way you veiw yourself is affecting your appetite and overall mental health? Tell them it's keeping you from enjoying your life?

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That’s the thing tho; I don’t know how to bring it up. It feels so hard to talk about because it’s one of those situations where it’s so easy not to care. I’m finding it hard to talk about it with anyone else, especially people I trust. My parents aren’t people I feel like I can really open up to very much, unfortunately. They don’t put a lot of trust into me at all, so it raised me to just not be very open. I hope that made sense lol.

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Aw man I'm sorry. And yeah, I get that perfectly. My parents are the same exact way.
So I guess the challenge is getting it in their heads that it is problem. If you do decide to open up to them, make sure you have their full focus so you aren't competing for their attention with other things. Putting it in writing can be good to, because they can go over it as much as they need to and they can't dismiss it like they could in a conversation. But I get not being ready or not wanting to talk to parents at all. In the meantime, there are some helplines that you could contact and vent through, maybe even gain advice. I can list some if you'd like.

So pretty much it's down to not rubbing your eyes. Then you can just slide your fingers under your eyes, pointers, middle fingers, and then ring fingers. Then your eyes aren't red and and your cheeks aren't tearstained.

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Are there really helplines you can get for body issues? I mean I get like, bulimia and anorexia but stuff like this? If you could, that’d be great.

I don't really know what to say but know that I'm here for you if you need to vent, Mom <3

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Are there really helplines you can get for body issues? I mean I get like, bulimia and anorexia but stuff like this? If you could, that’d be great.

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So you did mention how attentive you are to how much you eat, so this one is for information and support on eating disorders and body image. They do have hours of operations so you can start a web chat within those.
https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline
This one is for general distress, they'll support you and probably give advice on whatever you're dealing with -
Text START to 741741
This one is also a general distress hotline, they'll probably talk you through stuff and give some links-
Text VOICE to 20121
You might also want to look up warmlines in your state. They're good for just having someone to listen to you and support you. I'm sure they would be of service, but they're usually call only.

The phone plan I’ve got charges me for texting helplines even if they’re free and I just—

Me: has one (1) positive interaction with a boy near my age
My brain: oh good golly this must be a crush

Why are contacts so difficult to put in like I want to see not become enraged enough to commit several war crimes

"'But antidepressants will make me lose my spark' I thought, while unable to eat, leave my apartment, or write just one sentence for six months"

If that isn't me right now-

How long have you had contacts?
I've had mine for years and I've never really had any trouble with them

I started yesterday-

If you've had them for a while and wear them regularly, they might not be the right kind for you and you should tell your eye doctor, but if you haven't been wearing them that long, you're probably just not used to putting them in. It gets easier.

My dad: I'm not telling you what to do
My dad in the same sentence: you can't do this thing
Me:

Random complaint: my butt hurts. I was out at Lake of the Ozarks in Missouri at my grandpa's cousin's house, and he took us out and towed a blow up raft behind the boat, and I was in the raft a lot. And my butt hurts. And my arms and thighs are sunburned

Sucks.

hey y'all.

Yo.

so
words need to be spoken
I wasn't online at all today, and I would've stayed off but I didn't want to worry anyone.
so…
we need to speak
all of y'all
and moi

So how was your day?

Bout what? Gradually intensifying panic

I'm leaving.

Now???

Yep.
maybe tomorrow morning instead so I can say goodbye to a few more people.