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@berlioz

Yo you can PM me, Owen. I'll listen and/or give advice. I'm not always on, but I like you and want you to be well.

Thanks Dom. I'm rather fond of you as well, and I extend the same offer to you :)
('Tis a depiction of a human facial expression)

But seriously, if you're, down, pm me and I'll see what I can do.
(Ah, indeed.)

Maybe another time, I'm going to bed now. What a night. Thank you, Dom. <3

@Kie group

That sentence is giving me such horrible flashbacks.
I finally have one thing to be excited for! IDK when, but my cousin might be dying my hair hot pink. Bleaching sucks, but it'll be worth it just to look even more obnoxious.

On the other hand, I'm just waiting for any excuse to hide in my room and never come out again. Eating and chatting feels like a chore and I honestly wish I could just get dropped into a brine pool.

@Anemone eco

You know, somedays I want to vent, but it feels like it'd be a complete waste of time. It doesn't help me, and I'm pretty sure that almost no one gives a damn.
But whatever, here I am now. I've given up on most other options at this point. Pain doesn't hurt the same anymore, but it's not like it's something I can resist anyway. But what does it really matter? I'll be gone in like a week anyway. Either way, I guess I'll just get straight to the point.

I feel so alone. Typical, right? Fuck yeah, it is. But it's how I feel. Despite how many times people say that they love me or care about me, it always feels like a lie. As if they're just saying it as to not hurt my oh-so fragile feelings. Maybe it's because of my past experiences, but it's just the way I am. I feel sort of bad pushing the feelings onto you all.
I feel disgusted. With myself, of course. I feel like I can get nowhere in this world without selling myself to someone. It hurts. I don't feel like a person or a basic human being. I feel like a toy. Something to be played with, tossed aside for later, and eventually forgotten about.
I'm bitter. So truly bitter. And I hate it. I shouldn't be this way, but I am. But I don't think I should explain exactly what makes me bitter because I'm pretty sure I'll sound like an attention whore if I do.
Really, I just want someone to understand. I don't want to bite back half of the words I do, but I feel like if I don't, no one here will look at me the same. It's terrible, living with a filter over my mouth. Because not a damn person in the world will truly know what I really feel.
I hate thinking I'm getting better just to feel like this. Crushed, dizzy, blinded by tears, afraid, and alone. I'm sick of it. I feel like my life is just a huge example of what not to do. I've screwed myself over way too many times. I can't recover from this. I can't turn back from this road I've paved. Not without every single person I know and love hating me and leaving me behind. I don't want that. I'm in a constant state of conflict. I want someone to love me, but I'm hardly ever myself. I don't know what the fuck to do anymore.
I can't do this. So many nights wasted, stained by tears and blood. The bad thoughts and memories getting to me. Everything is too stressful. I just want this to go away. I want to escape.

Shutting up sounds like a good option. I'm pretty sure I've reached my limit for spilling my feelings. Sorry to waste your time for whoever reads this.

@saor_illust school

oh zach…
this most likely won't help at all, but my time wasn't wasted at all-
if there was anything i could do to help, i would-
i swear.
however, we're all still just strangers on the internet, whether we call ourselves frens or not
we live on opposite sides of the country
there isn't a way for me to help you right now,
but i hope you feel better soon,
even if its just a teensy bit

offers big hugs

@saor_illust school

on another note
i went to write something cause i dont feel too great today
but like now im looking at it and realising
i relate to half of this way too much
i didnt mean for this to turn into a vent
jfsdkljdlk

@berlioz

Zach, I'm sorry you're dealing with those things. You aren't pushing these feelings on us, and you won't and don't sound like an attention whore- you're making youself heard, and you deserve to be heard. I understand just wanting to be done and wanting to escape. If you want to "spill your feelings" unfiltered, and you think it will help you feel understood, you should do so, whether in private or here. We're here to listen without judgment. I truly wish you didn't have these pains. Many virtual hugs <3

@Anemone eco

Thank you two. Late Night (Early Morning? I'm gonna not think too hard about that) Zach is just a really emotional bitch, so sorry about that. I don't really know what else to say. So. Yeah, thank you.

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what do you do when your sinuses feel more stuffed than kim kardashian is with plastic

Deleted user

I'm crying, omg. That is just a mood and hilarious.

Deleted user

there’s a trick I found that usually works but makes you dizzy

I n e e d I t

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

(copied from the internet)

Step 1: Breathe in deeply.

Step 2: Slowly exhale all of your air and hold your breath until you are on empty.

Step 3: Pinch your nose to avoid cheating.

Step 4: Rock your head back and fourth slowly taking 2 seconds from looking at the sky to looking at the ground.

Step 5: Do it until you absolutely NEED a breath.

Step 6: Repeat.

Step 7: Enjoy your clear nose.

Step 8: Profit

@SupernaturalSyGuyIsTIred group

(copied from the internet)

Step 1: Breathe in deeply.

Step 2: Slowly exhale all of your air and hold your breath until you are on empty.

Step 3: Pinch your nose to avoid cheating.

Step 4: Rock your head back and fourth slowly taking 2 seconds from looking at the sky to looking at the ground.

Step 5: Do it until you absolutely NEED a breath.

Step 6: Repeat.

Step 7: Enjoy your clear nose.

Step 8: Profit

Or just repeat steps 1 & 2.

@Anemone eco

on another note
i went to write something cause i dont feel too great today
but like now im looking at it and realising
i relate to half of this way too much
i didnt mean for this to turn into a vent
jfsdkljdlk

Ah. I feel that.