that moment when you haven't had a panic attack in months and then you have a bad one and you're tired and need to shower and didn't eat but you feel kinda nauseous and have a headache
but I'm honestly probably being overdramatic so like
nyeh
That sucks, my guy.
also is it weird that I can't really speak rn (or when I'm in this sorta mindset)? like yes I can but also no i cannot. technically, physically, yes I am able to say words if I try but it takes so much effort and energy for no reason?? and writing/typing is fine but I just Can't say words
Dude!!! I totally feel that!
I'm feeling a bit better now that I've showered and like realigned myself and stuff but it's pretty late so goodnight yall
also is it weird that I can't really speak rn (or when I'm in this sorta mindset)? like yes I can but also no i cannot. technically, physically, yes I am able to say words if I try but it takes so much effort and energy for no reason?? and writing/typing is fine but I just Can't say words
Dude!!! I totally feel that!
heck yeah it's not just me
All ya'll who are arguing about who is better Barbie or Raquel or the siblings, have obviously not seen Barbie Fairy secret. Go educate yourself. And for those of you talking trash about the siblings, have you not seen the Barbie and her sisters movies like The Great puppy chase, if you want one that really displays each of the siblings characters, look at Barbie Dolphin magic.
Also Barbie life in the dream house is not Barbie Cannon, that entire show is literally supposed to be a joke, it's making fun of the barbie tropes. Now I believe all of the Barbie movies are cannon, Barbie's main roll in her world is an actress and she stared in the barbie movies hence the titles "Barbie in (Put name here)" I believe this was confirmed in Barbie: A fashion Fairy tale.
In short, If you are going to debate Barbie, do your research like you would with any other debate topic.
My guy, I have seen every Barbie movie and every character is annoying as fuck in all of them
Well I'm angry. I've just generally been mad at myself, but this morning I really needed to sleep in but my dad apparently has to practice his base without headphones so that didn't happen. I have to work the coffee shop, probably as cashier which I hate because I don't remember to smile and be cheery. I don't want to be cheery. I'm constantly pretending to be cheery. I want to be allowed to be sad without getting yelled at or making someone else even sadder.
Well I'm angry. I've just generally been mad at myself, but this morning I really needed to sleep in but my dad apparently has to practice his base without headphones so that didn't happen. I have to work the coffee shop, probably as cashier which I hate because I don't remember to smile and be cheery. I don't want to be cheery. I'm constantly pretending to be cheery. I want to be allowed to be sad without getting yelled at or making someone else even sadder.
Constantly pretending to be cheery when you're not is mentally and physically exhausting.
also is it weird that I can't really speak rn (or when I'm in this sorta mindset)? like yes I can but also no i cannot. technically, physically, yes I am able to say words if I try but it takes so much effort and energy for no reason?? and writing/typing is fine but I just Can't say words
Dude!!! I totally feel that!
heck yeah it's not just me
Yeah I could chat with you guys with lots of energy, but opening my mouth and making noise (especially noise louder than a murmur) somehow feels impossible and annoying if I actually have to do it.
also is it weird that I can't really speak rn (or when I'm in this sorta mindset)? like yes I can but also no i cannot. technically, physically, yes I am able to say words if I try but it takes so much effort and energy for no reason?? and writing/typing is fine but I just Can't say words
Dude!!! I totally feel that!
heck yeah it's not just me
Yeah I could chat with you guys with lots of energy, but opening my mouth and making noise (especially noise louder than a murmur) somehow feels impossible and annoying if I actually have to do it.
I feel this way pre-panic attack. Post panic attack I'm usually babbling or mumbling out of fatigue.
It's rare that I have anything that resembles a panic attack so Idk what's up.
also is it weird that I can't really speak rn (or when I'm in this sorta mindset)? like yes I can but also no i cannot. technically, physically, yes I am able to say words if I try but it takes so much effort and energy for no reason?? and writing/typing is fine but I just Can't say words
Dude!!! I totally feel that!
heck yeah it's not just me
Yeah I could chat with you guys with lots of energy, but opening my mouth and making noise (especially noise louder than a murmur) somehow feels impossible and annoying if I actually have to do it.
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The closest I've come to panic attacks are me being super paranoid and genuinely thinking I'm going to be murdered. Happened twice. Also sometimes when my dad yells at me. Also twice. And sometimes I get panicky and can't think straight but it's not a panic attack
And sometimes I get panicky and can't think straight but it's not a panic attack
That's what I do. And I pace a lot and make sounds of despair and can't sit still at all.
man skipping your drugs every few days is really difficult when your mom's monitoring you like a hawk
they make me vulnerable which is not good
In what way do they make you vulnerable?
Nutella. Unreal world = Bad. Even harder to navigate + more mistakes.
Ella, it's okay to think "what's that noise?" or "I should not get into a car with this stranger", it's not healthy to think "oh my god, my grandpa is going to kill me, I need to figure out how to defend myself, now, before we get to the murder site, let me run scenarios in my mind of every way this could play out." At least, I'm pretty sure it's not but if it is, I'm probably one of the healthiest people on the planet
There's a certain amount of wariness that keeps you alive and allows you to continue to function like a normal human being, but there's something wrong when it happens at an extreme level all the time.
gonna go off on a limb here and make the very controversial and unique statement that maybe, perhaps, possibly, i do not actually particularly like being mentally ill all that much….. :O ?! shocking i know. i can't get anything done because my brain is made of dry macaroni noodles held together by glitter glue, so i feel stressed and anxious, so i engage in unproductive comfort behaviors, but this further prevents me from doing work, so i feel more stressed and anxious. and i keep forgetting to email my therapist back!!! and i don't know if i have enough money to pay for both my utilities AND my meds at least not without subsisting entirely off of ramen for the next month. i should do something about all of this but i CAN'T i'm so drained and fatigued and i'm cold no matter what i set the thermostat at but it's like almost 90 degrees outside? i am going to scream
it's okay, i just feel like my brain is so defective, like i keep telling myself when [insert material condition here] changes, i will be better, but maybe the problem is just with me. it sucks because underneath my total ineptitude at living i know i'm smart, people have faith in me and give me responsibility and grant money and good grades and i just feel like i don't deserve any of it and i'm disappointing everyone and it's all gonna fall apart sooner rather than later
Bruh I feel that. Hoping this class won't drop my 3.5 GPA.
