forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Bruh I feel that. Hoping this class won't drop my 3.5 GPA.

ah sorry i didn't even see this before i posted my long rambling comment. yup that is the absolute mood

Ay dude. I wouldn't give up just yet. Find a job, hang on to that, look out for opportunity. And make lots of friends in case you go down so you have a place to go.

Ay dude. I wouldn't give up just yet. Find a job, hang on to that, look out for opportunity. And make lots of friends in case you go down so you have a place to go.

Late to the party but I'd pay hundreds to see a Barbie adaptation of Shrek

i sort of wish there were different levels of vent-thread. i think the stuff i say here is too heavy and jarring. i apologize for my past few comments they weren’t good

i sort of wish there were different levels of vent-thread. i think the stuff i say here is too heavy and jarring. i apologize for my past few comments they weren’t good

We should have a light vent-thread, a vent-thread with a trigger warning, and a true crime podcast vent-thread for Pickles and I
And it's okay, fren!

i sort of wish there were different levels of vent-thread. i think the stuff i say here is too heavy and jarring. i apologize for my past few comments they weren’t good

We should have a light vent-thread, a vent-thread with a trigger warning, and a true crime podcast vent-thread for Pickles and I
And it's okay, fren!

yeah that’s exactly the sort of thing i meant, that’s a great idea! (although i’m not familiar enough yet with the culture of this site to determine/make the threads myself)

Why am I tearing up over Alice Oseman's Tumblr? Like I'm just browsing her character art and going like :']

i sort of wish there were different levels of vent-thread. i think the stuff i say here is too heavy and jarring. i apologize for my past few comments they weren’t good

We should have a light vent-thread, a vent-thread with a trigger warning, and a true crime podcast vent-thread for Pickles and I
And it's okay, fren!

Yo I'm filled with so many true crime vents

Why am I tearing up over Alice Oseman's Tumblr? Like I'm just browsing her character art and going like :']

That's the reaction everyone has to her art, like~

I should probably make a help thread for serious vents and advice

Why am I tearing up over Alice Oseman's Tumblr? Like I'm just browsing her character art and going like :']

That's the reaction everyone has to her art, like~

I had a big dumb smile the entire time I read Heartstopper

_{alright i think i found a solution if I can just be brave things should improve from here}

_{alright i think i found a solution if I can just be brave things should improve from here}

Solution to what?

Solution to what, Ella?
You're starting to worry me

the medicine thing

What's your idea? I've dealt with bad meds before.

the meds aren't bad, they're actually really helping with the depression now and whenever i take them i feel a lot happier overall, not quite 2018 levels of general happy but pretty close
however, in the mornings before i take them/they kick in i often panic because they also take away the mental boundaries and fears keeping me safe, so i try to not take them and fight them off
the only problem is nearly every time i don't take them, i end up having another not good episode, usually resulting in serious sh relapses
so my thought is that maybe, if the mental ones aren't healthy, i could instead make some sort of physical limitations, so i couldn't be hurt even if i wanted to
then i can feel safe and still take my meds on the prescribed schedule

Ah, makes sense

night time vent #3 let's go
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dad,,, please,,, stop
you enjoy giving me crap so much, you don't realize how much it hurts
there was a period when you would make me cry and i would literally hide in my room because i was scared of you
i don't anymore, but that doesn't mean you're hurting me any less
i already have self deprecating thoughts of my own
not as much as others may, and i try to push them away
but they're still there
i don't need your constant criticism either
my anxiety always elevates whenever you're around
you always make fun of me and make me feel bad about myself
i can't do ANYTHING without the fear of being judged
i can't even do nothing without the fear of being judged
and like, i'll pick out an outfit and think it's cute. then when i come out of my room he's like "is that what your wearing? you know you're going out in public right?"
so then my self confidence goes down to 0 and i'm like "what's wrong with it? should i change?"
and he'll just be like "no it's fine, there's nothing wrong with it"
and he says he didn't imply that there was anything wrong with it WELL THEN WHY WOULD YOU SAY IT LIKE THAT
and that's just one specific example
and…idk how to end this so yeah, ig. idk

lily you're my child now
your dad is crap
i'm officially adopting you
<3

I wish people wouldn't post suicidal thoughts without trigger warnings here. I'm not being passive aggressive. It just makes me sad especially because I know I can't do anything since people here don't interact with me.

Ignore me. Quarantine makes me lonely and I have no friends.

you know, that's completely understandable. I'll be sure to use spoiler tags or at least warnings in the future, and as the thread's creator, from here on out I request others to do the same.

I thought it was already a rule to be honest. I just wish anyone liked me.