forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

tune

Ah, thank you, I'll remember that.

i do not wish to exist anymore
i am not at enough mental capacity to help anyone
i just
want to stop existing
not have to think
basically all the positives of dying without actually dying

I haven't seen Dom around in a while

I just created Among Us: Extreme Edition.
Player Speed: 3
Confirm Ejects: Off
Crewmate Vision: 5
Impostor Vision: 0.25
Total Tasks: 10(the maximum)
Visual Tasks: Off
For extra fun, have like, 8 crewmates and 3 impostors

Everybody's a coward, nobody played, they all left lmao

gosh existing is scary

I just created Among Us: Extreme Edition.
Player Speed: 3
Confirm Ejects: Off
Crewmate Vision: 5
Impostor Vision: 0.25
Total Tasks: 10(the maximum)
Visual Tasks: Off
For extra fun, have like, 8 crewmates and 3 impostors

Everybody's a coward, nobody played, they all left lmao

I can get behind that except for Confirm Ejects being off
Least favorite feature

Me: [Makes my Kahoot name Zoro]
My Spanish Teacher: Is that from an anime?
Me: You know me so well

so this morning i argued with someone over defunding the police(yes, i am in favour of it. they were not) it was loud. and "someone" is the whole class i was in(plus the teacher lol). today i wore a skirt, and a denim jacket. everyone is talking about me, as the tr*nny who wears a skirt. i'm literally shaking but don't know if i'm upset or not. it's mostly anxiety of being known, not the fact that they think they're hurting me by using slurs, i literally use them to describe myself. so i'm having a great time and chose a horrible day to fight people simply because of my clothing choice. how are y'all?

in less than a week i'm going to have to wake up at 3 hecking am to go on a fifteen hour car ride and i'm. not super hyped
it's for vacation so it'll all be good in the end and i'll cherish these days for te rest of my life, but also ew

sorry if i'm interrupting anything, but hi! i'm back!
sorry i haven't been on in forever
honestly,, _{i was too lazy to log in that's my level of laziness and procrastination}

Did I just spend five minutes crying over a stupid Among Us comic instead of doing my homework? Yes, yes I did.

Dude the Among Us comics are emotional

Yet again, I find myself crying over a character who's always been portrayed as a villain, and has only appeared like, 3 times throughout the whole series
But the poor guy
He can't cry anymore, only laugh
He hates his laugh, poor baby
And his captain just wants to look out for him

Why is it, that I just cried for an hour, but I'm still upset…
that's not how this works
I'm supposed to cry and then feel better because that's just how it works.
Not cry until I don't have tears left and still feel bad.
Coping mechanisms go home you're broken

Oof. Don't remember if you're a hugger or not, but I send virtual hugs to you Rels and to anyone else that may need them!

My brother leaves for the Air Force in 17 days….Not really excited. Glad he's choosing something that makes him happy tho.

Hey.

You probably don't know me, been here for a year but whatever it happens.

I'm just gonna post this before I go to bed, so maybe I'll cry on it a bit then come see I've been ignored again when I wake up.

I wanna make an impression. I want people to like me and like what I do but I'm not likable and no one likes me but the people I force to be my friends and the people who I trick into being my friend.

I think I'm nice, I'm funny, I'm smart, but maybe I'm wrong? Maybe I'm not any of those things? I'm just tricking myself mostly and hoping for the best. And when I die at 22 from some sort of disease or cancer, I'll have no one to blame but myself. I've wasted so much time being sad.

I think I finally get what my mum was trying to say today. That I'm always sad and that I'm wasting precious time. I am. I am wasting time and the only person I have to blame is myself.

I just want friends. I want people to see me or my user and shout HOLLY!! instead of pretending I don't exist. Whatever, it happens.

But I'll show you. I'll show all of you. One day, one day I will mean something. One day I will make an impression and help others. One day I'll make you pay for disregarding me and calling me useless.

And to those who don't ignore me, from Oakley to Adriana on Twitter, I'll make you proud, I promise.

I don’t know what to say to that? But I hope stuff goes okay for you? If you wanna PM me and vent I’m here.

Bad news guys literally everyone in my house is getting sick a week before we’re supposed to have vacation and a day after hanging out with my grandparents so uh
we might have to get tested, find out if this is just a small bug or a minor case of COVID, and uh panic

Why is it that people always look at me weirdly and ridicule me for forgetting the date/day of the week? Like??? Is it really that weird?

Why is it that people always look at me weirdly and ridicule me for forgetting the date/day of the week? Like??? Is it really that weird?

not anymore it's not. shame on them

Why is it that people always look at me weirdly and ridicule me for forgetting the date/day of the week? Like??? Is it really that weird?

No?? And it never was?? Um have they never had to ask someone else the date? Or gone "damn it I thought it was Friday but it's still Thursday" or at least "it feels like a Monday" because I can't think of anyone who hasn't done at least two of those things in front of me

our soda fire kiln was going off fine, but then we heard a crash. the entire back shelf wall collapsed, so over half of the work inside is destroyed. all of my current work was in that kiln, and my senior review is coming up in a week and i might have no work to show. if i can't show work than my graduation gets pushed back a semester and i can't afford to have another semester cause my in-state scholarship runs out. also i have a history midterm that requires date memorization and a full length speech due Monday and Tuesday so guess ill die

_{god i can already feel my SAD kicking in and this week is not helping}

How do I say "you're not the appetizer before the more interesting people come, you are the interesting people, I love you please hug me" without sounding creepy?

Honestly, my memory is hecked. I constantly forget which is left and which is right so I have to use the hand signals to check, but then I forget which way an L points and I have to think about it for five seconds. Half of the time I have I have an impeccable memory and I can remember very specific things down to the second and the other half of the time I draw "S"'s backwards. It's very confusing.