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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Okay. Is there anything I can do to help?

I don't want you to go

Okay. I understand that.
Did this just kick in today?

Has this been building?

GQ, are you there?

look miriam/may/GQ whatever you want me to call you, i know you've probably been told this many times before, but look. open your eyes, see, really see the life you have ahead of you, i know things may not be the best for you right now, and i can't promise this, but if you give up now, things will not get better, we will miss you, and you will never have the chance to do the things you want to do, but never got a chance to. even though we don't know you in real life. ok, i'm just speaking for my own feelings right now. let me back up. even though i probably don't know a single hecking clue about what your going through, how you're feeling, or who you are, who you truly are deep in your heart, i do know one thing. I will miss you, and I truly believe that if you go now, you will be wasting all those years you spent alive.

please read this, i don't want to lose another person…

GQ please, I know there's no hope right now but you're such a special person, and there's so much you can do. So much. Let us help you through this.

Are you there?

I'm here. GQ, I'm not leaving. I'm pulling an allnighter if I have to. I'm here

What do we do?

_{I don’t know, I’ve been panicking, hugging a cat, and trying to hold back tears for the past 10 minutes-}

i don't know. i'm going to pm my message to gq, and if she responds, we'll see. i might even do an allnighter with you if needed
_{ella i feel you. i just feel so… numb inside}

GQ seriously don't do this to yourself. Don't deprive us of your awesome presence. It's not worth it to feel some semblance of relief if you just feel even worse right after.

Yeah, no I'm not leaving my damn laptop until I know you're okay. You're worth it. We care about you.

_{what has become of us? has life really gotten so bad?}

Wow, what a wonderfull feeling. Being called a female by your new yorker and Italian aunt who just got married.
Love feeling like if I got close to anything sharp I would just snap and stab myself.

I'm fine, okay? Great. Everyone is happy. Ta-da.

Oh thank goodness…
vERY BIG HUGS

YOUNG LADY DONT EVER DO THAT TO US AGAIN! YOUR FATHER AND I WERE WORRIED SICK! _{thats a joke, but seriously we love you}

I'm fine, okay? Great. Everyone is happy. Ta-da.

oh my god. i'm so relieved but seriously. please stay…

Wow, what a wonderfull feeling. Being called a female by your new yorker and Italian aunt who just got married.
Love feeling like if I got close to anything sharp I would just snap and stab myself.

I’m so sorry, that really sucks…

Wow, what a wonderfull feeling. Being called a female by your new yorker and Italian aunt who just got married.
Love feeling like if I got close to anything sharp I would just snap and stab myself.

I’m so sorry, that really sucks…

I just want to die.

Wow, what a wonderfull feeling. Being called a female by your new yorker and Italian aunt who just got married.
Love feeling like if I got close to anything sharp I would just snap and stab myself.

I’m so sorry, that really sucks…

I just want to die.

Ok no please….

please don't take your life.

Of course we're not pretending. Turn to us, whether you want to talk about it or not.

_{what has become of us? has life really gotten so bad?}

Hell yeah. Worse than "so bad."
But it doesn't matter, right? Everything is great. Everyone is happy. People totally care about people, they aren't pretending to at all.

look may, i'm just… so numb inside. i can't feel anything, not really. there's this horrible pit of fear inside me, and i… i genuinely don't want to lose you. please…

pfff

That's fair. But I'm not going anywhere.