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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Well my face literally looks like the tragedy mask so I made myself laugh for a little bit. I laughed a lot today do I'm trying to think of that stuff. Not really working

Aaaah that really sucks but the only thing I can really do is listen, as I don't have any advice for you (sadly)

Aw good

It seems like my mother is finally coming around to me not doing it but I don't want to get my hopes up

Well we'll see…

Hehe my face is all swollen I look silly

Hm. If you're ok with me asking, why is your face swollen?

Crying or allergies. Maybe both.

Are you OK?

I think so

My head hurts
My stomach hurts
My brain hurts
My eyes hurt
My soul hurts
Everything hurts
Very much pain…

Are you okay?

Ella, though you always try to be positive, it's ok to be yourself and tell people that you are not feeling just fine. I'm glad you're telling us. Now, for the question asked earlier. Are you, yourself, the amazing Ella ok? If not, what's bothering you? We're here for you, even if all we can offer is someone to talk to :)

Ella, mah child, we love you, and we're here if you need. My PMs are open and I'm here to make sure you're not in pain

_{would it happen to be a certain week of certain sea residing creatures or is it rude of me to assume that and it's something else}

According to a relatively accurate app I have hyperventilation syndrome?

Have you found any ways to treat it?

Hmm, are you 100% sure that the app is legit, and not one of those apps that does "research" for you, and based on these symptoms, therefore you have cancer type things?

It's not really a cancer type thing but I mean I'm pretty sure what I'm feeling is heart pain so it's probably something relatively serious? I don't really know

Are you okay?

I guess, I’m better emotionally but physically there is many pain

I have a headache from crying which was only worsened by the 4+ hours of Kpop music we listened to on the way home, plus my little brother loudly “drumming along” with a few tubs and a pen, completely out of sync with the music… Don’t get me wrong, I love the little guy, but oh gosh I wanted to kill him it was awful

I also had amazing luck regarding my… werewolf thing. Started right in the middle of the funeral, luckily I was wearing all black clothing and came prepared supply-wise because it was pretty bad

My eyes still sting a little, as you would probably expect, I cried… a lot…

And somehow I’m feeling even more like a waste of human life than usual-
Like, I look at myself and all I can think is “how the frick can a human being possibly be this unlikable”

So that’s great

Ella. You're very likable, and I understand the pain completely. Or at least a similar type of pain.
My condolences for thine loss

Thank you, Shuri…
very big hugs

_{would it happen to be a certain week of certain sea residing creatures or is it rude of me to assume that and it's something else}

It does happen to be that
And a funeral
Both
At the same time
Kind of a pain in more ways than one

hugs

ella darling i'm so sorry we weren't here but we owe so much to you and we love you so much here in team mezzo you're amazing