forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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I want my face to stop doing what it isn’t.

I want my face to just stop, so yeah, I feel you.

Also today on notebook I have been uncharacteristically….. I can't think of the right word, Lose, Easygoing, unprofessional? I don't know maybe one of those. It is 100% because I watched Lord of the Rings and all logic and filter goes out the window after I watch one of them. Unfiltered! that's the word I was looking for.

I don’t blame you.

I Also have been procrastinating so hard today, like I made Some Trivia questions based around my poor Time usage instead of actually doing my work.

tokyo drift is dope

i hate my mom and i need to rant but idk how to do a spoiler thing because im bad at everything (:

i hate my mom and i need to rant but idk how to do a spoiler thing because im bad at everything (:

i hate my mom and i need to rant but idk how to do a spoiler thing because im bad at everything (:

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I forget a lot too, don't worry about it! You can just quote this to see how I did it!

Thank you so much

(TW talk of body shaming)

tw for sui*ide

tw for sui*ide

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context: fren lily has depression

so yesterday at noon she told me that she couldn't handle this anymore and she was gonna attempt again
i sent some stuff in return almost immediately, hoping that she'd get it but since she's always invisible on discord i'm not sure if she even saw it. it's now 7.30 and there's two things going through my mind: 1- I managed to forgot about that until now, am I really that bad of a fren?? 2- fuck is she okay i swear to god if she's dead and i wasn't able to help her… god i'm genuinely so scared. i can't lose her i can't.

i would drop everything, and i mean everything to go save her if i could. unfortunately, she lives in the uk so i can't just drive across to see her or whatever, not like i cna drive or antyhing. fuck my stomach is hurting again but this time i think its a combination of both hunger and (stress? anxiety? not sure).

i'm cold. im not sure if i want to go on discord anymore. too many memories to go back to. please please please please please let her be alive. I can't go on if i know that she's dead and i could've done smth abt it.

Call a hotline, the police, anything to make sure someone would be able to stop her
I’m hoping this helps even though it was four hours ago when you posted this

You did what you could.

i tried i tried i tried i tried
it's been 25 hours
no response
dom, what if shes gone
i can't i can't i can't

i'm the closest ive ever been to losing a friend
and i can't even do anything about it
i contacted national suicide helpline
they said they couldn't help unless she contacted them
dom i'm so scared

what if what i tried wasn't enough
what if there was something more i could do
what if what if what if

i could use some virtual hugs rn
and maybe a reassurance that everything will be okay?
i hafta go back to school in under 40 minutes and it's pe so i hafta be okay
i hafta look like i'm fine
i cant be on camera with tears in my eyes
i cant i cant i cant

god stress levels are so high right now

If you did what you could and it wasn’t enough, then it wasn’t enough and that means it’s not your fault. Don’t lose hope yet.

but how could it not be my fault?
what if there were things i couldve know
things i couldve done
and the answers were there in plain sight and i still missed them?

Listen, Iz. You can’t control people. If something happened it’s not your fault. Don’t fall into that mindset. It’s unhealthy and untrue.
You tried. You tried and that’s what matters.

thank you <3

I need to record a three second thing introducing myself for psych but. I can't. I'm sitting in front of the laptop with everything set up and I can't do it. I wanna cry

Hey so this might seem silly but something I was taught to do is make a list of things you need to do in order to do it and then just do one thing at a time.
So first you need to know what to say.
Then you need to push record
then you need to stop the recording
then watch it back
if you like it move on if not repeat the steps
Then you need to attach it to the pace you're submit it
then submit it
Then go eat a cookie because you finished the assignment good for you.

It sounds silly but it works for me, when a task seems impossible or daunting, or even if I just can't physically make my self do the task, I can at least figure out what I need to say.

Hecked up my cookies somehow and now they're too liquidy

what do you do on the days when all you can do is think "i can't."?
i can't.
i cannot go on like this when i genuinely don't feel like things are ever going to change.
(tw for sui/ide)

maybe we'll be forced to evacuate bc of the fires, but what difference will that make?
bc there are still too many people that don't believe in corona, it's not gonna get better for awhile
idk i just feel hopeless
we'll be stuck in quarantine forever
the new normal
sounds fun
no

like
i'm more of an introvert than an extrovert but that doesnt mean i dont ever wanna talk to people
and besides that
my mental health kinda took a downward spiral as quarantine was beginning

i think quarantine was a major contributor to that negative spiral

Oh Izzy, I full fledged agree on this whole pandemic being the cause of A LOT of bad situations. But just know i'm still here for you. I may not be able to call you on the phone, but I can still reply to DM's if need be.

Hecked up my cookies somehow and now they're too liquidy

it's aight they'll still taste good, in the future just keep adding flower until the consistency is right. Somehow your flower to butter ratio got messed up. that happened to my mom once and the cookies ended up all smooshing together while they cooked and became one big cookie in the shape of America.

Hecked up my cookies somehow and now they're too liquidy

it's aight they'll still taste good, in the future just keep adding flower until the consistency is right. Somehow your flower to butter ratio got messed up. that happened to my mom once and the cookies ended up all smooshing together while they cooked and became one big cookie in the shape of America.

yes, i too love adding rose petals to my cookies <3

Izzy,
Change happens,
sometimes it's for good
and some times it's bad
but it happens.
My Friend likes to say "And thus life continues."
Life moves ever on, quarantine wont last forever eventually the world will progress.
It's ok if you just can't. It's ok to feel that way. Life will continue, it will move on.
You will be able to continue, It's alright to be sad
It's alright to morn the absence of normal.
That's ok, that was our way of life, it's alright to be sad.
But life will continue to progress and move forward.
Science will progress
We will get over this Virus.
We will move on from this.