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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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Oh… You're leaving Mir? You'll still be my pen pal, though?

d u h
Yeah, I'm leaving. But it's better this way.
Of course I'll still be your pen pal! And we'll have to find other ways to keep in touch too, idk what I'd do without you!

Oh… You're leaving Mir? You'll still be my pen pal, though?

d u h
Yeah, I'm leaving. But it's better this way.
Of course I'll still be your pen pal! And we'll have to find other ways to keep in touch too, idk what I'd do without you!

Okay, you better promise.
I'd be sad if you left me completley.

how do i convince my mom to get me help?

BE HONEST.
SHE'S YOUR MOM. SHE CARES.
TELL HER "MOM, THIS SADNESS OF MINE IS BAD. I'VE HAD SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND GIVE MYSELF BRUISES ON MY ARMS. I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE, CAN WE PLEASE DO SOMETHING?"
FUCKIN. HONESTY. IS. THE. BEST. POLICY.

but what if i start crying and can’t finish my sentence?
what if she just brushes it off again?
she told me last time to stop googling depression symptoms, that i’m just being overdramatic
will she get angry? what if she tries to blame herself?
this started all so soon after my sister’s anxiety diagnosis
she seems to think i’m just mimicking her

If anything, crying will further prove your point. And if she tells you to stop googling symptoms, say that feeling suicidal a lot doesn't require a Google search to reveal something's wrong

ok…
i'll try and write down what to say
it's too late for tonight but maybe tomorrow i can find some time to talk to her

i give up.
life is hard.
i don't want to do this anymore. why is it that the first thing i see when i get on discord is that several of my closest frens are struggling?
when i try to help
it all fails
i-
i'm on the verge of leaving the server
'nd perhaps even laura's server
idk
i just can't do it anymore
one of my best friends from there is taking a break from discord 'nd-
'nd i can't-
honestly i think she was what kept me sane all these times i was on discord
i think what hurts me the most is-
i can't help my closest frens on discord
i don't know how
and i don't know if i will ever be able to
i want to help them so badly
but how can i
if i myself am already broken

Izzy.
Don't. Please.
Please.
I'll do anything. Please don't.
That's how I started. Little scratches with scissors.
Please, Izzy, just leave the server, tell someone what's going on…

^^^^^

i'll leave the server but
who would i tell? i trust no one irl enough
this is why whenever i feel depressed or sad or down i turn to you guys…

Parents! Siblings!

no siblings here aha
'nd definitely don't trust my parents enough
neither of them even know half of what i actually feel like
they think i'm just a happy lil teenager

Izzy, sometimes you've got to destroy people's images of you to get a point across. Please try to tell them or maybe ask if you can see a therapist.

Then tell them, Izzy!
Show them that everything is not okay and that you are not happy!

i-
i hate therapists
last time i was forced to see one it was all about
"how are you feeling today?"
"show me all your inner thoughts and feelings"
"spill them all out to me, a complete stranger"
idek if i want to tell them

I've never actually been to a therapist, but I've heard that they're all different and that it takes time to find one you like

Ella, as a random stranger once told me, you need to advocate for yourself. It's a scary, slippery slope talking to parents about stuff like this, I know. And it sucks it has to be that way. But the only way you can change your situation is if you advocate for yourself. Even if all goes wrong, you'll still know that you did your best and you stood up for yourself, that you did good. I'm very proud of you for making a plan to tell your mother. That's a very brave choice, and a great way to advocate for yourself. It'll take a lot of courage and strength when you act out that plan. Hopefully, your mother will be understanding with you. And even if she isn't, there are still other ways to get help. Don't loose hope. <3

I'm going to bed now
Goodnight everyone <3

You can’t expect anyone to help you if you don’t tell them anything, Izzy.
Its going to keep getting worse unless you pluck up the courage to tell your parents, and given everything you’re going through I think it would be better for you to tell them sooner rather than later

Facts.
My last therapist, for example?
Not great for me.
But my current one?
oH HONEY
SHE'S THE SHIT
LEAH, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, YOU'RE FUCKING AWESOME

please iz…
don’t do what i did
tell someone as soon as possible
face to face
and don’t try to water things down

see
i don't think i'm "depressed" enough to even warrant a therapist or anything
i know i don't have depression
i can be happy sometimes
'nd as a fren put it, i am "susceptible to situations
emotionally volatile but not fragile"

I only get to talk to my therapist like once a month but he's cool
Keeps telling me to go outside for walks and stuff and I'm like
>:((( fuckinn
fine

My previous therapist literally fucking told me, “I think you get sad sometimes, but I don’t think you have depression.” _{which i disagree with since then considering my life has changed after getting therapy}

You can still get therapy, especially if you’re having thoughts of suicide.

i can be happy sometimes too
it’s not always a constant sad thing
whether you’re depressed or not, it’s best to be safe
please

idk…
ig ill consider talking to my parents 'bout it
keyword: consider
doesn't mean im going to
but i'll think about it

Being depressed does not mean you are incapable of having any happy moments
Believe me, I've been struggling with depression for four years and anxiety even longer
I've only self harmed a couple times, and never with actual blades (I'm too much of a coward)
But there's a way out
They all say there is
I've seen people recover
Now I'm just waiting for my turn, and yours will come too
You just gotta learn to appreciate little things because, especially considering we're all stuck inside atm, it'll be really hard to find good things
Did someone compliment you today? Let yourself feel good
Did you get to play a game you like? Enjoy the free time spent doing what you like
Did you do a fuck ton of cleaning today? Be proud of yourself for being productive
Even if it's something as little as "I brushed my hair today even though no one is going to see me"
Little things