Logan Evan Williams

Most of the rest of the team shortened his name to Lo because they feel the need to shorten everything.
Asia calls him sweetheart & pumpkin.

His hero name is Vanish, and he used it as his villain alias as well, because he quite literally makes stuff disappear.

28 (born 1/21/96 - Aquarius)

demisexual biromantic

male (he/him)

Protagonist

shaggy with layers framing his face

dark brown

He has a little bit of stubble that he wanted to grow, but he doesn't like it, especially because he thinks Dean looks good with his beard and Logan doesn't think he could pull it off.

From Q&A: If you don't like a beard, do you think you could handle mutton chops or a soul patch or a mustache or even a goatee?
A: Uh, maybe a mustache? I dunno, I just don't think I'd look good with facial hair. I'm always worried I'll look like a kid with like, those prosthetics they use in high school theatre programs. Maybe if Asia really wanted me to, but...I don't think facial hair's for me.

pale blue

5'10"

165 lbs

He has a scar through his right eye (looking at him, it's the left) from where Samantha slashed him. She didn't mean to. He's now blind in that eye.
He has a lot of healed-over self-harm scars on his arms and legs.
He has top surgery scars.

He has both ears pierced, but he only ever wears studs.
He has an inch-large tattoo of a black heart on the back of his neck that he's working on getting removed. Madeline forced him to get it and he hates that it's there.
He got a Medusa tattoo on his upper back & a knife going through a few pink hearts on his upper thigh.
At some point, he had his septum pierced, but it closed up awhile ago because Madeline said he looked like a bull.

scarily slim and definitely needs to eat more.

paler than the average white guy

Caucasian (half-Swedish on his father's side)

Metahuman - mostly human species born with a recessive gene that, when activated, gives them superpowers in their adolescence. People may be carriers of the metahuman gene without it being active, but for this case, Logan has an active metahuman gene that activated when he was 11.

Like a lot of trans people, he thrives on layers. He has a rotation of button-ups, dad sweaters, and light jackets that he wears with Converse & various sets of dress shoes.

He owns a couple of suits from his time with Madeline, since she liked to dress him up like her personal Ken doll, but he doesn't go to enough formal events to make them worth it.

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He's very for human rights, especially queer rights. He's also extremely behind the MeToo movement.

He has intense anxiety & PTSD, in addition to his gender dysphoria.

He keeps his body very close to himself, so he's always very tense and has knots in his upper back.
When he was new to the League, he was very quiet and constantly terrified of "speaking out of line". He's gotten much more used to the League's dry sense of humor and quick wit, but it took him awhile to get there.

His team and his freedom.

Anything he touches disappears without a trace, except his own body. It also is the entire thing, not just whatever part he touches, and it's almost immediate, not gradually disappearing a la Thanos snap.
H e d o e s n o t k n o w w h e r e t h i n g s g o. Stop asking. He wishes he knew, but he doesn't.

He's very hesitant in battle. Madeline controlled his every move in early Legion battles, so he never really learned how to fight on his own, although he does have some muscle memory. Dean's helping to train him.
He also can't ever turn off his powers, so he has to wear special gloves so nothing accidentally vanishes.

He loves plants. Like, loves plants. He has a scary amount of succulents in his room.
He also is a photography nut and was trying to get into art school before Madeline. [[Asia Berry]] is pushing him to nurture his talents.

INFJ & True Neutral

Dipper Pines (Gravity Falls), Rogue (X-Men)

He doesn't eat much, but he likes ramen a slightly unhealthy amount.

Cats.

His powers

His fidget rings.

Dark green and light blue.

Scooby Doo (2002) & Scooby-Doo 2: Monsters Unleashed (2004)

Adventure Time (yes including Fionna & Cake, he's not a monster) & Friends

Superhero.

Liberal.

Atheist

From Q&A:

Q: What is your biggest regret?
A: Coming out to Madeline. I don't really want to talk about it.

Q: Pineapple on pizza or no?
A: No pineapple, sorry.

Q: What is your greatest achievement?
A: Personally, not sure if this counts as an achievement, but getting away from Madeline and becoming a part of this family.

Q: Where do y'all see yourselves in like, 20 or 30 years?
A: Finally comfortable in my own body, maybe with a partner. I don't particularly want kids, but maybe we'd have a cat.

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He was born in Erie, PA & now lives in Jersey City in the League base.

He has a high-school diploma and he was planning to go to art school, but he never had the chance.

He discovered his powers when he was 11 and woke up on a bare mattress. He also figured out he was trans around the same time.
His senior year of high school, he decides to take his chances and book it. He chops all his hair off, packs his shit into his car, and drives off to New York to stay with a chill family friend: Kelsey Hughes.
His original plan was to work & try and get into art school for photography.
He stays with Kelsey for all of a couple of weeks before literally running into [[Madeline Prince]] in a Starbucks. She uses her powers on him subtly enough that he doesn't even realize until almost a decade later to convince him to sit and talk for a few hours.
She complains about her third world problems, and he tells her his life story. She's also the first person he ever comes out to as trans. In lovely gaslighter fashion, she offers to house him since her parents are out of town for the foreseeable future. He originally declines, but she eventually coerces him into saying yes.
After living together for a couple months, they start dating, and thus begins her parading him around to parties as her queer charity case. He starts to mind, so she proceeds to use her powers on him more and more.
It isn't until she gets him drunk off his ass and SAs him that he comes back to his senses, but unfortunately, he falls all that much further in.
He does try to reach back out to Kelsey so he could have a way out, but as it turned out, she'd slipped in her shower and died on impact. (which he later found out was Madeline's doing)
She continues to have him as her brainwashed puppet for several more years, during which she brands him with a black heart tattoo on the back of his neck and forces him to join the Legion, the villain team she's forming.

(more on his leaving the Legion in his playlist analysis!)

He didn't date anyone before Madeline, so he didn't really know how healthy relationships were supposed to vibe.
After her, he didn't really plan on getting into another relationship, but then there was Asia.
He's now currently dating Asia.

He had a shitty relationship with his parents, since they were pretty aggressively Catholic and made it very apparent even before he came out that if he "turned out to be gay" that he wouldn't be welcome in their home. He has no remorse about cutting them off.

none but he wants a dog

He was one of the founding members of the Legion against his own will, but he eventually joined the League after Peter was kicked out.

While most of the League isn't entirely...favored, he's outwardly disliked because the public knew him as a villain first.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0bjcfhv7ICPWdhuryNvJQ9?si=8163e92cfba54111

His playlist covers when he first started dating Madeline to her death.

TW // s/xual assault, s/icidal thoughts

As a barely out trans guy in the middle of New York, Logan suffered immensely from anxiety, gender dysphoria, and massive imposter syndrome (Body Terror Song), but at least he found Madeline, the first real friend he had as Logan. Unfortunately, she had other intentions, but he wasn't quite aware of that yet. Instead, he just had to deal with her weird on-and-off personality and avoid making any comments on it less she lash out before quickly apologizing with a kiss. But he'd never been in a relationship before, and she always apologized, so...it was fine (Bugbear, What Do You Want from Me Tonight?).
It only seemed to worsen though, especially when she dragged him to some loud party, put something in his drink, and the next thing he knew, he was groggily opening his eyes to her sexually assaulting him. She tried her best to make the memory go away, but it lingered, and he always had this slight unsettling feeling about her from then on (I DONT TRUST U ANYMORE).
She proceeded to give him the worst case of separation anxiety known to man, making him believe that he was only his best self when she was right beside him, directing his every move (Anxiety Song, Dread in My Heart, Dead Weight, This Is Home, the saddest bop u'v EVER heard, Benjamin Alphabet, Turtleneck Sweater). Her forcing him to join the Legion was just the next step in her plan, quite literally puppetin him for her own evil gain (Choke - Acoustic, No Control, Vanilla Curls, Sweet Hibiscus Tea). At some point, he got very close to ending his own life (Downhill), but Julianna was able to talk him out of it.
He wanted to plot some sort of escape, but his ties to people in the Legion, especially considering that they were all he had, forced him to stay. He spiraled for a very long time, dealing with the worst bout of depression and disassociation in his life (Transient, Never Meant To Know, a conversation about identity, Angel Eyes and Basketball, I Scared All My Friends Away, Jacket Over Hoodie Over Shirt, Ramblings of a Lunatic, Prologue, Deep Breaths).
He did finally get his break, with the help of CJ breaking into the Legion base and pulling a "come with me if you want to live". Unfortunately, depression is not that simply cured, so he still really struggled, but he was at least in a better environment (thrifted youth, sorry haha i fell asleep, Hungover in the City of Dust, My Heart Is Buried In Venice, Burnt Espresso, Honey Moon). It 100% helped when he started fostering his relationship with Asia and she was able to help negate all the screaming thoughts in his mind (Fine!, Forever & the Stars, Sad Forever).
And thank fuck that Peter decided to kill that bitch. He fucking deserved to, and she fucking deserved it (Deserve Me).

Body Terror Song by AJJ
“I'm so sorry that you have to have a body. I'm so sorry that you have to have a body, oh yeah. I'm very sorry that you have to have a body. One that will hurt you, and be the subject of so much of your fear. It will betray you, be used against you, then it'll fail on you my dear. But before that, you'll be a doormat, for every vicious narcissist in the world. Oh how they'll screw you, all up and over, then feed you silence for dessert.”

Bugbear by chloe moriondo
“And oh, whoa, I just want you to know I feel so brain dead next to you. It's not like you intended to hurt me or make me feel that way, and I'm not tryin' to complain but it just sucks to try and explain why I feel like this every day.”

What Do You Want from Me Tonight? by Sidney Gish
“Cause I'm invited but I'm terrifying, too, and I'll sit here for a million years, just staring across the room. But what do you want? ‘Cause I want it all and I'd really rather step back, but my back's against the wall.”

I DONT TRUST U ANYMORE by Left at London
“And I guess it's inflation, but damn, it's hard to value my two cents. As a kid, I was idolizing millionaires and all the presidents, but. I don’t trust them anymore. No way, no way, no, not again. And I may never trust at all, no way, no way, I’m over them.”

Anxiety Song by Human Petting Zoo
“I can't stand being alone for just a little while. Just a couple hours and I will hate myself. Anxiety has led me to believe the ones I love will leave. They're never coming back to me, and I will die alone.”

Dread in My Heart by Mother Mother
“There's a devil in my brain with a pitchfork and a flame. Yeah, he likes to poke around, and he likes to tell me things. And whenever I begin to feel like I might be deranged, I remember there's a little shitty devil in my brain.”

Dead Weight by Jack Stauber
“Oh, what the hell can I do? To fill the pages? Meet the strangers? Kiss the girl, take it in, feel the ages? A time or two, but it's all so good to let up. Dead weight.”

This Is Home by Cavetown
“Turn off your porcelain face. I can't really think right now in this place, there's too many colors enough to drive all of us insane. Are you dead? Sometimes I think I'm dead 'cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head, but I don't wanna fall asleep just yet.”

the saddest bop u’v EVER heard by Rory Webley
“Hi, I'm your friendly neighborhood poltergeist. Nobody ever looks at me twice. I'm used to being see-through, but it feels so bad when it happens with you. Wish you'd see me the way I see you.”

Benjamin Alphabet by Super Whatevr
“We're losing sleep within each dividend, and I want this relief but we keep sinking in. Love, I'm lost, but I'm found in your cold heartless gaze. Won't you just leave this house, please don't scream at my face. Love I'm a wreck, holy fuck.”

Turtleneck Sweater by Marinelli
“With her hands around my throat like a turtleneck sweater. If she tried to kill me, I think that I would let her. See, I was doing better before she was doing better than me. Yeah, I was doing better before she was doing better than me.”

Choke - Acoustic by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME
“Now shut your dirty mouth. If I could burn this town, I wouldn't hesitate to smile while you suffocate and die, and that would be just fine.”

No Control by Set It Off
“Fall to my knees, God I beg you please, show me just a little mercy. Help me, help me! I'm doing all I can. Pretend I'm unaffected, but their pain became my burden. Swear this isn't what I wanted. God, this house is haunted. The way that this could be, if things would remedy, and after all of this we've been through, I wish that we could switch shoes. This life ain't fair for us all.”

Vanilla Curls by Teddy Hyde
“What will it take? Was this a mistake? I'm paying the price for those velvet eyes. In a minute she already put my feelings in their place; I hate vegetables, but I'd put that stringbean on my plate. She caught me by the ear and left me lying here in writhing fear. If I get any deeper, I might need diving gear. Instant kindred inhibition, a kiss then distance. It isn't over; let's call it an infinite intermission.”

Sweet Hibiscus Tea by Penelope Scott
“And I am not your protagonist. I'm not even my own. I don't know anything, I don't even know what I don't know. And if you look outside you'll see disintegrating trees, the artificial way the sunlight bounces off the glitching leaves. My wet heart catches on every thorn. You're already halfway out the door. And I'm so tiny and so old, and God it's never been so cold, and it is 85 degrees. I don't know what I need.”

Downhill by Lincoln
“And you’re the one who taught me to be brave. I’ve never spent a moment loving anyone but you, and maybe that’s just something that people say, but I hope that you know it’s the truth. Because I went downhill at such steep incline that my rearview mirror showed me only the sky, and I laughed about it all night.”

Transient by The Blank Minds
“My mind is reeling, is this right or is this wrong? I question every word I wrote in that song. I should say I'm sorry, it was my fault. I'm sorry it's a little foggy on my front. It's hard to explain what goes on in my mind while it's easy to write. The hard thing I find is being open and honest and telling you the truth because if i told you what goes on all the screws would come loose.”

Never Meant To Know by Tally Hall
“Having enjoyed all the meat from the bone is perfectly equal to being alone. It was even, but you breathe and I turn to stone. Everything suddenly looks like a sign easy to see from the outermost clime. I believe in what I leave in the way behind. And all the parts combine to one, and all of us around the sun. Everything will fall away to order from the disarray. See the sun, the shadows cast from all the times I floated past. See the ocean spinning out with all the hope and all the doubt.”

a conversation about identity by tea
“I’m breathing in fresh air on my grandparents' front porch while you're laying in the grass, or you're staring at the floor and anxious like I am. I'm panicking again 'cause I'm losing touch with all the people I call friends.”

Angel Eyes and Basketball by Foot Ox
“There are flowers growing all around a massive animal inside of me. And it's so ugly, and I'm so broken. And I'm so ugly, and it's so broken. I am calling all of my friends to pull me out from this hole, but they're so caught up in their own shit, and I'm so caught up in my own shit. Worlds collapsing all inward, and the drones are piercing through its own skin, but I think we should live together. Yeah I think we should live together.”

I Scared All My Friends Away by beard
“I scared all my friends away. I wished they would stay, but they were too far gone. I tried my best to explain but it was too late; they'd already moved on.”

Jacket Over Hoodie Over Shirt by Marco Aziel
“I woke up soaked in sweat and daylight. It's almost one. The whole morning's gone to waste. I had so many things I wanted to get done. To make it worse, fell asleep in my jacket over hoodie over shirt.”

Ramblings of a Lunatic by Bears In Trees
“Would anyone listen to this, the ramblings of a lunatic? My mind does play an awful trick, the ramblings of a lunatic. Would anyone listen to this? I'm running from my emptiness. My brain is tired, my stomach sick, the ramblings of a lunatic.”

Prologue by Chase Petra
“Don't need a fortune teller, I can see my future fine. I'm going nowhere, all my friends will leave me behind, and sometimes, late at night, I let it make me cry. Service industry is where I will spend out my days. Don't read my name tag, I'm wearing someone else's, anyways. You don't need to know my name.”

Deep Breaths by Sushi Soucy
“This is the story of a kid who never did learn how to breathe, and strangely enough, other than that, he was normal. He did everything else other kids did, like playing or read. There was something wrong with him.”

thrifted youth by dalynn
“'Cause we're just laughing 'cause we feel like crying, pretend we don't care but we're all lying. They say we're all self-obsessed 'cause we're in love with loneliness. Who knew fear could be so unifying?”

sorry haha i fell asleep by Egg
“Sorry, I didn't respond for a week, I was in class, and then I fell asleep. Woke up late for work, and left my phone at home. I didn't mean to leave you hanging there all alone. Sorry, I left you unread for the day, I couldn't think of anything worthwhile to say. I don't know just yet who you take me to be, and I don't wanna spoil your impression of me. Oh, this is just what I do: pushing you away though I wanna be close to you.”

Hungover in the City of Dust by Autoheart
“Insolent and out of character, we’ve changed so much. I barely recognize our formative lives hidden deep, deep, deep underground. And they won’t come back. They won’t come back no more. We’re hungover in the city of dust. Let our hearts run round in circles while we fall apart. We’re hungover in the city of dust. Let our minds run round in circles while we figure it all out.”

My Heart Is Buried In Venice by Ricky Montgomery
“Come rest your bones next to me and toss all your thoughts to the sea. I'll pull up each of our anchors so we can get lost, you and me. My heart is buried in Venice hidden beneath all my worries and doubts. My heart is buried in Venice, waiting for someone to take it home.”

Burnt Espresso by Sidney Amos, Barnes Blvd.
“Say you seem the type who knows just what to do, and I'll say back to you that it takes one to know one and I'd liked to get to know one, so if you'd to drink shitty coffee down a couple streets at the northbound side of me, I'd love to stay there and think of what to say there, yeah. If you'd like to go somewhere I know, we could both smell like burnt espresso.”

Honey Moon by Birds in the Airport
“Water damaged memories are floating down my street. Most of my duct taped dreams died screaming 'cause I guess I sprung just one too many leaks. My world was corroding, didn't know what to do. You made that decade of amnesia wake up to the glow of a honey moon.”

Fine! by Mal Blum
“You're gonna be fine. You're gonna be tip-top shape and tapping toes and fly. You're gonna act awesome and self-assured. We're gonna seem contemplative, nonchalant and bored.”

Forever & the Stars by The Lone Ghosts
“I'm so happy with myself, and I feel like someone else. You've helped me through the dark. I've left my mark. Now we're stuck together, but I'm so happy for myself. I'm so happy for myself.”

Sad Forever by Anthony Amorim
“Oh, this is where I'm at. This is what I dress like. This is how I act. You cannot make me feel like it is now or never. I don't want to be sad forever. Oh‚ this is who I am. You say you don't like it, I don't give a damn. You cannot make me feel like it is now or never. I'm not gonna be sad forever.”

Deserve Me by Bug Hunter
“A cross to my shoulder, a jab to my chest, a kick to my ego, a lack of defense. As though in slow motion, you wind up again. What do I deserve? I'm finally ready to admit this wasn't my fault to learn that love does not exist when I feel this small. And I can count on one hand the times you made me feel worthy; now I can count on one finger to say: you don't deserve me.”

Blackbird - Chris Colfer (Glee Cover)

He really likes chill music that he can put on as background noise but still vibe with. His favorite artists are AJR, Cavetown, & Ricky Montgomery.

Simon: Don't you ever want to talk about your feelings, Lucas?
Lucas: Nope
Logan: I do
Simon: i know Lo
Logan: I’m sad
Simon: I know Lo

Lucas: What’s your biggest fear?
Logan: Being forgotten.
Lucas: ...fuck that’s deep
Lucas: mine is the kool aid man but I feel kinda stupid about it now

Logan: What is your problem? Does watching me suffer somehow make you feel better about your own sad, miserable life?
Madeline: it does, 100%

Logan: Quick! To the panic room!
Simon: The base doesn't have a panic room.
Logan: Any room can be a panic room if you panic hard enough.

CJ: Listen...the day you came to us was the happiest day of our lives.
Logan: You guys know I’m not actually your child, right?
Simon: What? That’s a horrible thing to say.
Logan: The truth?
CJ: Just because you’re adopted doesn’t mean you’re anything less than a son to us.
Logan: You didn’t adopt me. We met a few weeks ago. I’m 24 years old.
Sarah: Logan, don’t talk to your parent like that.

Simon: I wish I had the ability to make boys really nervous.
Chloe: Holding a really sharp knife to their neck usually does the trick for me.
Logan: As a boy, I can confirm: this makes me very nervous

Madeline: Give me Logan back
CJ: Hold up lemme hold a meeting
Madeline: It’s not a choi-
CJ: The council has decided.
Simon and Sarah hugging Logan: Fuck you

Simon: EVERYTHING YOU DO IS GREAT AND I’M PROUD OF YOU.
Logan: You’re yelling nice things at me again and it’s very confusing

Logan: Why are there tides?
Mom Sarah: The moon is trying to steal our water but it’s very bad at it.

Sarah: Imagine if someone handed you a box full of all the items you have lost throughout your life.
Chloe: It would be nice to get my sense of purpose back.
Dean: Oh wow! My childhood innocence! Thank you for finding this!
Logan: My will to live! I can’t even remember when I last had this.
Lucas: I knew I lost my potential somewhere!
Simon: Mental stability, my old friend!
Henry: Guys, could you lighten up a little?

Sarah: Who hurt you?
Logan: Do you want a list or what?
Sarah:
Sarah: Actually yes

James: Why did you stay then? If you disapprove of everything we do?
Logan: Do you think I wanted this? Do you think I wanted to fall in love?
Logan: I want to hate you. I want to hate you so bad, after everything you’ve made me feel, everything you’ve done. But I can’t. And I…I think I might hate myself a bit. Because I’m not strong enough. Isn’t that what it is? Strength? I don’t know what else to call it. I just know that it hurts. And I left, but she followed me like she always does. The pain never left even after I did.

Jack: But were you born as a boy or a girl?
Simon: Bold of you to assume I was born at all.
Logan: Personally, I was created in a lab.
Samantha: I just straight up spawned.
CJ: Our lord and savior Anubis just threw me up.
Becky: My existence is a figment of your imagination.
Dean: I was born at the age of four, my mother being dead at the time.
Chloe: I’m just a rock that grew legs.

Xavier: If you want to be a hero, Logan…
Logan: I’m not! We’re so close, I’m not the hero–
Xavier: You want to be a hero, Logan? THEN DIE LIKE ONE

Logan: Is it worth it?
Dean: What?
Logan: I’ve been watching for a long time–one person lashes out and then the other does, until they’re both gone. From what I’ve seen, it feels like people don’t stop taking that revenge. Is it ever worth it?
Dean: quietly No. No, it’s not.

Logan: I’m afraid of waking up in the morning

Logan: All good things come to an end once I acknowledge them

Logan: And then everyone is gonna appear out of a bush and they’re gonna be “surprise!” and I’m gonna be like “you guys! You are always- You’re always pranking me... but you’ve always been there for me... every single time... except sometimes... when I needed you the most…”

Logan: I...have seen so much. I've seen empires rise and fall, and their strongest people fall with them. And I've seen the weak that are left fight for scraps. But I never understood why...until you taught me. Until you took me in.
Logan: Lesson One: Humans are assholes. You told me that. But more importantly, you showed me that when you saw me, something malleable, and all of you made me into the worst parts of each.
Logan: Lesson Two: Politics are the way to power. Use the conflicts and beliefs of people to rally them. And you did, you rallied everyone here, didn't you?
Logan: Lesson Three: Create no emotional attachments. But you didn't follow that lesson and I didn't either. Maybe that's why we're here. But there are more!
Logan: Lesson Four: Everything gets destroyed. Lesson Five: Trust nobody. Lesson Six: Hold your ground against authority. And Lesson Seven? Seek successful revenge, because if you fail, the consequences will be bitter.
Logan: I will not fail. Because we have one thing in common through everything we've been through:
Logan: The same human ruined our lives.
Logan: Because you are not a good person. It's like you said with Lesson Eight. Legacy is all you leave behind in this world… I hope you leave behind a good one.

CJ: My life is a little too much Panic and not enough Disco.
Simon: My life is a little too much Fall and not enough Boy.
Logan: My life is a little too much Chemical and not enough Romance.
Asia: My life is a little too much Imagination and not nearly enough Dragons.

Logan: It's always ‘why did you go out in the storm?’ and ‘you’re soaking wet!’ And never how was the storm The storm looked fun was it fun

Logan: yeah sex is cool but have you ever had someone respond to your sarcasm with better sarcasm

Guy in a fist fight, very clearly winning, but he’s sobbing and wailing the whole time: Logan
Guy visibly getting his ass wrecked in a fist fight but he’s talking shit about the other guy like he’s winning: Peter

Logan: Why needs therapy when you can gaslight yourself into thinking that everything is fine.
Asia: