forum Broken Dreams and Haunting Memories// Closed!// 16+

Started September 19, 2020 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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“For now….for now you just have to let them be. We’ll have to figure that out further later down the line.” He said, knowing it was probably overwhelming now for the god.

Astral nodded slowly. It was… there were just so many. Every time he looked away so he didn't have to see them any more there was always another there…

“One step at a time, okay? If you try and handle all of it at once it’ll overwhelm you. You have to take it slow, remember?” Emile reminded him gently.

(Pff, that's not going to go over well XD)

"Right… Slow." Astral just looked down at his lap finally. "I'll take it slow." Focus on Simon and Mia.

((Yeah I didn’t think so XD. He’ll wait until he thinks it’s likely that Astral actually will. But I mean he is gonna check up on them and stuff even if Astral lets him go))

He nodded. “Good.” He had to make sure he could guarantee Simon’s safety. He’d be closely monitoring the entire process.

(Ye. It might take some time, of course, for Astral to be close to willing to let Emile go)

If Astral had kept thinking so much about all the people he needed to help, he might have given up there and then.
"Simon is my number one priority."

((Ofc. Hopefully Simon doesn’t find out, that’ll upset him))

“Yes. He is. Just focus on helping Simon first. We can figure the rest out later.”

(Yeaaaah… XD)

"Right. Later…" Astral let out a long breath. "God, I feel like I've already fucked this up."

“You haven’t. And the fact that you feel like that can honestly be good. It’s better to think you’re doing everything wrong than think you’re doing everything right.”

"Ah…" Astral closed his eyes a moment. It was so… strange. He really was used to thinking he was always right in the end.

He knew this was probably a lot for Astral to process, so he was trying to be patient and understanding.

Astral raised his hand to his eyes for a moment.
"Is it really worth it?" He asked, voice small. He still couldn't help but voice the worried little voice in the back of his mind.

“Yes. Absolutely. If you do this then Simon will be happier, and he’ll live for a hell of a lot longer. And if you fix your relationship with him and maybe with Mia too, that’ll only make your relationship with your kid better too.” He said, quick to reassure the god.

Astral nodded slowly as he listened to Emile's words. He really needed them, to know he wasn't crazy for thinking he should do this. If worst came to worst, he really could fall back on doing this for the child.

Emile was glad that the words seemed to help. He needed Astral to follow through on this plan.

Astral slowly pulled his hand away from his eyes, opening them.
"Thank you…"

((OMG ASTRAL KNOWS HOW TO SAY THANK YOU))

Emile was honestly surprised at the words and it took a second before he replied. “You’re very welcome.”

(I KNOW EVERYONE IS SHOCKED XD)

Astral looked over, a weak chuckle coming out of his mouth.
"Surprised?"

“Just a little bit.” He replied, smiling softly. He didn’t want to accidentally offend Astral after all.

"It doesn't come as a shock to me. I'm not sure when the last time I said 'thank you' for real was." Astral let out a breath. He'd said it before, but it was always mocking. Thank you for letting me use your body. Thank you for being such a good toy.

((Ofc he’d say stuff like that, dammit Astral))

Emile nodded. “It’s an environmental thing I think. Most immortals I’ve met are terrible at apologizing or saying thanks.”

(He really is an asshole :) )

"Yeah, I must agree. I know some, but… They're few and far between." Astral shook his head, not looking at any trinkets again. He'd be able to tell Emile exactly which ones he had 'thanked' before.
Thank you for being such a good little girl~

(( :’) ))

“They call them god complexes for a reason, right? I’m pretty sure you’re all just doomed to have them.”

"Yeah…" Astral chuckled dryly, shaking his head.
Thank you for making me feel so good.
Why couldn't the memories just go away?