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Started July 05, 2019 by Deleted user

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“That goes both ways, for both me and you.” He reached up and pressed a kiss to Tolly's lips. “I think I can tolerate up to that point but not farther.” He blushed softly and nudged his cheek

Tolly kissed him back eagerly, wrapping his arms around Cas' waist to keep from going farther than his boyfriend wanted to. "Then that's just as far as we'll go until you're ready."

Cas nodded and smiled softly “thank you.” He scooted up a bit so that his legs were around Tolly’s mid section and fed into the kiss, digging his hands through his hair

Tolly groaned happily and kissed him back, leaving one hand tossed across Cas' hips while the other settled on the back of his neck to hold him close. "Mm, no problem. Could… could you maybe lose the shirt? I wanna see you."

Cas hummed softly and pulled back gently. He tugged off his shirt and settled back against Tolly, hoping he couldn’t feel his racing heartbeat

Tolly kissed him again and it was softer this time, sweeter. His hands ran up and down Cas' bare sides, smoothing across the lines of his ribs in a way he hoped was comforting. "You're so pretty, babe."

He hummed softly in appreciation and leaned into Tolly’s hands. “Love, we’ve discussed this already, you’re the pretty one.” He smiled and kissed Tolly’s cheek. His hands finding the hem of his shirt and slipping beneath to softly trail over the bare skin

"I think we agreed that we were both pretty, actually." He kissed Cas again and again, pulling away every so often with the sweetest smile on his face. He looked at Cas like he couldn't believe someone so wonderful existed and shivered when he felt palms dragging lightly over his skin. "But I think you're the prettiest by far."

He shook his head “far from it darling.” He kissed him slowly, trailing over lips with a smile of his own, hands trailing up to his chest before trailing back down to Tolly’s waist, following the scar with a light touch

"No! No, you're… gorgeous." His hands trailed up across Cas' chest, touch soft and admiring. He thought Cas was the most beautiful person he'd ever seen. It was surprising to find that Cas felt similarly. He jolted slightly when he felt a touch on the scar, setting his hand on top of Cas' with a soft noise. "Oh! Alright, could… could we not touch scars today?"

Cas pulled his hand back at the sound “I-I’m sorry! did I hurt you?” His brow creased in concern and he moved his hand so it rested in the middle of Tolly’s chest “I’m sorry, I should have asked before if touching it was alright.”

"No!" He took Cas' hand in his, raising it to his lips gently. "No, you didn't hurt me, I just… um… my nerves around there are all fucked up, so it feels bad sometimes if you… if you touch or press too hard or anything."

Cas nodded slowly, expression still full of concern. "I could probably find some remedy once the shop is replenished for that. It might not fully heal them but it could help with the discomfort. He tapped his hand against Tolly's shirt "may I?" he asked softly, "I won't touch them, I just want to see something quickly."

Tolly hesitated, but he pulled the shirt over his head slowly when Cas promised not to touch them. Even though Cas had seen the mess on his back before, he still felt nervous about how he'd react. About what he might say or do. He swallowed down his nerves and, with one last tentative kiss, turned around, letting Cas get a good look at the scarring. "Yeah. Here, I… I know it's not pretty."

Cas offered a reassuring smile and stood to let Tolly turn around. He swallowed hard, finding the scarring both horrible and beautiful. He breathed in deeply and gently settled himself of Tolly's legs. "where is it that you feel the most discomfort when the scars are being touched?" he asked, his hand trailing the skin next to the scars, barely even making contact. He noticed some more ragged places compared to smoother skin and decided to avoid those completly

Tolly twitched a little beneath the gentle touch, obviously expecting Cas to go back on his word and prod at the scarring. After a few minutes of that same gentle touch, he relaxed a little, flexing his back with a soft sigh. "Um… my left shoulder." That had the most ragged patch of scarring. "And… um… my lower back."

He flicked his gaze up to the said areas, and leaned in close, careful not to disturb any of the scaring by brushing against them. He then stood after a while of examining the scars and stood. Handing Tolly back his shirt he made his way to the kitchen and looked around for a few ingredients

Tolly pulled his shirt on so fast it made him dizzy, watching with anxious eyes as Cas puttered around the kitchen. "Is… is it bad? Are you going to be able to fix it?"

"hm? no, it's healed nice save for the shoulder and lower back. But even then there's not much more anyone can do, appearance wise. As for the nerves, those I can work with. They're a little tense, i'm assuming from the trauma. Thats going to take a bit of work but I think we can start off with a salve and tea. Once they're more relaxed, we can start easing the tension with stretching." he said, hoping up on the counter to reach a top shelf "that's of course if you want, It's going to hurt for a while, especially during the stretches it it should help."

Tolly nodded, pulling down on the hem of his shirt self consciously when Cas mentioned how poorly they'd healed. "Okay. I… I think I'd be okay with that if it meant they didn't…" He sighed unable to find the right words. "I… I think you know what I mean, right? It's like when you get feedback on a mic, only it's my skin and it feels… wrong. I'd like it if I could stop feeling so wrong all the time."

Cas' expression softened and he hopped down from the counter. he took Tolly's hand in his, pressing it to his cheek and kissing his palm "You're not wrong Tolly, nothing about you is. This…situation just happened to leave a mark on you, both physically and emotionally. that doesn't make you wrong." he pressed closer to Tolly's form and wrapped his arms around his waist "you're perfect, in your own quirky adorable way."

Tolly swallowed heavily, cupping Cas' cheek in his hand as he was kissed. He was blinking back tears as Cas pulled him in, nodding weakly and nuzzling the top of his boyfriend's head. "I… I'm really glad you think so. You're… You're one of the first people who hasn't thought I was… ugly, or… or broken, or… or anything like that and I… I just really love you, and the way you see me, and I hope you know that."

"I love you too, Tolly. Every time someone says that about you or if you ever feel that way about yourself, know that there is someone who knows you're beautiful." he reached up and cupped his cheek "I will forever think of you as right, as beautiful, as someone who deserves to be loved. Anyone who's said anything bad to you doesn't know you, they're the ones who are wrong."

Tolly leaned down to kiss him, stroking his cheek gently with his thumb as he pulled away. "I will, Cas. I've got you and you've got me and… you really do make me feel beautiful, even if I don't feel it all that often." He leaned into the hand on his cheek, letting his eyes fall closed. "You're so precious to me, and it makes me happy to know that no matter where I am in life, I've got you in my corner to support me."

"Always and forever, my love." he murmured, pressing their heads together as he lovingly stroked Tolly's hair. "i'm always here if you ever need me, Tolly, no matter what you may be going through." He reached up and pressed a gently hiss to Tolly's lips. "And I'll still be here even if you don't feel like talking yet, we can just cuddle until you're ready. Just say the word and I'll drop everything to cuddle, k?" he offered a smile and tugged at his hand "let's get some sleep love, we still have to finish the shop before class tomorrow."