@RedTheLoveless
Tyson!! That’s so helpful. I’m currently in the car going to practice ahhh I’m so nervous.
Not my name, but you're welcome. Good luck. I think you're going to have a fun time.
Tyson!! That’s so helpful. I’m currently in the car going to practice ahhh I’m so nervous.
Not my name, but you're welcome. Good luck. I think you're going to have a fun time.
ty s o n
they meant 'tysm' ace you fool
ty s o n
Chicken nuggets
:[ the "wait do I like this person" feeling is back and I don't like it
Whoa.
Tw suicidal stuff
Spoiler - click to show.I'm suicidal again. So much so that my arms are burning. I don't know to explain it. It's pure emotion, it makes my body ache. My throat is tight. My chest is heavy. Every time I try to tell my friend it's never a good time. I hate myself. I'm so dependant on others. I don't know if I'm wrong for wanting to tell someone. It feels wrong, since it'll just hurt them, make me self centered. I'm paranoid. So so paranoid I'll mess up whatever little things I'm still living for, or that I ready have. Everything is twisted in my head. This is pathetic. I'm pathetic. I'm literally so fucking disappointed that I'd be so invested in this waste of a life. My body can't take it. My mind is done. I had a panic attack last night but I never "finished" so I think it's being dragged out or "postponed". I hate this. I'm so full of hate. But at the same time I can laugh and joke along with almost anything. I hate the duality. My hands feel like they're gunna burst, but cutting doesn't work for me. I'm not even crying, tears are just streaming. Everytime I think I've figured things out, it all tumbles down worse. I hate myself.
Can’t say more than the usual stuff. This too shall pass. Ride it out.
:[ the "wait do I like this person" feeling is back and I don't like it
Whoa.
Whoa what?
2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh
2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh
Man I can't wait to move out so I can buy all the pretty, gay books
2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh
Man I can't wait to move out so I can buy all the pretty, gay books
God, same
The Afterlove cover will be the death of me
Tyson!! That’s so helpful. I’m currently in the car going to practice ahhh I’m so nervous.
Not my name, but you're welcome. Good luck. I think you're going to have a fun time.
OMG I DIDNT SEE IT AUTOCORRECTED IM DYING 💀💀Anyways, thanks Ace. Practice is over. I walked half the thing with the coach umm ngl kinda embarrassing but I hope I’ll improve. I’m not really used to running long distances. At least the kids are nice.
I got my license today so… that's cool I guess
Hey my friend got hers today too. Fun
You know people who Just ghost you? Well, I do. One of my old friends. Over a damn video game. A Vidio game! I lost one of his weapons and he just flips and just blocks me! Like, What the hell!? I offered to give him one, Or even craft him a better weapon but noooooooo he had to be the type to block me- Over a damn game- Im just pissed. Annoyed and so much more.
2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh
Man I can't wait to move out so I can buy all the pretty, gay books
God, same
The Afterlove cover will be the death of me
I want to read The Priory of the Orange Tree so bad
:[ the "wait do I like this person" feeling is back and I don't like it
Whoa.
Whoa what?
You having any Feelings for someone is weird.
You know people who Just ghost you? Well, I do. One of my old friends. Over a damn video game. A Vidio game! I lost one of his weapons and he just flips and just blocks me! Like, What the hell!? I offered to give him one, Or even craft him a better weapon but noooooooo he had to be the type to block me- Over a damn game- Im just pissed. Annoyed and so much more.
Sucks, bro.
:[ the "wait do I like this person" feeling is back and I don't like it
Whoa.
Whoa what?
You having any Feelings for someone is weird.
I don't know if I do and I Don't Like It
2020 books really said "we're gonna give The Gays beautiful covers" and delivered on it, huh
Man I can't wait to move out so I can buy all the pretty, gay books
God, same
The Afterlove cover will be the death of meI want to read The Priory of the Orange Tree so bad
I have a copy but she's too thicc, she scares me-
they meant 'tysm' ace you fool
shhh i was making a joke and totally didn't not realize that at all
Tyson!! That’s so helpful. I’m currently in the car going to practice ahhh I’m so nervous.
Not my name, but you're welcome. Good luck. I think you're going to have a fun time.
OMG I DIDNT SEE IT AUTOCORRECTED IM DYING 💀💀Anyways, thanks Ace. Practice is over. I walked half the thing with the coach umm ngl kinda embarrassing but I hope I’ll improve. I’m not really used to running long distances. At least the kids are nice.
lmao np dudeling
You'll get better with each practice, I can promise you that. So long as you have fun, that's what counts.
so… remember how I was planning to come out to my best friend?
I recently found out that the reason she left our big group server wasn’t to avoid notifications, she just couldn’t stand two of the users there cause they were lesbians and wouldn’t stop talking about it, which made her so uncomfortable she had to leave.
She brought it up to me and was all like “I’m so glad someone understands, I’m always worried if I say it out loud people will think I’m a terrible person” which I get, sometimes it’s difficult when a large portion of the population including people you want to care about make you severely uncomfortable. however, even though I understand where she’s coming from and agree for the most part, it’s been haunting me, what if I tell her about this, maybe try to go to her for advice, and she decides she doesn’t want to talk to me anymore?
so now I’m not so sure, I think I’m not going to come out at all, not even about being ace, I don’t want her to think I’m like them.
but even if I don’t tell her what if she finds out? I’m not gonna date any girls, I would never allow myself to do that, but there are still other ways she could figure it out if I don’t make this stop, and I don’t want her to dislike me-
why can’t I just be normal? how do i make these emotions go away? guys are cute too, it won’t be the end of the world if I have to bury some feelings here and there, I just don’t want to risk losing my closest friend all cause i’m messed up…
someone please tell me what to do i’ve been overthinking this all week
Hmm, I dunno. I've only ever come out to a few people, and all of them have been chill so I don't really know. And you're not messed up. You know what is messed up? Her ditching a server because two people are in love.
one of my best friends is mildly homophobic
we didn't talk for months because of it
I know it's cliche but if they really care about you they'll suck it up and love you anyways
you really think so?
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