@The-N-U-T-Cracker
@NutEllaDraws-lost-count. Are you okay? You're cussing and giving off serious bad vibes. Is there something that can help?
i’m better now, for the most part…
i really don’t want to get into detail, but to put things as simply and vaguely as possible, i had a very bad evening yesterday, and went through a bit of a… well… relapse.
…*before anyone starts to worry, it had absolutely nothing to do with the drama. i was the only one responsible in making that evening hell, and none of you would’ve been able to change it, please do not think this is your fault in any way-
i did a stupid, typical me, and wasn’t happy with myself
i eventually got so tired, angry, and upset that I couldn’t think straight, and i started to take it out in my responses…
i should not have done that, i should’ve found healthier ways to vent than partaking in internet drama with my only friends.
however, no amount of whining’s gonna change anything, all i can do is accept that i can’t go back, i’ve got to take a deep breath, move on, and learn from it.
it sucks, but there it is-
…although at the same time, i’ll admit, it’s oddly motivational…
this is the month i’m going to stop. i won’t let it hurt me anymore…
As for helping, i don’t really think there’s anything you guys can do…
don’t be an ella, ig?
i dunno…
oh and there’s also the art stress, that played a part as well but like that’s all on me, i’m the one who bit off more than i could chew and still procrastinated, so there’s not much y’all can do there either. i’m just really good at causing myself unnecessary pain…