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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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I just drove for 10 hours
I hurt, that was a lot of driving, why did I do that.

Ouch. Why did you do that?

I was driving from Idaho to California and I need hours for my Drivers Permit.

ah i see
if you don't mind me asking
which state are you from?
(also idaho's a pretty state, i wanna go there more lkjfdsklj)

Uhh
I drove around a couple parking lots for like 15-20 minutes
Because I'm learning to drive and stuff

As of late, I just don't seem to feel emotions unless something triggers them to be very strong. I hate feeling like a shell. I've always known that I'm useless but goddamn I didn't want this.

Whenever an emotion does come along, it's more of a dull pang in my chest. Like it's there, but not really making an effort.

I’ve driven 13 hours just to go camping.. remind me to never put myself through that pain again

My family once drove for 8 hours to go camping. Then 8 hours back because the area was flooded. :')

As of late, I just don't seem to feel emotions unless something triggers them to be very strong. I hate feeling like a shell. I've always known that I'm useless but goddamn I didn't want this.

Whenever an emotion does come along, it's more of a dull pang in my chest. Like it's there, but not really making an effort.

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If things don't start feeling better this summer, I hope I just drop dead. That'd be best for a lot of people. And if I do decide to die, I hope I at least take the time to leave apologies people will never see somewhere because I want them to think of and remember me as the shitty friend, daughter, acquaintance, and stranger that I am.

update: i slept
had a weird sort of nightmare kind of dream
it was graphic and violent but didn’t scare me
so that was odd

Wow imagine having actual dreams..

The last dream I remembered was around half a month ago and the memory itself was total patchwork.

I don’t get dreams so much as I get precognitive images and simulations..

Good morning, I'm five minutes into being awake and I've come to realize that my dream had legitimate plot.

a lot of my dreams are ptsd shit

update 2:
It seems Half Asleep Nutella™️ managed to escape to the forums again cause i don’t remember saying that I just fell back asleep

Oof.

Woohoo! It's my favourite time of the day. Time to panic and stress out from probably no reason. :D

Woohoo! It's my favourite time of the day. Time to panic and stress out from probably no reason. :D

you're gonna be okay you little fucker, alright? I don't care how much you doubt yourself because im here and i'll make sure that doubt is pulverized once im done with it. you're valid zach and i love the fuck outta you. You bring out the best in me, it's something you should know.

_{and no that whole fucking essay didn't take me a whole ass hour to put together, and no you didn't make me fucking cry with what you said just because i want you to be happy and when you're feeling sad like that it kills me. >:[}

lowkey wish my partner would say things like that..

~The things have been turned in~

now I wait in crippling anxiety

Though I’m feeling really good about my audition. Thanks everyone who offered advice/sentiments.

don't you love it when you accidentally come up with a really cool looking drawing concept late at night but can't find a reference that fits

~The things have been turned in~

now I wait in crippling anxiety

Though I’m feeling really good about my audition. Thanks everyone who offered advice/sentiments.

That's awesome!!!
I'm sure you did amazing-

I need to write but I can't
I have 0 ideas, only a title
I need motivation

oh mood