forum one on one?

Started June 04, 2019 by @Festive_Fenrir

tune

He laughed "To make it harder for you to get to me." he teased, pecking his lips

Nathaniel crossed his arms and huffed, pouting a bit. "Damn me being short… people always want to use me as a walking armrest."

(nathaniel knows the struggle…)
V smiled "aw, poor baby. you're so cute when you get mad." V stroked his cheek lovingly

"I'm not a baby…" Nathaniel closed his eyes at V's touch, his wings relaxing.

"Yes you are." He muttered "my baby." He kissed his lips softly

Nathaniel blushed more and looked away, still frustrated with himself. Why do I have to get flustered so easily…? He could feel V's hand approaching his wings again.

He glanced down at him "what's wrong?" He asked, sending something off

"I'm just… I-I dunno… I'm mad at myself for getting flustered and overwhelmed so easily. I feel like… like I'm weak… I've always had to prove to other people that I'm strong because of my size, and I don't like to feel weak…" Nathaniel said quietly, still avoiding eye contact. I hope I don't upset him…

V looked at him "you know it's ok to be vulnerable, right? You don't have to strong with me. You don't have to prove anything to me." He hugged him against his chest, promising safety and security

"B-But vulnerable is dangerous… that's how I get hurt…" Nathaniel hugged V tightly, trying his best not to cry.

"in that case, yes it was dangerous. But I won't let you get hurt again. It's ok to let your guard down around me. I nor anyone else is going to hurt you."

Nathaniel was trembling for a few seconds, biting his lip as tears pooled in his blue eyes. He buried his face in V's shoulder, sobbing quietly. "I-I just want them to know I'm worth s-something even though I can't fly! I'm… I-I'm not useless! I'm n-not…"

"oh my darling…" He said softly "you're worth more than you think. And you're not useless. They made a mistake kicking you out, they'll see that soon."

Nathaniel held tightly to V. "I-I just want them to be proud of me…" He whispered, his voice breaking.

"they are my love. They are." He kissed his head softly and rubbed his back gently

"No… n-no they're not…" Nathaniel tried and failed to control his breathing. I knew I shouldn't have let my guard down… I've got years of fucking bitterness.

"how do you know, hm?" He asked patiently, lightly stroking his wings

"My parents were never fucking proud of me! N-Not when I was making weapons or trying my best to do anything, and especially not when I crippled myself. I'm… I-I'm nothing to them… n-nothing…" Nathaniel gripped the fabric of V's shirt, trembling violently and still sobbing.

V sighed and glared skywards "I hope you're happy." He growled softly. He glanced down a Nathaniel and stroked his hair, not knowing what to say or do

Nathaniel pulled himself closer to V, wrapping his legs around the other's waist again as he cried. "And Lloyd… oh god… it was all my f-fault…"

(hhaaaiiiii and ya)
V held him tight against his chest "nothing is you're fault love. You didn't choose to get hurt or to get kicked out. And the decisions you did make were to better yourself. Those who truely care about you would and will see that." He said " like me!"

"B-But Lloyd, he… he died trying to save me…" Nathaniel whispered, gripping the fabric of V's shirt tightly. "It's my fault he d-died…"
(Lloyd was his older brother btw)