forum Broken Dreams and Haunting Memories// Closed!// 16+

Started September 19, 2020 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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Astral kept his eyes on Mia, slowly looking at Simon.
"I…" The god pulled his hands into his lap, staying well away from Simon.
"I'm sorry, Simon."

Simon kept his eyes focused on Mia. “What for Astral? At this point, there’s so many things to be sorry for.” He said coldly.

"I… I-I know…" Astral raised one hand to his eyes, rubbing at them to keep from crying again.
"I… what I did w-was horrible, a-and then I just hid away. I-I refused to even think about it for so long…"

“You abandoned us, Astral. You’re lucky I’m still even here at all.” He said quietly, still not looking up at the god. He wasn’t sure if he even really wanted to forgive Astral.

"I… I know, a-and I'm so sorry…" Astral looked up at Simon, holding his breath a moment.

“I want to trust you but I don’t think you can be better. And I don’t want to get hurt any more than I already have been.” He said, struggling slightly to keep his voice steady.

"I… I understand," Astral said, his own voice so quiet. "I… I don't want you being hurt anymore either."

“I just-“ he sighed. “You just don’t think sometimes…before you do stuff…and we’re all much too fragile for that.” He knew someone had to explain this to Astral, and it might as well be him. At the current moment, Astral needed him alive, so he was safe to speak.

"I… I see that, now," the god admitted softly. "And… I want to get better. I want to… I want to keep you safe."

He nodded. “Good…wanting to get better is the first step. Now you actually need to follow through with that. Because what just happened here, that was to some extent your fault.” He said, finally looking up at Astral. “You’ve taken so much from her, and I will hate you if you take anything else away from her.”

Astral bit his lip lightly, nodding.
"I… I don't know what to do to help," the god admitted softly. He didn't know how to make this better.

“Well if you really want my advice, to start with just try not to lash out as much.” He said with a small shrug.

Astral nodded some, looking down at Mia for a moment.
"Okay…"

“So you really do want to do better then?” He asked, mostly rhetorically. He really wasn’t expecting it. But he wouldn’t get his hopes up, there was still a good chance Astral was lying, or would change his mind and go back to his old ways.

"I do. I really, really do…" Astral looked up at Simon a moment. He doubted Simon would believe him, even if he really meant it, but he could hope.

He nodded, managing to actually keep eye contact with Astral. He of course wouldn’t believe it until he saw it.

"I… is there anything I can do to help?" Astral felt like he needed to do something, anything in that moment to try to make up for what he did.

“Right now, I don’t think so.” He honestly didn’t know what he wanted Astral to do to help, right now or in the future.

"O…Okay…" Astral looked back down at Mia. He would be willing to anything, he knew it to be true.

“You should probably go before she wakes up, seeing you might upset her.” He suggested softly. “Thank you…for listening.”

Astral looked up, nodding hesitantly.
"I… you're welcome..?" Astral stood, moving to the door to leave.

“Hey Astral?” He called after the god after a moment of hesitation. “You are going to try and be better…right?”

Astral paused when Simon called out to him, looking back.
"I am," he said softly. "It's… you deserve that much, at least."

“We all deserve that much. Thank you…for wanting to put in the effort.” He said, his gaze lingering on Astral a moment more before returning his attention to Mia.

Astral let his own eyes stay on Simon, nodding slightly as he swallowed. He just hoped he could actually do it. Then, when Simon looked back to Mia, the god finally left the room. He closed the door quietly, letting out a sigh when it was separating them.