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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Miriam, trust me. Those people don't matter. What matters are the ones who actually care and are worth your time.

They very clearly do matter
Nobody is 'worth my time'

But we love you

None of them do, that's for sure

I don't fricking care.
You don't understand.
I just told two of my real life friends I want to die and I'm really thinking about it, and both just said "okay" and left.

@Moon-child I can't tell you that it's alright. Because that's not always true. And this is going to sound really, really harsh, but please listen. You did something stupid. That doesn't give you an excuse to roll over and give up. Giving up is not an answer. It is a choice. You have to either choose to pick yourself up and keep going or you wont get anywhere. And I'm sorry if this sounds like I don't like you or I don't care. I'm sorry, but I will hold people accountable, but I won't leave them. If you need help, let me help you back up. If you start falling backwards we'll catch you and grab you and pull you back to your feet. But you have to let us.

None of them do, that's for sure

I agree
None of them does at all

They're not your friends, they're fucking posers. They don't matter. Cast them off.

They were never your friends, Miriam

i don't really know you but from what i do know? you're a KICKASS. and i want to get to know you better. so, maybe, keep going so we can get to know each other. i'm sure there are plenty of assholes you know, and they don't deserve you. you deserve better. so, if you ever want to, i wanna get to know you, maybe even call you a friend. please keep going.

They were never your friends, Miriam

I know and that's just another reason

If you let them matter that much, then they win. They don't deserve to be that little voice in your head

They're not your friends, they're fucking posers. They don't matter. Cast them off.

That's right

Well whoever does is telling me I have pills and I know I can take them all right now and escape

Miriam, don't do it. Seriously. Let someone in, let someone help

Just for tonight, please

no

Well then talk to us about something else, anything else

Get out of your own mind for minute

Miriam, trust me. I've been there.
Stay here for tonight at least.

And then what? It's the whole same routine tomorrow, and the next day, and the next, forever. I can't get away.

no, it won't stay the same forever and i'm gonna be honest with you, things might seem horrible now, but it does get better

bet

We'll be there every time. Give yourself some time, please. You feel like shit right now but one day you'll be so relieved and proud to have gotten through

I doubt it. It's been three years since the first time and I've never been proud. Mostly I just wish I'd already done it.