I'm feeling super anxious today and I hate feeling anxious, I'm hungry and can't eat because my anxiety causes me to feel like I'm going to barf all over the place. The only think I can do is drink water, and anxiety makes me super thirsty and all
and I hate being an anxious person
I have things to do today. I had marching band this morning, I have a flute lesson in an hour, I have to bake my cookies and I need to fix flipbooks, decorate, and make sure all the music is printed out. My head kind of hurts and flute lessons over Skype make me anxious but I'm a little happy to have a list of things to do and I'm looking forward to finishing my cookies and decorating the things
things I said I would do today:
what I did today:
My discord friends have decided I’m actually not NutElla but an immortal chinchilla furry goddess who’s super pure but also has an intense lust towards glitter and only glitter and I don’t know if I should be proud of this or scared that this is the energy I give off
update: scared
they have referred to me as "the slightly messed up yiffual person" in those exact words and i don't know what they mean by this i think they might actually think I'm a furry and not one of the good ones either
It's too earlier for me to be hating myself and everyone else but here we are. I don't want to do anything today
In the 1800s if you died in winter, they'd store you in a communal vault until you could be buried in spring when the ground thawed. Nowadays there are some places that have laws against storing bodies like that so pretty much everywhere you're buried anyway or kept in a fridge if they don't have the technology to break the ground. Pretty neat
Intrusive thoughts suck and I hate them and if I expose my wrists to anything they'll be (tw blood, violence, death)
So that is rather inconvenient if I do say so myself. Nobody needed to hear that sorry.
You good fam? I'm here to talk.
Nah this is normal anyways I just remembered my younger sister's reaction to my coming out which was: fuck yeah I'm the oldest girl now!
And I'm emotional now.
(For context I have four siblings, an older brother, a younger brother and two younger sisters.)
(that's so sweet i'm crying :'>)
i edited the chorus of electric feel by mgmt to go "ooh girl…eel. baby eel" but nobody appreciated it :(
I would appreciate it. I think that's hilarious 😂
thank you :’) <3
No problem!
i just sword fought my crush with broomsticks and i’m feeling better than i have in months
TODAY MY VACATION STARTS FUCK YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I'M SO HAPPY
i just sword fought my crush with broomsticks and i’m feeling better than i have in months
I wish I could sword fight my boyfriend with broomsticks, BUT THIS GODDAMNED PANDEMIC AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I MISS HIM SO MUCH
We don't live in the same city.
I forgot how cute I feel when I'm tan and my face is a little burnt
My shorts are still messed up. I keep forgetting to fix them
My hold for Always and Forever, Lara Jean came in, and my hold for The Diviners came back in and I want to relisten to Catching Fire, which I also have the audiobook of.
My sister has a dance recital in twenty minutes
I'm covered in bug bites and very itchy
In some books I read people will walk up to someone and just ask 'Want to be my friend?' and then they're just friends. Is that how it works? Do people actually do that? Is this why I have exactly 2 friends? What? I'm confused.
that’s how it works when you’re like 5 or younger
no one over 5 does that
Never did that even when I was 5.
The last time that's been done to me was like never
I'm more subtle now. But it doesn't tale much more than that.
Today I was reminded of how angry I am about how Romeo & Juliet is taught in schools
Why.