forum "I am the darknesss-" "GET OFF THE COUNTER YOU'RE GONNA BREAK A LEG" // Vampire Romance // OxO // Closed!!

Started August 28, 2020 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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Arien buried his head in Rafael's hair, still smiling.
"Well, I do…" He was blushing deeply, still holding Rafael close.

“Arien?” He asked, his tone not exactly becoming hostile, but just more distant. “What exactly am I to you?” He didn’t want to let himself believe that this was something more than what it really was.

(aaaa, so it is technically closed, sorry, but I am totally up for an rp with you in another thread/pm if you want!)

Arien hesitated a moment. How was he supposed to answer that question..? He lifted his hand up to cup Rafael's cheek.
"I… I'm not entirely sure," he admitted softly, rubbing his thumb over the human's cheek.
"But I do know you're one of the most important people in my life…"

He pulled away from Arien’s touch. “Arien. I don’t have the time or the strength to let you just mess around with me.” He said seriously. Because he didn’t, and it had happened too many times before, when he’d been used and then left behind.

Arien shrunk back a bit at that.
"A-ah… I'm s-sorry," he said softly. He really didn't mean it like that, but… it still hurt.

He shook his head lightly. “It’s fine…I’m probably just overreacting anyway but…” he sighed. “I don’t want to hurt you, but I can’t let myself get hurt either in the process, does that make sense?” And this is why he had to be tough, and maybe a little bit cold. Because as soon as he’d heard the hurt in Arien’s voice, he wanted to do whatever it would take to make him feel better, no matter the cost.

"I… yeah, it does. I understand." Arien fell silent, looking away from Rafael. He'd actually tried to open up to Rafael, but he didn't know how to fully react to this, how to take it. Rafael said he didn't want to hurt Arien, but if he was being honest with himself, this really had hurt. He didn't have the words to describe his feelings for Rafael, so he understood why Rafael had reacted the way he had.

“I-I’m sorry..” He said softly, only now realizing how much he’d messed everything up. He should know better than to just assume that Arien was a bad guy because of the way he acted once. ‘Jesus Christ I’m such an idiot!’ He thought angrily to himself.

"I-It's- It's fine, really…" Arien was still a bit withdrawn now- he'd just admitted how important Rafael was to him, and… well, it felt like Rafael had just crushed any hopes he had for maybe going farther than this… H-he knew he'd been horrible to Rafael when he first brought him here, though. He understood he was a monster.

He could feel the difference between them now, and it felt like someone had suddenly dropped an anvil on his head. He wanted to scream. He’d ruined it. For once, the universe had given him something with the potential of being good and he’d ruined it. He’d reacted impulsively at hearing words from Arien that cheating lovers had said before. ‘So stupid…’ Why couldn’t Rafael have just kept his mouth shut, and seen that Arien was opening up to him, not deceiving him.

Arien should have known better- no one like him could ever find real love. He was just- just too different. He slowly pulled his arm from around Rafael, not wanting the other to feel like he was pushing too much. He held it close to himself instead, closing his eyes. He wanted to cry, but he didn't want to make Rafael feel guilty- the human hadn't done anything wrong…

“A-Arien?” He stammered out, on the verge of crying himself. “Please don’t leave, I didn’t mean it, I’m sorry. I-I wasn’t thinking.” He said quickly. He meant every word of it too.

"I-I…" Arien hesitantly reached his hand back out, lightly touching Rafael's. He didn't know what to think anymore, he really didn't.
"I won't leave…" And he wouldn't- even if Rafael dragged his heart through hell and back, he wouldn't leave. He was terrified Rafael would do this, over and over, hurt him and apologize, hurt him and apologize, but he didn't have the strength to do anything about it…

“I didn’t mean it I’m so sorry.” He said, unable to help the tears now.

Arien opened his eyes to see Rafael crying, and he broke too. He let out a soft sob, wrapping his arm with his good hand around Rafael securely and pulling himself close.
"I-I…" Arien was crying now, shaking a bit.

Rafael kept crying, hugging Arien tightly. He really hadn’t meant to hurt him. Hadn’t meant to mess up this bad. “I’m sorry.”

Arien was shaking now as he sobbed into Rafael's chest. Was this love? That no matter how much someone hurt you, you always wanted to cry in their arms? Arien clutched the back of Rafael's shirt weakly, not able to give a response.

Rafael gently ran a hand through Arien’s hair. “We really are messes aren’t we?” He said softly, echoing what Arien had said earlier. “I’m sorry..” he said again softly. He was still crying, but he was able to speak better now. “I didn’t listen to what you really meant and I pushed you away..and I’m really sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you like that.”

((ahhhhhh I made the pure boiz angsty nooooo))

(nooooo)

Arien eventually calmed down a bit. He was still shaking a bit, and he was still crying, but he was able to hear what Rafael was saying, and attempt to respond.
"I–" Arien rubbed at his eyes. "Y-you ovbiously had y-you're reasons to react the w-way you did…"