forum Personal Venting Chat, New and Improved! (Without Jerks)

Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

tune

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oki cool.

but yeah,,, your mate hates me :)

and i want to but i would be emailing my psychiatrist who i haven't told i want to be admitted yet.
my therapist knows and my parents definitely dont know-

why do you think that??

and yeah, but my logic here is that the more people that know and canhelp support you the better, right?

… or is he always just that dismissive ? idk he just seems like he doesn't like talking to me so i dont try anymore ??

i know… i'm going to try aha.

eh, kinda-
you kinda get used to it

and okay good-
proud of you nia
i'm glad you're trying your very best to get the help that we can't provide

this is where i was reading all the stuff on voluntary admission

https://www.yourhealthinmind.org/treatments-medication/psychiatric-hospitals
https://www.qld.gov.au/health/mental-health/rights/hospital

i see-

i just want to not be here-

yeah, understandable

some days i feel like i just want to fall asleep and never wake up-
it's usually after a particularly bad day, though

thats my reality, everyday, for years…

ohno… i'm sorry…

ohfuck-

so, what i said before about my bf.

umm..

keep forgetting he's in this chat

_{I'm literally gonna get stabbed by venus for saying all that oh fuck I'm scared-}

hey nia- it's okay-
well maybe not entirely okay
but it's you voicing your feelings
you should be allowed to do that
and you are!
so if he tries to blame you for anything
i will actually fite him
but as i have said before
i am still choosing to remain neutral

_{venus is gonna kill me NAD him for what i said-}

well then ima go fite venus, if i ever get a chance to talk to them

_{luna will probably slap me too- mathies will scould me lillian will… i dont know… probably get distracted by a butterfly. fuck-}

alright who else do i need to fite

i just dont want them to yell at me behind closed doors. cause the first thing i do when i wake up is check notebook and the messaging site i use to talk to them because you guys are the people i care about-

aww that's so sweet-
i'll fite them for you
make 'em not yell at you

I want y'all to know I would literally kill for everyone here.

same
which reminds me
i wanted to tell everyone here
and still do
that

i love each and every one of you very very much. I would most definitely, and without thought sacrifice myself for anyone, if necessary. (But please don't make me choose who to sacrifice myself for.) and i will fite anyone who dares to make someone here sad. or mad. or upset. or whatever. or a mood that isn't happy. Also, you guys better not die. and so i can write them down and remember them later, what are you guy's birthday's?

don’t bother writing mine down for i’m not making it to til then-

nia please-
you can do this
i know you can
you're so strong
and you've made it so far already
i know,
you've tried so hard
and it might seem that nothing is coming of it
but you can do this

…on another note, that's completely unrelated to this matter, i feel like falling asleep and never waking up again
i don't know why-

mood

I feel like a cat. I want attention, I hate everybody, and I'm going back to sleep.

i dont want to be awake