I'm just going to hop on into this conversation with a rant in classic Relsey style (To avoid to much of Relsey's personal life skip to the second paragraph of this rant)
When I left my 'relationship' with this one guy I genuinely thought I would never be able to open up to someone again, the guy I trusted with my weaknesses exploited them, manipulated me, tore apart my relationships with other people pulled me away from long time friends until I was completely dependent on him for social life. Two people saved me from that My best friend Haley and my current crush. Haley figured out what was happening, she put two and two together and with her help I realized what he was doing and put an end to our 'relationship' before things could get worse. Now to talk about my crush yay happy note just push aside all that negative stuffs.
This guy, this amazing guy, Is six foot, hair that's not quite dirty blond and not quite light brown but somewhere in that range. He has these reddish brown eye's that are impossible to describe the depth or greatness of, and depending on the day he has a light sprinkling of freckles.
Reasons he is the absolute best, Number one ,I can actually talk to him, that's uncommon I can't talk to people but he's really easy to talk to you talk and he will Listen I mean actually listen like will remember what you say and care about it it's great he's great I'm blushing, darn it.
Number two, He loves music, I'm a music person Music is my language, I understand it, He just understands music, better then I do actually. He'll talk about different cool little music things and sub harmonics and whenever he's bored or just thinking or really doing anything he'll be tapping out a two three Polly rhythm, so cute.
Number three, He also loves to read, the day I finally accepted that I liked him (I liked him for like 3ish months before I accepted the fact that I liked him for reasons in the before mentioned first paragraph) We were talking about books and he got me to talk about my books and my worlds and why I write and so on and so forth and no one ever talks to me about my books and I just one was happy he even remembered I was a writer and two cared enough to talk to me about it.
Number four, He's such and awkward tall small person, that sounded really weird let me explain. He's a sweetheart, like I don't know any other ways to say it he's just a sweat kind understanding human being when I get really anxious or upset or angry I'll dig my nails into my hand, bad I know, He's the only one who found out about it, I didn't tell him he was just observant and figured it out and now every time I start to do it he gives me this look like Rels think about what you're doing before you hurt yourself.
Number five (What the heck even is this list) There's just a bunch of little things that I think make him great, he's really good with little kids, is really patient, he understands the importance of not letting creativity die, he talks to me, he can instantly (sorta) snap me out of anxiety attacks/calm me down (That's a fun story I could tell) Oh ya and He can sing, like really sing he has a really good tone when he sings and his voice is just so beautiful when he does and he can put so much emotion into his voice and it just fills the space, also he likes math, He likes Reading, Music, and math like I under stand him liking one maybe two but all three is not fair and makes him far to attractive. Ok I think I'm done now maybe we'll see