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Started August 06, 2018 by Deleted user

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"Are you alright? It's a lot to take in." Susan said, part of her cold exterior melting away to reveal the motherly side underneath.

"Er… yeah, I'm fine… I just-" Lucas cut himself off, considering whether he should continue or not. He glanced back up to where the Doctor had vanished. "I-I don't want anyone else to die…" He finally finished, barely audibly.

"Harry's not going to die anytime soon, and I'm not ashamed that I feel that fact is rather unfortunate. Don't worry about him, there's no point in it." she said.

"But… but then you guys would lose him! Wouldn't you be… I-I dunno, upset, maybe? I'm usually pretty upset when someone close to me, say, a family member, dies."

"The Doctor would spiral into crippling depression and I would feel slightly upset, but move on. The Doctor is the only person in the universe that would forgive a genocidal manic that tortured him and his friends and threatened to destroy everything he loved. Other people's wounds don't heal over so easily, despite what the Doctor might think." she told Lucas.

Crippling depression… well, I guess that's a word for how I feel. "It's just… family is everything, isn't it? When half your family dies and the other part forgets you exist, you feel upset, don't you? You feel like you've lost something, that the joy you once had was gone?" Stubborn tears stung Lucas's eyes.

"They aren't family, and Harry doesn't seem to even want to be friends with the Doctor anymore. But the Doctor is stubborn as hell, he never gives up on people. He always tried to give second chances, to redeem people, but this time it's gone too far. I'm not saying I won't try and help both of them, but I think that this will only end in tears at this point. But enough about them and me, what about you?" she asked Lucas. "Who makes you smile, or is nobody up to the job?"

"No one… t-the only people who ever did died…" Lucas brushed the tears from his eyes, but they kept coming back. "Or else forgot that I was even there…"

"Oh. I should not have pried, you must likely don't want to talk about it." Susan said.

Lucas shrugged. "It was bound to come up at some point… my mother died a year ago and my twin brother Claus went to avenge her. Technically, h-his body hasn't been found, but I know he's dead. Twins know that kind of thing. However, my father has been searching for him and basically forgot that I exist. He keeps the house locked, too, so I have to ask our neighbors for food…"

"That must be quite difficult for you to put up with. I can see why you wanted to leave that island so much."

"Yeah… it used to feel like home until they were gone. Now it just feels cold and empty and like I don't belong…"

"I can understand that feeling. I'm part human, part I don't even know! It makes life hard when you stand out, when you don't fit in with the rest of the crowd." Susan said. "But you have to deal with it, because life isn't fair. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't regret my paranormal ancestry, but I couldn't imagine life without it. Being special isn't all it's cracked up to be."

Lucas nodded. "I can't help but feel like it's my fault, you know? Their deaths. I was the one who suggested we go to grandpa's house. I didn't go with Claus; couldn't stop him!"

"You can't blame yourself for what's already happened. Never, ever, under any circumstances blame yourself. Your brother meant well, and it ended badly for him. Heroics work like that."

"B-But surely I could have stopped him somehow! Or if I had gone with him, at the very least we could have died together… honestly, that would be better than this hell that I'm living through right now."

"Okay, real talk time. Never, ever say you wish that you could have died. Life is a privilege, and death is the most harsh goodbye one could ask for. You may wish things could have gone differently, but you can't change what's already happened. I'm quite familiar with death, far to familiar. And familiar with Death, capital letter instead of lowercase. But that's not important, what is is that you stop bloody blaming yourself for the things you can't change and grow up a little! Losing someone you love is hard, but you need to move on eventually!"

Lucas's cheeks flushed and he looked away, more tears welling up in his eyes. "I… I-I know… it's just hard…" Am I not allowed time to mourn for the death of my second half or the person who brought me into this world? At least I'd be able to join them if I died. The tears rolled down his cheeks and he quickly tried to wipe them away. 'Grow up a little!' I mean, I'm only ten! How old does she expect me to act?

"Listen, I'm not sorry for being so harsh. I don't exist to throw people pity parties, but if it's any consolation I do understand how difficult dealing with these things can be."

He glanced back up at Susan, his blue eyes welled up with tears. "I don't… I-I don't really know h-how to deal with it, though… m-my dad's in no fit state to help me and… a-and the others are gone! I c-can't do it on my own…"

"Well, the Doctor nearly always ends up making one trip 347, so you don't have to be alone if you don't want to." Susan nearly smiled, but stopped herself as to not break her sensible composure.

"R-Really?" Lucas tried to wipe the tears from his face. "He would do that? B-But he hardly knows me!"

"He hardly knows anyone at the start. He didn't even know my name for a while, but he trusted me with his life. Not that I'm the best person to trust with a life, given….. well, my point is, I think -" Susan was interrupted by the Doctor walking back into the console room, a very noticeable bruise on his right cheek but a relieved look on his face, like the apocalypse had been stopped before it had a chance to begin. "Ah, excellent, so where were we? Oh, right, colonized star!" he gave an apologetic grin. "Sorry I was gone for so long."

Lucas quickly tried to hide his face so that the Doctor couldn't see that he had been crying. That would cause him to ask questions, and he really wasn't up for explaining the death of his family again.

"Remember, sunblock and water! It's still very hot there, even with the cooling system!" he warned, not noticing that Lucas had been crying.