forum Glitches // OxO // Closed

Started November 27, 2019 by @ElderGod-Icefire

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What a question. Jude hesitated, holding back his simple answer of 'I don't know.' He sighed, letting his gaze drift to somewhere other than Nyx's face. "Maybe…because that's just the way I am. I don't know– The feeling is just…there."

Nyx frowned. "But…" He still didn't quite understand. "But that doesn't make sense. Of course you deserve to be happy, Jude."

"I mean, yeah– I know that," Jude said with a soft laugh, running a hand through his hair and watching Macy wander around his living room, "–Just doesn't feel like that, sometimes. Could be the reason I've stayed with so many shitty boyfriends 'n all. But it doesn't really bother me, I guess."

Nyx shook his head a little bit. "No, that…I don't…" He frowned again, not sure what to say, how to phrase his words.

"Hey, it's fine," Jude said, smiling softly and meeting Nyx's eyes. Is it fine? "Don't worry about it. It's just a thing."

"But it doesn't make sense." Nyx replied, shaking his head a little bit. "I…"

Jude remembered Nyx's headache and let out a breath. "Hey, I don't wanna confuse or overwhelm you right now," He said with a weak smile, "Just forget it, maybe I don't know what I'm talking about."

Nyx narrowed his eyes a little. "Hm.aube you don't." He agreed grumpily, kissing Jude's cheek softly.

Jude let out a soft laugh, smiling as he wrapped his arms around Nyx's waist, "Yeah, maybe."

Nyx smiled happily, kissing Jude's cheek again. "Thank you for everything." he said contentedly.

"Mhh, you're welcome," Jude mumbled a little shyly, smiling at the affection, "It's not a big deal, but–" He lightly shrugged.

Nyx shrugged. "It's a big deal for me." He replied, snuggling closer to Jude with a smile.

Jude softly nodded, "I guess it is," He said, smiling as he sighed, "And though it wasn't a 'big deal' for me– it was still a pretty life-changing thing; to find you in that pod."

Nyx shrugged a little bit. "Well, yeah, but…but still." He replied, looking at Jude. "You've changed…my entire life."

Jude nodded, only partially processing his words. "Hm," He sounded, thoughtfully biting his lip, "I mean…I guess I did? I don't wanna make it sound bad– cause it did change your life –but I wasn't even supposed to be in there."

He blinked. "But either way, does that really matter? You still changed my life and…that's not a bad thing. Right?"

Jude shook his head lightly, leaning comfortably into the couch, "No, it's not a bad thing. And I guess you're right– it might not even matter, but I still feel like I don't deserve to like, hold that title." He smiled, shaking his head dismissively, "Anyway, I'm glad I was in the wrong place and the right time."

He frowned a little, blinking. "But why wouldn't you deserve that?" he asked, not understanding why Jude kept insisting he didn't deserve these things.

Jude hesitated, wondering why he couldn't explain how it just felt that way; stuck in some type of inferiority complex, even though that he knew it was a significant thing to Nyx. "Because…" He said, his gaze flickering around the room as he thought, "I don't know. Maybe because I didn't do that much?"

"You opened up the pod, and you let me out, and you came back again to help me. You did everything, Jude." Nyx's voice was quiet, but sincere.

Jude swallowed, taking in Nyx's words and watching his expression. "I mean…I did, but–" He shrugged, shaking his head.

Nyx looked at him. "So I don't see the problem." He said quietly, still looking up at Jude.

Jude bit his lip for a moment before he nodded. "There isn't a problem," He said, sighing, that's what confuses me. "Hmph– Maybe I'm just tired or something. There isn't really anything I can do on how I feel about this."

Nyx blinked, then nodded a little bit, and kissed Jude's cheek. "Oh. Okay." He replied with a light smile. "Thanks."

"Mhm," Jude hummed with a smile, running his hand affectionately through Nyx's hair. "How's your head?" He softly asked, pressing a kiss to his cheek in return.