forum Glitches // OxO // Closed

Started November 27, 2019 by @ElderGod-Icefire

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Nyx nodded again, relaxing a little bit. "Oh, okay. I just.." he just felt stupid for not knowing this. For not knowing any of this.

"It's all good," Jude said, smiling softly as Nyx's expression softened a little, "Don't feel frustrated with yourself, 'kay?"

Nyx let out a breath. "I just…I don't know anything that I guess…that everybody else knows and…" he shook his head quickly.

"Hey, don't get mad at yourself for that," Jude told him, taking a gentle step closer and shaking his head, "You didn't know about all this– you never got the chance. You're here now, but it's okay if you don't get some stuff."

He bit his lip. "But…but what if I mess up? What…what if I say the wrong thing or…or do the wrong thing just because I don't…"

"–It wouldn't matter, Nyx," Jude said, hoping he sounded sincere. "Doing something wrong because you don't know better…isn't some terrible thing. You're still learning, aren't you?" He nodded, looking at him with an honest expression.

Nyx swallowed softly. "I-I…" he wrapped his arms around Jude, pressing his face into the other's shoulder. "I don't know. I…don't know anything and I…"

"C'mon, you know things," Jude said, comfortingly running a hand through Nyx's dark hair, "You know about animals, how to dance, different art stuff…and how to play piano, probably. But you're gonna learn so much more, I promise. You can learn anything you want to know."

"I can learn, but…but everybody else already knows and I'll never catch up, I…" he shook his head a little bit, pressing closer to Jude.

"No– don't think like that," Jude said, hearing the anxiety in Nyx's voice as he held him close, "It's not a race. Nothing bad will happen if you don't know something, you know that, right? It ain't your fault for not knowing, anyway."

"But…" He stayed pressed close to Jude. "But I…but what if I do something wrong and I get in trouble and…and people aren't…I can't tell them why I don't know, I…" He swallowed softly, biting his lip a little bit.

"Hey, it's okay. You're not gonna get into trouble," Jude said, gently shaking his head, "–That's not gonna happen, don't say that. You're not alone, and you know I'm not gonna let it come to that."

(you should!)

Nyx stayed close, burying his face in Jude's shoulder. "But…" he shook his head a little bit, sniffling softly and taking a deep breath.

Jude let out a soft sigh, slowly raking a hand through Nyx's hair and trying not to think about what he'd do if they were separated. "Don't think I won't help you with this," He told him, "I know you're scared about…getting caught, but we have time, now."

(I can't view Pinterest on my phone 😢 so I'll take a look at it when I'm on a computer later!)

Nyx nodded a little bit. "Can we go back to the apartment now?" He asked quietly. "My head hurts." Honestly, the computer part of his brain was just getting overwhelmed with all the information and he needed a break before he had to shut down.

(okey dokey ;)

"Yeah," Jude softly replied, nodding faintly and trying not to worry. "Yeah let's– let's go. You can have a nap or something. D'you still wanna get the books?"

Nyx nodded a little. "Still wanna get the books." He agreed quietly. "But my head hurts and I want to go home." He closed his eyes for a moment.

Home. "Mhm, yeah. Okay," Jude said as he nodded to himself, taking the books from Nyx and winding his free arm around his waist. "Let's go pay for these, and then I'll drive us home, yeah?"

Nyx nodded a little bit. "Okay." he replied quietly, leaning against Jude a little bit as he followed the other to the checkout counter.

(thank you!!! trying to make it accurate but he's so complicated lol)

Jude paid for the books and thanked the owner politely, keeping one arm around Nyx as they made their way out of the shop. His mind was a cloud of worries as they walked out onto the street, and his eyebrows were pulled together in thought.

(np!! Haha)

Nyx stayed pressed against Jude, walking with him as they came out of the bookstore. He was quiet, tilting his face to the sun.