forum •Hollow Tune• [one/one]

Started June 30, 2022 by @Dayzed local_movies

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I uhh once did this prompt with two people who I really loved rping with (you know who you are), but due to unfortunate circumstances I had to leave, feel kind of like an asshole for ditching them, but I didn't have a choice. Or at least that's what I thought at the time.
Yes, I've done this so many times, holy shit it's unreal but I really want someone to do this with again-

Anyways, I really love the ship dynamic of the homophobic bully having a crush on the very openly gay guy, but instead of accepting the confession from the guy he likes like a normal fucking human being, he bullies and hurts the guy he likes in hopes that he'll have more contact with him without it looking like he likes him.

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Rules? In my rp?? Unheard of.
I've never been one to put rules on my rps, but since most of them have died I feel like I should just to get my intentions across.

•First off, no one-liners :)) I never thought I'd have to say this but uhh yeah, no one-liners. At least answer with more than three or four sentences please. That being said I would like to have more experienced writers do this one with me who love to go overboard with the writing as much as I do lmao
I want this to last and be a long-term rp as long as I'm not in the depths of my crippling depression. I tend to be inconsistent off my meds and just disappear to do dumbass shit. But I will definitely tell you if that time comes and I need a few days off or however long.

•Second, swearing is fiiinnee, I do it all the time, go absolutely bonkers with them, but not to the point where it's really annoying, ya feel?

•Third, this will very much have triggering topics, all my rps do and if you can't handle that then please don't ask to join, if things do get intimate then we will move it to dms, though that also depends if you want to, we could skip as well.
There will be violence, there will be mentions of mental illnesses/eating disorders and whatnot, again, if you're not comfortable with any of these things, don't join

•Fourth, as andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer) says, please be respectful, and while our characters might hate each other, that doesn't mean to be a dick to the actual person rping with you

Having said that, here's the character I'll be playing:

Name: Kohen Lyle Raiden
Nickname: Koe
Age: 17
Gender: Male
Pronouns: He/Him
Sexuality: Straight (Closeted gay)
Race: Human, American

Appearance: Kohen has chestnut brown peepers with a touch of softness, they look dull when the light isn't hitting them directly.
Stare too long into his peepers and you'll find yourself getting lost in their soulless appearance. No matter how much he tries to harden his stare, it never comes off as intimidating as he would like it to. Despite this, Kohen can pull off a mean side glare due to the angular shape of his peepers. After he came back from his 'trip' Kohen's peepers looks a little more afraid, paranoid if you will, but his demeanor stayed the same, spikey, looking like he would tear anyone apart who gets too close.
Kohen has thick short unruly hair. It's hard for him to control it because of the frizziness, leading to him struggling with it for ten minutes in the morning. The way he usually likes to style it is by gelling some parts so that they stay down. The rest of his hair lays on his head in a fluffy shaggy mess. The color of his hair is a cinnamon-red dark brown. His natural hair color is brown but he dyed it a sort of purple/red color because they're his favorites. He got heck for this by his father.
One thing about Kohen that is very noticeable to everyone in the way he looks, is how feminine the shape of his face is. People would call him a "soft boy", threatening to rape him because of how "pretty" he looked. This was especially bad in middle school, which led to some horrifying incidents.
Kohen is the type to do a lot of exercises, keeping his body fit in a mesomorph type- coming in at 130 lbs, standing at 5'9". This is due to being bullied for quite a while when he was younger for being "chubby" both by his peers and parent. Kohen is caucasian and has a vanilla beige skin tone, so when he blushes the red is very apparent on his face.

Clothing: Kohen dresses in grunge clothes, giving off skater vibes. He likes layering, especially in the winter. Usually, a purple hood over a short-sleeved shirt, and a red and black checkered zip-up jacket on top, unzipped. For the bottom half of his body, he wears black skinny jeans with softly worn down red converse hightops. Because he does own a skateboard and falls a lot doing tricks, he'll either carry around or wear black fingerless gloves so the palms of his hands don't get scrapped when he braces for a fall. He also wears protection on his elbows and leghinges, sometimes he'll wear a helmet, but it's rare.

Personality: He's everything from an asshole bully to a complete dork that gets flustered easily. He makes it seems like he doesn't really care about anything when in high-res hallucination, he does a lot. To hide this fact though, he puts on an angry act for everyone around him. This is what Kohen calls the more broken side of his personality because it can quickly get out of hand before he realizes and by that time he's already hurt someone beyond repair.
Despite this, he can be a laffy taffy person if you're in his close circle of friends but is extremely homophobic due to his adopted parent's influence. Most of Kohen's personality revolves around fitting the mold of what his parent wants him to be. So when he got beat up by his father for having a boyfriend, he had no choice but to dump him. It's not that he didn't love him- he truly did, but he had to separate himself from his feelings to avoid another beating. This has made Kohen cold and hard on the inside, yet not being able to hide his face when he gushes over something he likes.
Kohen feels very deeply to the point where it hurts and he does cry a lot, just not in front of others. If Kohen is given the chance to be himself, he'll be a much more cheerful individual, hyper if you will. He'll have energy for days and wouldn't stop bothering the people he likes to the point of annoying the heck out of them. Sure, he can't take no for an answer and always wants his way but that's something he has yet to learn, boundaries.

Background: Religious Trauma, is what you can sum up his past to be. He's always been forced to attend church and get involved with the congregation. Kohen never agreed with any of the bible's teachings and one day he expressed this to his father who went off on him, almost to the point of getting physical with him. From this point on Kohen began to change in ways that his father didn't like. He would act out in school, talk in a vulgar way with a bunch of profanities, hang around people who were a 'bad influence', and then Kohen's father's fear came true, Kohen came out as gay.
Thing is, Kohen's been told that being gay is bad since he was a little kid, but he didn't care, he wanted his freedom and away from the church's rules and oppression, he wanted to be himself and was bold enough to tell that to his father who would 100% put him in a grave if he found out. Even though Kohen knew this, he did it anyway because the anger got to him one day and he went apeshit on his father. Things did not go as planned…. and ultimately he was forced to go to conversion camp which was heck for him and everyone there.
Once he got back he wasn't the same and was much quieter, but when enrolled back in school he became the bully as his temper would get the best of him. His father has warned him to be on his best behavior and so Kohen bullies others off of school grounds or where no one can see them.
Kohen himself will most likely walk to school sporting a new bruise or bandage wrapping up different parts of his body every day. He uses the excuse that he gets hurt a lot since he's learning new tricks on his skateboard when in truth, it's his father who's giving him all those wounds. Kohen doesn't say anything for the fear that his father will do something worse to him, even kill him since his father is a drunk and has definitely gone overboard before. His father wasn't always a drunk, this only happened after Kohen's mother passed away when he was in middle school.
In return for all the problems at home, Kohen takes out his pent-up anger on others at school. Recently, he found his new victim- a kid who confessed to him one day. The poor boy wasn't expecting Kohen to lash out at him at the time, but ever since then, Kohen has cornered him at school every day with his friends and has made his life a living heck. Little does the other boy know that Kohen feels the same way about him but doesn't want to accept his feelings so he resorts to hurting him.

Song: The Best, AWOLNATION // Hollow Tune, Brick + Mortar

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(yeah!! sure!! i think that would be great ! _{also, always feel free to dm me, i wouldn't have minded, i love getting surprise dms hdfjlsfg)}

(did you want to put your character up in a template or jump right in? since it's been a while and i have no clue if your character has changed or anything like that)

(perfect!! _okay!)

</sub>(mm a temp sounds good! I might not be able to get it up for a while tho, i'm going to be pretty busy in the next few days)

(i feel bad making you wait so long for a sheet that is nowhere as good/detailed as yours :') i really am so sorry for the wait, if that ever happens again feel free to bump me and be like "ayo what the fuck")

Name: Beckham James Altair
Nicknames: Beck
Age: 16
Gender/Pronouns: Cis man, he/him
Sexuality: Gay
Appearance: Beck is pretty short, standing at about 5'5". Usually lies and says he's 5'6", since that's "close enough" and makes him sound a little bit taller. Despite that, he really isn't all that insecure about his height; he's generally okay with being seen as the soft gay kid, in all honesty. If the shoe fits wear it, after all. He is pretty slim, as well, which just contributes to the fact that he looks completely harmless. He is white, and very pale, with just a few faint freckles dotted across his cheekbones and the land-connector of his nose, along with a few on his arms and on the backs of his hands. He has a trio of small moles on his right shoulder, forming a rough triangular shape. He has a pretyt sharp jawline, and good cheekbones, but the rest of his face is not overly angular. He has almond shaped peepers that are a golden brown tone, with long lashes the same red as his hair. His eyebrows are also red, though they are a darker tone than his eyelashes and hair. His hair itself is wavy and rather unruly, not really behaving itself ever, and is a coppery color. It is not overly long, at about three inches (basically just, y'know, a regular haircut). He really does fit the "soft boy" archetype, really, when just looking at him. He has soft, fine lips, and his smile is often shy unless he's around people he knows well. He does have scars on his torso, especially his torso and thighs, and always wears long pants and at the very least a t-shirt in order to hide the scarring. His arms are mostly free from scars, but there are self-harm marks on his wrists (most are older and are just scars, but a few are still in the process of healing. None are recent enough to just be scabs), along with a few cigarette burns on his shoulders. Much of the scarring on his torso is also from cigarette burns, though there are quite a few other scars from other things as well. The scarring on his thighs is a mixture of scars from abuse, and a few self-harm scars (the self-harm is specifically on his inner thighs). Also has a faint, crescent-shaped scar on his throat from a suicide attempt.
Personality: Beck is very shy, and has a tendency to flinch at loud or sudden noises, especially if they occur right next to him. Also is not someone who likes physical contact, except with people he is close to and trusts implicitly (such as his siblings or adoptive parents). If anyone touches him without first checking that it is alright, he often reacts negatively, even if that reaction is a very small one (Stiffening, flinching, subtly or not so subtly trying to pull away, etc). Beck is a generally calm person, though, and has a tendency to be kind to people almost no matter what. Believes in second (sometimes even third) chances, and tries to give them to people when he can. Obviously that tendency only goes so far, but there are very few people in the world he would not give another chance to if they asked (one of the people he would not give another chance to is his bio father). His kindness does get taken advantage of, sometimes, and he can often have a hard time saying no (not in sexual situations, but like. when someone asks him for a favor). He's a people-pleaser, and he's doing his best to work on that but it is a difficult thing to work through. Has severe PTSD and suffers from depression and heebie jeebies as well, and as a result is susceptible to panic attacks due to triggers or as an heebie jeebies response. Is seeing a therapist and working on getting better.
Background: (honestly pretty short bc i didn't feel like going into too much detail about what his father did. I give a few tho, so TW for: SA and physical abuse of a ankle-biter, self-harm, suicide attempt. Legit tho this is VERY dark so any smaller ones or those who do have triggers, please tread with caution. I have spoiler tagged parts for a reason) Beck's parents met when his mother was 16 and his father was 25, and his father pursued his mother romanticlaly. Essentially, his father groomed his mother into a relationship, and married her when she was 19. The relationship was not a good one, and Beck was born when his mother was 21. By the time he was three, she was a heavy drinker to cope with the shit that his father, John, put her through. When he was 5, she drove while drunk and got in a motorized rollingham accident, dying in the hospital a week later. For a while, things were okay. Not great, by any stretch of the imagination, but not terrible. John wasn't a great parent, but he seemed to be doing "okay". Beck was neglected a bit, sure, but he had clothes and usually mandatory sustenance (like cheetos), and a roof over his head. John drank and swore and smoked all the time. The older man also watched thigns that were very inappropriate for such a small ankle-biter, but didn't care if Beck was in the human containment unit while those things were playing on the TV, often with the sound cranked up. However, by the time a orbit party had passed, John had turned very abusive towards the young boy.

This abuse went on for nearly five orbit parties. In that time, Beck self-harmed a lot. The self-harm scars on his thighs were an attempt to get his father to stop touching him there. He also attempted suicide, using a kitchen stabby stick to try and slit his throat. John found him before he bled out, though, and got a healing mage to treat Beck. Unluckily for Beck, this healing mage was a close friend of John's, which meant there was no report made to ankle-biter Services. Luckily, though, a good teacher saw the bandages and asked what had happened. When Beck tried to evade her questions, she contacted CS herself. They came to investigate, and immediately removed Beck from John, along with arresting John. Beck was adopted by the Altairs, and is now the third of five children. John is in prison, and will be in prison for a long time. Beck has received a lot of intense therapy, but still regularly suffers from horrific nightmares and flashbacks, and struggles with physical contact. He had a boyfriend at one point, but when the boyfriend tried to start a more sexual thing, Beck had such a bad panic attack that he was sobbing, threw up, and nearly blacked out. After that, they broke up. He also took in a kitten that he found on the side of the cobble-stone-clippity-clop, and the kitten's name is Smoke.
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