He nodded as the flashbacks still ran their film strips through his mind. He wiped away at the tears when more just kept coming, "Yeah I'm…I'm good." He said quietly, ignoring the howling which seemed to be getting further away. "Go back to bed young prince."
Okay… Marius glanced around nervously before latching onto Evan, tangling himself up with the other with a shaky sigh. He buried his face in Evan's chest with his head under his chin and his arms wrapped around his neck. Um… goodnight…
Evan wiped at his eyes once more and held Marius close. He was shaking still, even though under the blankets. He had lied to Marius, not wanting to worry him too much as he tried to calm down. Taking deep breaths and ignoring the voices in his head, the blame he carries with him whereever he goes. He hugged Marius too tight, just wanting to forget.
Marius whined a bit when Evan squeezed him, wincing and trying to get him to loosen his grip. Too tight, too tight… He was clearly still sleepy, but he couldn't sleep when he felt like he was being crushed. Evan, calm down for fuck's sake… you're hurting me.
"S-sorry…Trauma does that to you." He loosened up a bit but soon he just set down Marius entirely and hugged his knees, burying his face into his knees. He began trying to tell himself that he's okay, that everything is behind him, hoping that maybe he'd believe himself. Did he? No. But it was worth a shot.
Marius drew in a few deep breaths when he was free, glaring up at Evan until he realized the other was still panicking. He sighed and pushed the other's knees away from his body so he could settle in his lap and hug him. Is this helping?
He nodded, a small whimper escaping his throat. "Yeah…just. Remember prince. Even the strongest of people have their downfalls." He said quietly in a rough voice. "I've…I've had quite the terrifying past. The memories continually haunt my dreams. This is just one of the harder nights. Thank you for being here."
"Mm…" Marius huddled a little closer and sighed again. You're welcome. Now, I'm exhausted and I'm gonna go back to sleep, so try not to crush my ribs or anything, yeah? He nuzzled into Evan's chest and closed his eyes to go to sleep again.
(So. And tell people on notebook this. Someone hacked into my account and changed it. I made a new one but yeah. I'm gonna have to work on redoing everything)
(Oh nuuuuuu have you tried letting andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer) know?)
(Oof that sucks)
(No I haven't but I will)
(Maybe he can get it back for you)
(I messaged him. I know who it is too. My sexually manipulative ex who is mad for whatever reason. Oh well. He's gonna be changing around ALL of my social media probably because he's petty so. Gbye snap and discord and insta and everything. I knew I shouldn't have used my username the same for everything.)
(Oof I do that too lol)
(Well I got my parents and his mom involved so happily this is the last of it)
(Oh good)
(Yay. Back to my regular account)
(Yaaaay)
"No promises Princey." He said gently, still shaking as he just tried to calm down. Eventually he fell over and went into a dreamless sleep, holding him close and tight. Having Marius around definitely helped Evan. He woke up way after Marius, arms having loosened by the morning.
Marius was warming himself by the fire when Evan awoke and didn't seem to notice the other at first. He seemed to only be half awake at this point and was purring weakly in content, enjoying the warmth of the crackling fire. His ears drooped a bit and he had his eyes closed.
Evan sat up and stretched a bit, before walking over to Marius, blanket draped over his shoulders. He wrapped Marius in a light hug with a smile. "Good morning my lovely prince." He purred sleepily, nuzzling into his soft orange hair.
Mmm… mornin'… Marius glanced up at Evan for a moment before turning back to the fire, content to bask in its warmth for now. We should probably be heading back soon. We've been gone for ages and we already ate all the food.
"We will. Once we both wake up a bit more. Let's just hope our horses are still alive." He says with a slight chuckle. He hummed gently as he kissed Marius's cheeks. "I really am sorry for last night. I suffer from sporadic night terrors due to my past, which. If you truly do love me forever is something you'll have to deal with. Again. I am sorry. I try to not let it affect me or bother others. It is something I ashamed of."
Mhmm… I get them too, but I generally don't do much about them. I just wait for it to be over and then go back to sleep. Marius adjusted his mask a bit on his face so it would stay on better and sighed. Not that I sleep much anyway due to my inclination to stargaze instead of rest.