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Started December 04, 2019 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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Gabe rested his head lightly against Alex, letting out a little mumble. Alex was just so warm…

Alex snuggled close to Gabe, letting out a soft breath. Gabe's body was warm against his.

Gabe smiled a little, eyes opening slightly as he pressed his forehead against the back of Alex's neck. He thought Alex was still asleep, which was the only reason he wasn't jumping away.

Alex shifted slightly, and stayed snuggled close to Gabe. He thought Gabe was asleep too.

Gabe's eyes opened completely when Alex moved, afraid he had waken the other up.
"Alex?" He said very, very softly.

Alex blinked, stiffening a little. He rolled over to look up at Gabe, blinking.

Gabe actually stopped breathing when Alex turned to look at him, face red. Oh god oh god oh god- not good.

Alex blinked sleepily, rubbing his eyes. "Hi." He greeted softly.

"Hi," Gabe said, forcing himself to continue to breathe. He didn't pill away yet, though.

Alex took a deep breath, still blinking sleepily. He hadn't had nightmares this time, which was…amazing.

"Did you sleep okay?" Gabe asked gently. He rubbed Alex's back lightly with his thumb, blinking slowly.

Alex nodded a little bit. "Yeah." He said softly, snuggling closer to Gabe without meaning to.

"Good!" Gabe said with a smile. His grip tightened a little on Alex, and he smiled.

Alex glanced up at him for a moment, then closed his eyes again.

Gabe was more than surprised when Alex didn't push him away, or that he wasn't pushing himself away. He let out a little breath the through his nose, resting his head on Alex lightly.

Alex let out a breath, staying snuggled close to Gabe. He felt safe. He really, really did, and he wasn't going to stop this unless Gabe did.

Gabe knew what he was doing was wrong, that he couldn't feel this way, or be this way with another man. Still, he pulled himself closer, eyes closed as he put both arms around Alex.

Alex let out a breath. He wondered vaguely if Gabe would have to leave soon. He hoped not, but…he didn't know.

Gabe was snuggled close to Alex, but his lips were pursed. He shouldn't be doing this, this was wrong. He moved as if to let go, but then just tightened his hold.

Alex glanced up at Gabe, raising his eyebrows slightly. "Are you..are you alright with this?" He asked softly.

Gabe was silent for a moment. Was he? He himself didn't know anymore.
"I… yes," he finally said. So long as it stayed at this, he was okay with it.

Alex nodded. "Okay." He said softly, closing his eyes again. He could feel, in the back of his mind, that there was a ghost nearby, and he didn't want to see it. Didn't want to deal with that. He couldn't.

Gabe fell silent, putting his chin in the top of Alex's head again. He let out a soft breath, rubbing his back again. Something felt… Off, but he said nothing.

Alex took a deep breath, not knowing what to do. Please I don't wanna deal with those right now…

"What's wrong?" Gabe said quietly, pulling his head away just enough to look at Alex's face. He looked concerned, wondering if Alex was going to have some sort of episode.