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Started December 04, 2019 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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Alex closed his eyes again, and tried to get to sleep. He tried to, he really did. He rolled over.

Gabe read for a while, finally dozing off.
(Time skip to morning, or should something happen during the night?)

Alex kept trying to get to sleep.
(hm. I could maybe have Alex have a nightmare, if that's alright?)

(kk)

Alex was thrashing. He wasn't screaming, but he was keening, a soft sound that just seemed to go on and on and on. Soft enough that in a cell, it wouldn't have been heard outside his room, but here, in this apartment? The noise carried.

Gabe was slowly pulled out of sleep by a Alex's keening. When he realized what the sound was, he booked up, his book flying out it his lap as he hurried into the bedroom.
"Alex," he said, loud enough to be heard over the keening. "Wake up. It's not real." He needed to wake Alex up.

(gtg to bed now. Good night!)

Alex whimpered, and continued keening, thrashing in the blankets. Tears had leaked out from under his eyelids, and he was shaking.

(Night!)

"Alex!" Gabe took the blankets off of Alex so he didn't accidently strangle himself.

His eyes flew open, staring at Gabe but not seeming to recognize him. "Henry?" he whispered in a broken voice, shaking.

Gabe pursed his lips, hand going to rest lightly on Alex's forehead.
"Alex," he said gently. "Who is Henry?"

Everything he was my everything and I loved him and we… Alex took a deep breath, shaking slightly. He stared at Gabe for a long moment. "I…I…" He couldn't tell the truth, he couldn't. Gabe would kick him out for it. Sodomy was a sin. Sodomy was illegal.

"Alex, please," Gabe said gently, sitting down on the bed. He kept his hand on Alex's face, though it moved from his forehead to his cheek. Gabe was still sleepy, giving in to impulses.

Alex leaned into the hand, breath coming in hard, fast gasps. "I-I…he…" He couldn't. He shouldn't. But he blurted it out anyway. "I-I'm a s-sodomite. He was my…my lover, we were…" He closed his eyes.

Gabe listened to Alex confess, not taking his hand away.
"Okay," he said gently. "Okay. He must have meant a lot to you." Gabe's words were gentle; he wasn't judging Alex for being a sodomite. How could he, when he was tempted this way as well?

Alex swallowed hard, and nodded, starting to cry again as he remembered Henry's rejection just a few days ago. "I'm s-sorry. I'll leave in the morning if you want me to, I s-swear, just please don't make me leave in the d-dark!" His voice cracked, and he squeezed his eyes shut, shaking. "Please I swear I'll l-leave, just…just let me stay until morning and then I'll go, I-I promise."

"Alex," Gabe said, wiping some of the tears away. "Why would I kick you out? I told you you can stay as long as you need to, and I'm not changing my mind just because you're a sodomite." He put his other hand lightly on Alex, wanting to sooth him.

Alex broke down, hugging his arms around himself and sobbing, shaking. He tucked his knees to his chest.

Gabe moved his hand back to the top of Alex's head, scooting a little closer to him.
"Hey, don't worry. You're safe here."

Alex hesitated, then leaned against Gabe, crying harder. He was shaking, body shuddering with soft sobs.

Gabe was a bit surprised when Alex leaned against him, put lightly put his arm around Alex, rubbing his back softly like his mother had done for him when he was little.

Alex pressed his face into Gabe's shoulder, sniffling and shaking and crying and quite unable to stop.

Gabe's other arm wrapped around Alex as well, and he looked down at him with soft eyes.
"It's okay. No one is gonna hurt you, you're safe now."

Alex shook his head a little, burying his face into Gabe even more. No no no no no you aren't safe, not with me here not around me. He was shaking and crying still.