If anyone knows about the guy that told me to leave him alone a couple months ago, this is about that. Anyway, he stresses me out. Being around him stresses me out, crossing paths stresses me out and especially making eye contact s t r e s s e s me out. My bf and him are friends and they’ve been talking ig and my bf told me that this guy wants to smooth things over, but I’m like still scared. Things have been pretty okay, but I can’t shake that doubt. I can’t let go of the hurt and the fear. So idk. That’s all ig. Is it like okay to want him to know what all happened to me on my end that he likely doesn’t know because he wasn’t around to see it? Because I want him to know how his actions affected me. And I want to know what about the things that I said that lead him to those actions, so I can explain myself, hopefully. But do I want to be friends again? No. Not really. I will never be able to forget this and I will always be afraid that it will happen again, not exactly, but similarly. And I don’t know if I can handle that.
If anyone knows about the guy that told me to leave him alone a couple months ago, this is about that. Anyway, he stresses me out. Being around him stresses me out, crossing paths stresses me out and especially making eye contact s t r e s s e s me out. My bf and him are friends and they’ve been talking ig and my bf told me that this guy wants to smooth things over, but I’m like still scared. Things have been pretty okay, but I can’t shake that doubt. I can’t let go of the hurt and the fear. So idk. That’s all ig. Is it like okay to want him to know what all happened to me on my end that he likely doesn’t know because he wasn’t around to see it? Because I want him to know how his actions affected me. And I want to know what about the things that I said that lead him to those actions, so I can explain myself, hopefully. But do I want to be friends again? No. Not really. I will never be able to forget this and I will always be afraid that it will happen again, not exactly, but similarly. And I don’t know if I can handle that.
You shouldn't be friends with someone you don't want to be friends with. You shouldn't have to deal with this. I'm sorry.
Ok, I need to vent here, sorry if this bothers you guys.
So lately I have been kinda actually talking to people more and getting to know people more. I've actually found some people who have a lot of things in common with me. That's great right? Why the need to vent here? That's actually really great isn't it? WELL, apparently I was wrong when I thought it was great. There's this one guy who I started talking to, let's call him J. Me and J can have normal conversations and can get along really well, well could get along. For a little while we kept forgetting each other's names because we both have the worst memories ever. So finally when he remembered my name, I thought that was good. WRONG. At my school we have to wait in the gym until the bell rings, when it rings we walk to our grades house. Well the bell had rung and me and my friends were walking in the hall being quiet, minding our own business. Well, all of a sudden I heard someone yell my name followed by "is an emo!" I automatically knew it was me since I am literally the only emo in my school. So I ignored it because I know it's true and I could care less someone was pointing out the obvious. They kept calling it out and I turned around to see that it was J, and his friend, let's call him T. They kept repeating it and it was really annoying, but I kept ignoring them. When we made it to our grades house they called out something that went so over the lines. "Hey emo! Do you cut your wrists?" Do I cut my wrists? Hahaha im uncomfortable now. So naturally I felt betrayed. I haven't talked to J in two weeks, but over those two weeks T has been screaming 'emo' at me everytime he sees me. The other day that fucker (i'm sorry if that offends you) called me a frigging gay faggot. Yes, that's right, a gay faggot. (Sorry if that also offends you) So I told the principal, AND HE HAS DONE NOTHING YET. IT'S PISSING ME OFF NOW. Sooo ye, that's my vent.
Keep reporting it to the principal if you have to. Or your counselor? Or someone of that nature. That's pretty homophobic.
I have talked to my counselor, and she just said to me "Boys will be boys, i'm sure your fine." Uhh like excuse me? Put yourself in my shoes hunny, it doesn't look fine to me.
Usually of you get a parent involved, they'll do something. Then again, you run the risk of being made fun of for telling your parents and the principal STILL not doing anything. Principals are the worst. dramatically pushes hugs at you because I'm a drama queen <3
Keep reporting it to the principal if you have to. Or your counselor? Or someone of that nature. That's pretty homophobic.
I have talked to my counselor, and she just said to me "Boys will be boys, i'm sure your fine." Uhh like excuse me? Put yourself in my shoes hunny, it doesn't look fine to me.
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AHHHHHH
IM SO FRUSTRATED.
YALL EVER SEE SOMEONE YOU REALLY WANT TO TALK WITH OUT POSTING ELSEWHERE AFTER IGNORING YOUR POST/PM WITH THEM FOR HOURS!?
LIKE FAM. IF YOU DONT LIKE ME JUST TELL ME! DONT IGNORE ME FOR HOURS ON END AND ONLY TALK TO ME ONCE A DAY. AAAHHHH
It doesn’t help it’s been going on for weeks.
Like am I annoying? Do I offend you in anyway??
Am I just an unlikeable person???
WHATS WRONG TELL ME,!!
Is it because I’m making this vent here??
What’s wrong with me???
Yeah. I'm sorry. As someone who gets anxiety whenever that happens and puts herself down when she see's that, I know how upsetting that can be. I don't think we've met but I'd love to talk with you!
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