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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

I find myself doing that too often at night…

Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

I find myself doing that too often at night…

Me as well.

Sometimes I just wish I could Cry.

I find myself doing that too often at night…

Me as well.

I shouldn't say this but… Same. I know I'm normally super incredibly happy but every once in a while, for no good reason, it all disappears and this flood of sadness, anxiety, worry, embarrassment, confusion, and of course tears decides to swallow me… I've been doing a lot better though.

Well, in any case, I'm glad at least one of us is doing better, Ella! I hope you continue to advance!

I wish I was able to cry my feelings but I haven't been able to in a while…….

Jeez, I honestly know there was a time when I I knew what that felt like, but I can't remember it.

Like the last time I really cried because I was sad was in June. unless you want to count the times I cried because of some very intense panic attacks

Today my friend and I were eating lunch, and we had pretty much just started on our entree when a teacher said, ”Wrap it up.” Ok, whatever. It’s annoying when they do that but we’ve never actually been kicked out of the cafeteria. So we continued to eat our lunch at the same pace. And we were actually eating pretty fast. Then a teacher started yelling at us. Multiple times, until it was, ”THIS IS YOUR FIFTH WARNING! GET OUT! LEAVE!”
We were scared by then, which is not something the teachers should make the students feel! Especially at lunch, which should be one of our favorite parts of the day! If we had stayed down there any longer, we would’ve most likely gotten a demerit.
At recess we were saying (in the kind of voice you would use to sing “Good For You” from DEH), “If they want to give us a demerit for not wanting to get sick, go ahead! But are parents are NOT going to be happy with the school.”
This goes for the coat thing too. If it’s cold and it’s outdoor recess, you have to bring your coat down to lunch with you. If you forget and go back to get it, you can get in trouble. Earlier this year my friend (note that this is her first year at my school and didn’t know about the rule) got yelled at for going to get her coat! The only reason she didn’t get a demerit was because she was new and didn’t know about the rule! And another time I overheard some younger students talking about how a classmate had gotten a demerit for going and getting her coat.
I’m sorry, but I would rather get a demerit than frostbite, or hypothermia, or even a cold. My friend (the one I was eating lunch with when we got yelled at) is proud of her perfect record of no demerits, ever, but she agrees with me.
We had plenty if time to eat before, until the Kid Whisperer showed up. I remember him as the person who ruined our school. Why do we need a kid whisperer anyway? We’re not dogs! It sounds like you consider us not humans, just because we’re kids.

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Why do teachers think it is okay to assign projects over breaks? I have three projects worth a majority of my grade for this last quarter ad they are all like " Your high school students you can handle this, I'm the only teacher doing this you're fine" Um first, no your not, second, if you are the only one doing this then why are you doing it in the first place, and third, people have lives, I don't but that doesn't mean i want to work on English, Spanish, and a science project. I only have one week, I want to be working on teddy bears and not trying out how to make rape sound kid friendly for a children's book. Thank you for reading my rant. I apologize.

Question-

Why do teachers think it is okay to assign projects over breaks? I have three projects worth a majority of my grade for this last quarter ad they are all like " Your high school students you can handle this, I'm the only teacher doing this you're fine" Um first, no your not, second, if you are the only one doing this then why are you doing it in the first place, and third, people have lives, I don't but that doesn't mean i want to work on English, Spanish, and a science project. I only have one week, I want to be working on teddy bears and not trying out how to make rape sound kid friendly for a children's book. Thank you for reading my rant. I apologize.

I totally agree with you!! I got given two presentations in class today, in both french and english…
I HATE Public Speaking of any kind. And I have to work with classmates I barely know for english…. and they are both summative projects!!

Question-

Why do teachers think it is okay to assign projects over breaks? I have three projects worth a majority of my grade for this last quarter ad they are all like " Your high school students you can handle this, I'm the only teacher doing this you're fine" Um first, no your not, second, if you are the only one doing this then why are you doing it in the first place, and third, people have lives, I don't but that doesn't mean i want to work on English, Spanish, and a science project. I only have one week, I want to be working on teddy bears and not trying out how to make rape sound kid friendly for a children's book. Thank you for reading my rant. I apologize.

I totally agree with you!! I got given two presentations in class today, in both french and english…
I HATE Public Speaking of any kind. And I have to work with classmates I barely know for english…. and they are both summative projects!!

wanna know how I calm myself? I blow stuff up on a game and act like it is real. (Thats what I'm doign right now instead of my engish project)

Question-

Why do teachers think it is okay to assign projects over breaks? I have three projects worth a majority of my grade for this last quarter ad they are all like " Your high school students you can handle this, I'm the only teacher doing this you're fine" Um first, no your not, second, if you are the only one doing this then why are you doing it in the first place, and third, people have lives, I don't but that doesn't mean i want to work on English, Spanish, and a science project. I only have one week, I want to be working on teddy bears and not trying out how to make rape sound kid friendly for a children's book. Thank you for reading my rant. I apologize.

I totally agree with you!! I got given two presentations in class today, in both french and english…
I HATE Public Speaking of any kind. And I have to work with classmates I barely know for english…. and they are both summative projects!!

wanna know how I calm myself? I blow stuff up on a game and act like it is real. (Thats what I'm doign right now instead of my engish project)

Luckily I don't think I really have to work on either…
(Though I promised my classmates I'd look up some articles on our topic….)

I have a FACS project, science project, french project, AND an english project. I'm not even on spring break yet….

OUCH….
(And oof I just remembered I have to go study a chapter in a book too….)

Question-

Why do teachers think it is okay to assign projects over breaks? I have three projects worth a majority of my grade for this last quarter ad they are all like " Your high school students you can handle this, I'm the only teacher doing this you're fine" Um first, no your not, second, if you are the only one doing this then why are you doing it in the first place, and third, people have lives, I don't but that doesn't mean i want to work on English, Spanish, and a science project. I only have one week, I want to be working on teddy bears and not trying out how to make rape sound kid friendly for a children's book. Thank you for reading my rant. I apologize.

UGH!
Like no, I'm not going to do a 5 page essay and a project while I'm in fucking FLORIDA!

Question-

Why do teachers think it is okay to assign projects over breaks? I have three projects worth a majority of my grade for this last quarter ad they are all like " Your high school students you can handle this, I'm the only teacher doing this you're fine" Um first, no your not, second, if you are the only one doing this then why are you doing it in the first place, and third, people have lives, I don't but that doesn't mean i want to work on English, Spanish, and a science project. I only have one week, I want to be working on teddy bears and not trying out how to make rape sound kid friendly for a children's book. Thank you for reading my rant. I apologize.

UGH!
Like no, I'm not going to do a 5 page essay and a project while I'm in fucking FLORIDA!

You know whats worse, missing two labs, two papers, and four major tests not counting other huge projects while in ROME. I don't want to think about that type of crap and I don't want extra work from my english and social studies classes by writing a friken essay on the history there. I don't care that we just read Julius Ceaser or just finished earning about the downfall of Rome. I want to learn crap that they dont teach in school and talk about what you said and how it was wrong. (I did fix what my english professor said about where the speeches where held and I fixed the pronounciation from what my choir teacher said in latin.) Thank you for reading my rant. I do not care about any misspelled words

Well, in any case, I'm glad at least one of us is doing better, Ella! I hope you continue to advance!

…
I know it probably won't last long, but today, I've managed to have such a good day that I physically can't stop smiling. Negative thoughts keep trying to hit me but nothing's happening, I'm invincible, and most of all… I'm improving. I don't feel like a ball of sad, confuzzled guilt anymore…

Direct quote from my math teacher:
"You guys have had so many snow days. You should spend it doing lessons and homework."
Us: "Did you grade the summatives (finals) from a month ago?"
Him: "I think it's important to spend time with my family on snow days."

Quotes from my teachers (Literally everyone of them have said this at least once, or a version of this.)

"Have you heard about the snow"
"I'm betting on no school tomorrow."
"I hope school gets canceled."
"There is supposed to be a big snowstorm coming."

Well, in any case, I'm glad at least one of us is doing better, Ella! I hope you continue to advance!

…
I know it probably won't last long, but today, I've managed to have such a good day that I physically can't stop smiling. Negative thoughts keep trying to hit me but nothing's happening, I'm invincible, and most of all… I'm improving. I don't feel like a ball of sad, confuzzled guilt anymore…

As predicted, it didn't last very long…

Well, in any case, I'm glad at least one of us is doing better, Ella! I hope you continue to advance!

…
I know it probably won't last long, but today, I've managed to have such a good day that I physically can't stop smiling. Negative thoughts keep trying to hit me but nothing's happening, I'm invincible, and most of all… I'm improving. I don't feel like a ball of sad, confuzzled guilt anymore…

As predicted, it didn't last very long…

:( hugs

Tate McRae is the most relatable singer e v e r
My faves are Dear Parents and Dear Ex Best Friend

Guess who forgot to take their meds and left them at home?
This bitch.

So that plus being constantly misgendered, I may just snap today.

I'm willing to punch people for you if needed