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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Hey

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My dad's trying to get me a doctor's appointment after school today but my earbuds are broken so I have to go all school day without them and then to the doctors without them ew :/

oh no! aha

I have now downloaded many, many, many more fall aesthetic photos from google (don't worry I'm not doing anything with them other than making myself happy when I scroll through them

we love the autumn aesthetic though aha

i may or may not be changing my lock screen on my phone to a different one every day

we love that but also.. overkill?? aha

Yes that's me. Overkill XD

as long as the backgrounds are good! aah

Yesterday my mom told me I need to learn even to keep my mouth shut but little does she know that I keep most of my thoughts inside anyway and I also almost said a bad word in front of them and I had to do a recovery which I failed at but I don't think they were listening anyway

oh god, that’s horrible

_{I am honestly so close to giving up}

What’s wrong Ella?

I just want to abandon my dreams, my family, my friends, my religion, everything that matters to me and just lie down on the ground until I’m finally dragged into hell where I belong

Yeah, I get you. What happened?

Hey, Ella, I'm here.
I'm not supposed to have electronics, but I'm here.

we are here for you ella <3

Ellybabe, talk to us <3

i feel like i'm gonna vomit and i've almost vomited 4 times this morning yet here i am at school slightly dying but it's all good
and ella darling we're all here for you <3

oh no mezzo!
why’s that?

You shouldn't be at school cutie. Can you go home?

because i ate too much and i'm dumb and i'm already sick and i was dumb enough to decide that i should go to school but i won't be able to go home because i don't have a fever but i feel like i'm gonna cry and my head's gonna split open and i just wanna go home i shouldn't have come to school but now mom's heading to work and dad's already there so i couldn't be home until an hour from now at BEST and then i'll prolly have to go to work with them and i'm just so tired and blegh

Baby, can you go to the nurse?

That’s the thing, I don’t know what happened, but all my motivation to continue is suddenly gone and I haven’t felt any real emotion in 3 days