So uhhh… You know how I've complained a lot lately about never having anything to do, how my life is extremely boring, I'm stuck in the house all day doing the same three things over and over again, etc, etc? Well, this week is the exact opposite, so much is happening that I'm kind of slightly very stressed out and don't know what to do about it.
I'm volunteering at my church to help with Vacation Bible School, aka, a group of constantly screaming children being forced to sit down and actually learn about scripture instead of Fortnite dancing through the hallways like they insist on doing any time they get the chance. So I'm helping from early in the morning until lunchtime, which is a lot of fun but also really exhausting so by the time I get home, my voice is dead along with my eardrums and energy for the day.
On Thursday, the whole group including us volunteers are going to meet some nuns that are quite famous around here for their incredible singing skills, so that will be great, but also extremely tiring because I've only been there once, I don't know how to navigate the place, what happens if a child runs off? So that's great
I'm also in the church choir, and they decided shortly after I joined that "Hey, we should pick a list of complicated, completely unheard of Latin songs that take a lot of practice and dedication to sing, record us singing them, and put it all on a CD to sell at the bookstore! That sounds like so much fun!!!"
The recording is this Saturday, I barely know most of the songs, my voice is completely fried from singing and yelling at children, so I'm extremely anxious about the whole thing… If I mess up even slightly it's forever going to be burned on a disc for the church and my whole family to hear
And then the day after I'm going with my little siblings to see my grandparents… The ones that live three hours away. So I still won't get to rest afterwards cause I'll have to pack for the trip, and once we get there it's non-stop running from some cool tourist attraction to my cousin's theater to two different swimming pools to a restaurant… There's no break, no rest, no nothing…
And then once that's over, everything goes back to repeating the same boring days over and over again probably for the rest of summer.
internal screaming
The worst part is though, I won't be able to get to confession once again, so by my religious beliefs and everything, if for some reason I die soon, there's no hope for me whatsoever and that's a really terrifying piece of information to have in your brain when leaving the safety of your room for that long