forum We've never been so scared before - a sad roleplay full of ugly feelings ((8/8 - closed))

Started November 02, 2018 by @blue_topaz

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Hey Nessie, and sure!

Hey Topaz! We haven't done a lot of roleplay's together since the andromeda so I thought this might be fun :)

Name: Ash Juneau Kahale
Age: 19 years.
Gender: Female
Sexuality: She's questioning, though she tends to lean towards women most of the time. (Bicurious)
Reason for being in this roleplay: Insomnia and a bipolar disorder (Has a minor case of dermatillomania as well) Smoking addiction and some minor anxiety.
Appearance: She usually likes to experience with her appearance, using different hair dyes and makeup. At the moment, her hair is dyed a white color, though her roots are a faint darker brown color. A pale skin tone, with ashy, faint freckles across the bridge of her nose, collarbone, shoulders and arms. (Her entire appearance looks quite faded) Around 5’6, with a smaller build and rounder shoulders. She remains quite lanky. Naturally lighter grey/icy eyes, though she enjoys wearing color contacts every once in a while. Has a few dark circles under her eyes from the lack of sleep she gets (tries to cover it up somehow) Picks at her skin and there are scars around her fingers, nails and the palm of her hands.
Usual clothing: Her sense of clothing/style changes constantly and she tends to be a…reckless dresser (throws on whatever she wants). Usually dresses in things that are too big for her. Wears oversized band-shirts or sweaters and hoodies. Wears long sleeved shirts under short sleeved shirts since she tends to always be cold. Will sometimes wear leggings under ripped shorts. Dresses in simple jeans, though will wear a distressed pair every once in a while. Has retro, white nikes that she always wears. A tan leather jacket that she wears saying "Yellowstone National Park '78"
Personality: Ash tends to be quite a moody person (mostly because she is bipolar), and her next mood tends to change from time to time. She can go from moments of energy and rapid talking to irritability and anxious behaviors. Though when first met, she can be quite shy and withdrawn, finding it hard to open up to a person. Charismatic and is very sarcastic. Tends to be quite the daredevil. Can be blunt. She's eternally tired and a bit lazy too. Though, if she really does care about someone, she's very protective of them and can be gentle.
Flaws: Because of her quick change in moods, making friends tends to be hard for her. Stubborn. She can be very blunt and say the wrong things.
Likes: Tea. Antiques and cameras. Pharmacies and CVS since that's where she gets her hair dyes. Small towns. Grey days. She loves to thrift shop. Likes to stay up late and read. She loves watching National Geographic shows and her favorite animals are turtles and tigers.
Dislikes: The medicine she needs to take. Hates it when people point out how moody she is. Deadlines. Slow/classical music.

@Nessie she’s awesome! And yeah I can’t wait to rp with you again :)

(Ooo, I like Natalie a lot (but then again I like them both lol))

Same idk what to doooooooo

I have officially decided on Natalie!

For sure!!)

Np :)

Name: Aja Belle Katherine Poirot-Simmons
Age (16-26): 23
Gender: Fluid, normally leaning more towards their biological sex (female, she/her) and being agender (they/them pronouns please!) but does sometimes feel masculine/male, but usually only for a moment or so (no, I'm not being offensive or ignorant, I've actually interviewed my genderfluid friends about how their gender usually tends to sway. They are very helpful in this respect, along with writing tips and emotional support. Which is cool. And this is rabbit trailing, so ima shut up now.)
Sexuality (and whether or not you're okay with them being shipped): Panromantic and grey/demisexual (Yay! Probably what my sexuality is! I'm still figuring stuff out, haha, no worries, just a big existential crisis and questioning the entirety of my life and everything that has happened in it as of yet, so I'm totally fine.). Shipping is fine.
Reason for being in this rp (mental illnesses, etc.): Aspberger's (on the autism spectrum. I actually have Aspberger's, so if you have any questions I'll be very willing to answer them as I'm able, since it generally varies from person to person.), OCD, long term depression, very bad anxiety, a history of alcoholism, self harm, one suicide attempt as a teen, claustrophobia, PTSD and panic attacks from anxiety around police, schizophrenia, insomnia, antisocial tendencies, on and off drug addiction, dermatillomania, as well as a bad smoking habit. Any questions?
Appearance: 6' 8", with curly brown hair in something of an afro (very fluffed up on their head, I guess?) which they usually pull into something of a messy bun. Dark skin, with light spots and patches all over, large ones on their face being one around their lower lip and left eye (Vitiligo, the dermatillomania comes from this, they have a habit of obsessively picking at lighter patches of skin). Also has heterochromia iridium, with the right eye being a dark brown, the left being a pale grey. Scars along arms and wrists from self harm, usually covered up, as well as a heart monitor line that twists into an infinity symbol on their neck, symbolizing their intention to move past everything into a more positive life, because sentimentality.
Usual clothing: They wear many flannels. All the flannels. Also jeans and a charcoal grey silk scarf, as well as their favorite pair of shoes, some bleach white converse. They also have a blue-jean jacket that they basically never take off.
Personality: INTJ-T/INFP-T hybrid, very bad at understanding social cues, will accidentally say something that is incredibly offensive without intending offense, very nitpicky, has very dramatic mood swings, isn't the most social, sometimes you will literally have to drag them out of their house just to get them back into functional society.
Flaws: Easily annoyed, will get very upset when they upset people and don't know how they did it, a little overly emotional and yet not the most understanding of other's emotions. Also will start babbling off in French for no apparent reason, even though it is their native language, they still speak English quite fluently and don't have much reason to do so (They're from France, but moved to whatever English-speaking country this RP is set in at 16 years old.).
Likes: Perfection, shiny objects, not having to interact with humans, writing, classical music.
Dislikes: Imperfection, tight spaces, police, social interaction for prolonged periods of time, small dogs, makeup. Like, seriously, they avoid makeup of any kind if at all possible. Also dislikes the idea of binding (look it up) so they never really did that.
Other: Is Aja alright? I based them off myself a lot, as well as quite a few people I know in real life, as to be more accurate since I talk to friends and family about a lot of these issues. And actually, most of those disorders? I actually have them. I just put in the comment about Aspberger's since it's a little misrepresented commonly, even if on accident. However, I don't have any addictions other than an addiction to fanfiction (Lord help me) so if I get a few things wrong, please forgive me, I'll try my best for accuracy.

Aja is fantastic, we’ve very happy to have both you and her here! Love the detail, and sorry about your bug existential crisis )

Yeah, I'll be fine, don't worry. Are we ready to start or should we wait for a few more people?

One or two more people, I think, then we can start!

Fantastic!

wdym? I'm starting if that's what you meant

Like the plot, how everyone's gonna meet, etc.?

an idea I had was some sort of large events that their friends forced them to go to/they decided to go to, but was a bad idea because it caused panic attacks for a lot of them and that's how they bump into each other? idk it's sorta bad, what do you guys want to do?

That sounds like a good idea, though I might change Ash to another one of my quieter (though also bipolar) character's. What do you guys think?

I personally love Ash, but it's up to you