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Started May 14, 2018 by Deleted user

tune

I’LL PROBABLY JUST READ IT ALL BUT OKAY!

Bell stood in the lobby with her over her mouth. The hospital smelled like death and cleaner. It was overpowering.

OKAY! SOUNDS GOOD!

Bell stood in the lobby with her over her mouth. The hospital smelled like death and cleaner. It was overpowering.

Darren had finally managed to sit down but still wouldn't sit still. Ryan found himself doing the pacing.

(Night y’all!)

Night honey! Sleep well!

She still couldn't help but feel like this was her fault. She wished she could just wrap herself in the ice cold numbness that surrounded her and disappear.

Ryan sat next to Belle, "You know, this isn't entirely your fault,"

"He said if I walked out that door I'd never have to see him again. I didn't think he meant it literally."

"I think mentally, he wasn't doing well and this was just the last thing on a long list of things that he was upset about."
Neal walked out and looked at the group, "His surgery is done… He's going to ICU to recover but you guys should go see him,"

Belle instantly stepped back, shaking her head. "I can't face him again so soon."

Neal looked over at Belle, "You don't have to dear but, it might help your brain work things out… Just to see that he's okay?" he smiled a sweet and caring Anderson smile.

She shook her head again. "I said I'd come. That's it."

The two brother's exchanged a look and then looked over at Ryan. Ryan simply shrugged, "I guess she isn't coming," he sighed.

"I can't." Her voice was barely above a whisper. She reached down and pulled the numbness over her like a security blanket.

Ryan had told the other two to go without him as he sat back down next to Belle, "Are you okay?"

She didn't answer. She simply couldn't. She let the numbness settle over her.

"Okay," he sighed and took her hand. "Do you think you'll ever see him?"

His touch was an anchor to reality. She still didn't answer but she squeezed his hand lightly.

"I stole something from you," he said softly, slightly ashamed…

Stole something? Her eyebrows furrowed slightly. She was listening, just not speaking

"When we were going through your bag before the bachelor party, I grabbed a letter that was for you from him. It looked more recent than the other things and… I don't know why but I grabbed it…" He took it out of his coat pocket, Cooper's blocky lettering spelled out her name on the envelope. "Sorry,"

She took it gently, opening it hesitantly.

Ryan looked away, this wouldn't be good.

Dear Belle,
If I'm dead right now, I know it was at your hand. No one else in heaven or hell had power over me the way you did. But, please, don't cry. I was dead long before I met you, I was born the day you loved me, and my love for you will keep me alive… Forever. Even now, you're still the only thing I've done right, the only thing that was truly good and I knew you'd be the end of me too. The hole inside my heart is deep, but I've been watching you for months and I'm trying to find a way to tell you what I'm seeing…I fall in love with you more everyday and I know you could never love me again. The truss is only moving faster and, you're only sinking farther away from me. But, sometimes, I see it in your eyes, that it's only getting harder for you to be around me and where I used to see a perfect love, I only see pain and to be honest I can't take that. This isn't your fault so don't blame yourself. Love you, Angel.

Love, Cooper

It was clear his thoughts were all over when he wrote this.

That started the pain again. She remembered he'd told her about the suicide letter he'd written. She read it over and over, the words burning into her memory.