"I did regrettable things to the humans responsible for her death," he moved closer to her, suddenly realizing his vulnerability. "You think we are the scary ones, that we do bad things. You have endless stories about it, but you are the monsters."
(It's muy icky)
"I know plenty of how humans are the real monsters," Lillian countered him quietly her mind flashing back through the first 17 years of her life. She took a shakey breath, "And you nor that woman deserved to be hurt like you were."
(No es muy funny)
Bal made eye contact with her, "You're not allowed to die, do you understand me?" He seemed serious.
(un poco, si. Pero tambien mi escuela made him out to be this super cool famous dood and he lowkey succcckkks)
Lillian felt her voice stop working for a moment. She wanted to say she understood, but at the same time… At the same time Darren, and she assumed Bal, knew how easy it was for her to falter. It wasn't going to be demons that killed her it would be herself. Eventually she found her voice again, "I, I understand."
(I'm still loving the fact he went to your school.)
"I know you struggle, I did too, but there are things that make it better and whatever that is for you… cling to it. Do you have something that makes keeps the voices at bay?"
(Lol keep that to yourself. I'm not proud of it. Also i don't want people to know where I went to school because… I value my privacy mucho.)
(Then ya might want to get that info off of a pubic forum. Otherwise no I won't tell.)
(Whoever thought up the show Big Mouth has a special place in hell but so do I for watching it…)
(Then ya might want to get that info off of a pubic forum. Otherwise no I won't tell.)
(This thought had occurred to me… but I'm very tired and when I'm tired, you could get anything out of me. It's my weakness.)
"Besides mutilating myself, I. I guess Darren," Lillian admitted after a few moments of silence, "But. But that hasn't always been dependable. Nothing has."
(Then, Go. To. Sleep. I'm heading off now anyway so you should too.)
(I'm not gonna sleep. That's not how this works man… but goodnight. love ya. have fun)
"Hurting yourself is interesting because it makes your brain release hormones and it's addictive like a drug. At first, it works, it makes you feel better but after some time… It does nothing. I know it's hard but you must realize that when you hurt yourself, you aren't the only one you're hurting. Would you ever take Darren's arm and cut into him?"
(No. Sleep.)
(I don't think I can, honestly)
(Hmmmmmmm okay)
(I'll be okay, don't worry about it)
(Goodnight Kate)
"I, no never!" Lillian exclaimed looking at Dar-Bal wide eyed. She knew where Bal was getting at, but damn it if it fucking worked it worked, "I know me hurting myself hurts him, but I don't know what else to do when the voices happen."
(Night Darren.)
"Everytime you think of hurting yourself, imagine it's him you're cutting," This was deep for a demon, "Let him help you,"