forum Next Steps [Private RP — Closed]

Started January 16, 2019 by @Imperfect_Autumn group

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I cried out, my body going slack against his. It was all I could do to reach up and grasp his face in my quaking hands, pulling him down until there was no space left between us at all.

•Gray….” I whimpered, pressing up to him.

Gray’s POV:

Feeling the last of my self control slipping away, I pulled back abruptly, my lips aching to claim hers all over again.

“I’m sorry…” I took deep breaths, trying to calm my thundering heart. “I can’t. I don’t want to hurt you. This is… this is getting out of my control.”

Shit.

I painted heavily, swaying slightly on my feet. “I—Gray—“ Noddikg slowly. “Would marking help? Satisfy you?”

Flushed with heat, tingling from head to toe, I swear that I almost fainted right there and then.

Gray’s POV:

I fell back on the bed, my hand covering the extremely hot face of mine.

“Help?” I repeated. “No. It would only make it worse. God, do you have any idea how good you taste, Vy?”

I opened my mouth to respond, then closed it immediately after. After a long, tense pause, I hugged my middle and pulled the pins from my hair, letting it tumble down around my face. “Would you—Would you want to go far? If we…”

Gray’s POV:

“No,” I said immediately before shaking my head. “I mean, yes. I would. Trust me, Vy, I would. But there’s no way I would go far if you’re hesitant. I care about you more than anything. I want to protect you and care for you, and that doesn’t include taking the next steps in our relationship. I can care for you without going beyond kisses.”

I pressed my hands against my cheeks for a few seconds, trying to calm myself down. I wish we didn’t have to think about this, I thought, immediately ashamed of myself.

“R-Right.”

Gray’s POV:

I sat up slowly, spreading my arms with a gentle look on my face.

“Come here,” I said to her softly.

His voice beckoned me, harsh syllables softening, and I was powerless to refuse.

I’m sorry..

Gray’s POV:

I pulled her on to my lap, wrapping my arms around her tightly.

“I love you,” I whispered to her. “I love you to the moon and back. Hell, I’ll love you till death pulls me away from you. There’s nothing in the world that I wouldn’t do to make you happy. And Vy, as long as you’re comfortable, nothing matters. I want you, that’s true. I want you terribly, but I’m always going to step back when I feel myself losing control because I want your first time—our first time to be special. For you. So please, please, my goddess, never force yourself thinking it’ll satisfy me. If you’re satisfied, I’m satisfied.”

I burrowed gratefully into his arms, my face tucked into his shouider. “Thank you…” I murmured, heart thundering. “I-I love you more than you can imagine. I hope you understand that.”

Gray’s POV:

“I do,” I whispered. “I’m never going to let you walk away from me. You’re mine forever.”

I smothered a slight flinch. Of course I knew he meant well, but his word choice was strangely unnerving at the moment.

Gray’s POV:

“Do you want to change?” I questioned in a murmured, eyes closed.

I blinked rapidly to clear my head, wrapping my arms around my middle. “Yeah. I’ll—Yeah.”

Gray’s POV:

I reluctantly let her go, giving her a kiss on the cheek.

“I’ll take the other bathroom,” I said, running a hand through my hair.

Nodding, I pulled away. “I’ll just grab my pyjamas… do you have. Sweater I can wear?”

Gray's POV:

"I do, but it would be big on you," I murmured, standing up and stretching. I still wanted to pull her down and kiss her, but I held myself back. I was already scaring her. I didn't want to do more damage. "I'll go get it."

“It’s supposed to be big on me,” I murmured, tugging lightly at my skirt. “That’s the whole point.”

Gray’s POV:

I grinned, walking over to my suitcase. I had decided not to unpack, mostly because I didn’t see the point. I unzipped it and reached out for the comfiest sweater, taking it out. It was dark blue in color and there wasn’t anything written on it, either. I handed it to Violeta, hesitating before giving her a kiss on the forehead as well.

“There you go,” I murmured, lips hovering right over her forehead, barely touching.

I shifted until I was kneeling, raising my body until Gray's lips were pressed firmly to my forehead. "Thanks, love." Clutching the soft hoodie to my chest, I smiled up at him.

Gray’s POV:

I smiled back, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.

“You look beautiful,” I reminded her. “I love you.”

"I love you too," I answered, leaning into his caresses.

After a pause, I lowered my eyes. "Can I ask you something?"

Gray’s POV:

I hummed, nodding.

“Ask away,” I murmured, losing myself in her eyes.

"Don't get mad at me," I said quickly, feeling my gut twist. "I won't be jealous or bitchy or anything. I just want to know….."

Was this really a good idea? To ask him this?

"Have you had a lot of girlfriends, in the past?"