Marius shook his head a bit. "No, not really… I mean, it was strange at first since I've never seen something like that before, but… you looked happy. And it made me feel weird, but… the good kind of weird, I think…?" He coughed a bit and took a moment to regain himself before continuing to drink his cider.
"I say you blushing. You're adorable when you blush. But what do you mean good weird? Did you think I was pretty?" He asked,and for once there was fear and nervousness in his eyes and in his voice as he downcast his eyes away from Marius.
Marius flushed a bit as he considered, fidgeting with his cup. "I… I don't know…" He sighed softly. "Maybe? I-I think I liked it, at least subconsciously, I just… I don't exactly know why or what it was in particular that I liked." He yawned, exposing his sharp teeth.
Evan stared at his sharp teeth and once Marius stopped yawning he leaned in and stole another kiss. "Would you like to see me in more dresses?" He asked gently, looking at Marius with curiosity shining in his eyes, and hope.
Marius flushed harder and shrugged a bit. "I guess so… um… if that's what you want to do, of course…" He sighed, nibbling at his knuckles nervously for a couple of seconds. "How many more do you have?" He asked softly.
"A whole wardrobe. Back in Obdin people are much more open minded. But I didn't bring any. Though Marianna is always nice enough to let me borrow hers. Would you like to wear dresses Marius?" He asked looking at his lover now, meeting his eyes.
"Me? N-No, I'm perfectly content in my normal clothes…" Marius shuffled around a bit. "I like them a lot better on you than I'd like them on myself…" He finished his cider and got to his feet, stretching and yawning again. His ears twitched a bit whenever a stray hair brushed against them.
"Alright. Well thank you handsome." He pulled Marius back into his lap and peppered him with kisses. "And I think you wear your cute little star hat better than me." He grinned from ear to ear. "I love you my prince. Don't ever forget that."
Marius whined softly at the smothering of attention, pushing Evan away a bit as he tugged the brim of his hat over his red face. He grumbled softly, trying to feign annoyance. He wasn't quite ready to return the sentiment yet, but… it was there. He'd never loved anyone before, after all, so it was hard to bring himself to say it.
"Extra adorable. I know you at least care about me too. Or else I'd be dead by now." He smiled and began to pet Marius gently. "Would you like some more apple cider or anything?" He said with worry in his voice. "Or do you want me to just stay here and cuddle you?"
"I wanna stay for now… I can drink something else later." Marius buried his face in the crook of Evans neck, purring softly. "Maybe you can distract me somehow, since I can't stop thinking about Marianna… stupid bitch makes me angry…"
"Marianna makes everyone angry my love. You aren't a monster. I know monsters. My father was a monster. I have first hand experience with monsters. You're handsome is what you are. And kinda a grump but I love that about you. I love everything about you…" He then shut himself up before he started ranting forever and just held Marius close.
"I am a monster…" Marius sighed shakily. "I… I didn't have my mouth sealed for no reason, you know… if I'd never met you, it would still be sealed, and probably would forever be. Powerful magic like that… isn't used lightly."
"I think everyone has a monster in them. It's just how we use that monster that determines if we are one forever, or if we just acknowledge that it exists and move on. How you use that beast. Do you let it be free and harm others? Or tame it for the betterment of those around you and turn it into a positive thing." He shrugged. "I've always been known to flirt with danger anyways."
Marius buried his face in Evan's shoulder and gripped him tightly. "Well, I used to let it control me, but then I had no choice when my mouth was sealed…" He nuzzled into Evan's neck. "I was definitely a monster when I was younger. It was s lot of effort to hush everything up…"
"Used to. With a new mouth and new love could be a new beginning to heal and grow. Move on from your past and learn from it." He shrugged as he pet Marius absentmindedly. "We've all done and said horrible things. It's all life nature. It happens. It's how we move on from it and deal with it that makes a difference."
This is bigger than that… Marius sighed softly and leaned into Evan's hand. "Whatever… it's… it's really bad, though. It's not something I can so easily move on from, and… I dunno…" He buried his face in the other's chest and held tightly to him.
"Big or small I'll always be here for you and will accept you no matter what. Keep in mind Evelyn is one of my closest friends and I still love her, in a sibling way, and I'm pretty sure she accidentally killed someone? As long as theirs reasonable logic and explanation that I can understand, then we can work things out. Together. I promise okay?" He smiled gently and kissed Marius's head.
Marius sighed shakily and clung tighter to Evan. "There's not…" He whispered. "There's no fucking good reason to have done it, but I did and there's nothing I can do about it at this point… it's always gonna haunt me, Evan, I… I c-can't…"
"Yes you can Marius. I'll always be by your side." He kissed Marius suddenly. This was a deep kiss, as he held it for a long time while pulling Marius in, laying him on top of him and continuing to kiss him. Not a make out. Just a tight long kiss, while snuggling in. He seperated after a little while. "I could kiss you forever…" He said quietly.
Marius was panting lightly by the time Evan pulled away, his face very flushed. He buried his red face in the other's shoulder and curled his tail up a bit with his ears quivering and drooping. "Mm…"
"I'm sorry was that too much?" He said with a tint of worry to his voice,arms loosening as he looked down at Marius. "I really don't mean to impose. I just care for you quite deeply,I can't help myself sometimes."
"It's… it's a bit much…" Marius sighed softly. "I'm not used to this yet…" He toyed with Evan's shirt and fidgeted around a bit, seeming flustered and uneasy. "We should probably be getting going soon… I've been gone for a while, so…"
Evan gave a small pout and hugged Marius one last time. "What about your mouth? Will you still wear the mask and talk telepathically? What will you tell them?" He asked as he sat up and slid him off of his lap.
"I… I don't know. I might have to do that for a while." Marius sighed. "I don't want them suspecting anything." He got to his feet and straightened himself out a bit before heading towards the door, putting his mask on as he walked.