Payton stumbled after him, handing him the keys and getting into the passenger seat, tears streaming down his face. “It’s my fault…if I hadn’t left..I shouldn’t have yelled at him..I’m sorry Kyle..I’m sorry I’m sorry..” he sobbed quietly into his hand.
Tyler straightened up as the paramedics arrived. They asked him a couple questions while they checked his vitals.
“Was he like this when you arrived?”
Tyler nodded, feeling slightly numb.
“Do you know what caused it?”
“Uhm..he just broke up with his boyfriend. I..I didn’t know he was suicidal.”
They asked him a couple more questions before driving away with Kyle, leaving him. Tyler stood and cleaned up the blood before pulling out his phone and texting one of his friends. You okay?
Uh yeah I’m fine, just doing homework. Why? She texted back.
Tyler shook his head, sighing a little and driving to the hospital. no reason
"Hey, it's not your fault." Rowan assured him as they both got in the car. He drove as fast as he could to the hospital. He met up with Tyler when they got in. "What's his condition?"
Payton hadn’t stopped crying since they got in the car. He held on tight to Rowan’s arm and hand as they walked towards Tyler.
“He’s asleep. He’s doing fine. They think he’ll be awake in a couple hours.” He said gently, pulling Payton in for a hug and glancing up at Rowan with concern.
Rowan nodded. "Okay, it's okay….he'll be okay…" he whispered. "Can we go see him yet?"
“Yeah, again..he’s not awake yet but you can still go see him for a couple hours.” Tyler nodded, looking down at Payton as he lifted his head.
“Are his parents coming?” He asked quietly, stepping away and rubbing his eyes.
Tyler shook his head. “They couldn’t get ahold of them. “It’s okay though. Just be there for him when he was up. He’s in room 245.”
Payton nodded and looked down the hallway towards the rooms before starting to walk away from the two.
Tyler turned to Rowan and gave him a quick hug. “He will be okay, physically. I don’t know what mental state he could’ve been in to nearly decide to…kill himself in fifteen minutes.” He said, sighing.
Rowan understood what he meant. "Do you want to go see him now or do you want to wait until he's awake?"
“I’ll stay for bit more but I’ll probably wait until tomorrow to talk to him and stuff.” He clasped his hands behind his back, letting out a breath. “I’ll just give him and Payton some space for now.”
Payton found the room and slowly walked in, staying close to the door. He felt tears rolling down his cheeks but didn’t bother to brush them away. What do I even do? What do I say when he wakes up?
(though I answered SORRY!!!!)
Rowan did the same keeping an eye on Payton. Idiot…why did you go and get hurt? Rowan scrunched his nose. "I'm going to call Grayson. So I'll leave you alone." He walked out the door and leaned on the wall in the hallway.
Hey, can you meet me at the hospital?
(No problem!! That text was for Grayson, right?)
Payton walked to one of the chairs near his bed and sat down, knees to his chest. "I don't want to break up with you, Kyle.." He whispered, gazing at his sleeping boyfriend. "I wish we could work this out.."
Why the hell are you at the hospital??? I'll be there in a minute
(ye)
Rowan looked back to Payton.
It's not me it's Payton's boyfriend. He…just get here quick
Rowan shut off his phone and sighed. Of course, crying wasn't his specialty, but for right now he let his emotions get the best off him. Rowan's tears turned into sobs. The more he tried to wipe them the more they would appear.
(the whole squad is here lmao)
Grayson arrived a couple minutes later and found them without a problem. He rushed over to Rowan and pulled him into a hug. "Hey..what happened to him? Where's Payton?" He asked calmly, casting a concerned glance around. Rowan never cries..this must be really bad..
(Yup lol, everyone is here to support satan)
Rowan hugged him back, loving the feeling of someone in his arms. "He's…in the room." his sobs would cut him off. "They had…..a really….bad fight…Payton walked out and…he…cut himself…so many times…"
(pfftjfkdsl except for their other suicidal friend who'd probably just show up and be like lol been there done that)
Grayson pulled him over to a chair and made him sit down, holding his hands. "Calm down. He's alive. He'll be okay. Where's Payton? How's he doing?" He asked, squeezing his hands gently.
(Thank you for surviving suicidal friend that doesn't have a name)
"He's with….Kyle now. I don't want this….to happen again. Not again…" Rowan clenched Grayson's shirt. "Please…not again…" Rowan dug his head into Grayson's neck.
(Wait shit she's not dead lol)
(hushhhhh……..I knew that…….)
(That's my bad. She's tried to before but only Grayson and Tyler were around)
(nahhhh it's alright, you're good lol)
(Thank you for surviving suicidal friend that doesn't have a name)
"He's with….Kyle now. I don't want this….to happen again. Not again…" Rowan clenched Grayson's shirt. "Please…not again…" Rowan dug his head into Grayson's neck.
(fjskdjfsk)
"Shh..it's okay. He's okay." Grayson reassured him, kissing his palm and wiping his tears away. "Where's my happy, optimistic boyfriend?" He asked softly, smiling a little as he tried to comfort Rowan.
Rowan chuckled through his tears. “I just don’t want Payton to be alone for the rest of his life. He has us, but I can tell without him he won’t be the same…”
"He won't be alone for the rest of his life. They might get over this and come out stronger, or they might break up. Most couples don't make it past high school, Ro." He said gently, smiling a little and glancing up at him. I'm so lucky..
"I'm glad we did," Rowan pecked Grayson's lips. "Now, all we can do is wait." he sighed.
Grayson leaned on his shoulder and sighed, gazing towards Kyle's room.
(Should he wake up now?)
(I was thinking of the same thing!)
Kyle shot up and his heart rate spiked. He grabbed his head. "Why am I still here?!" he groaned. "I don't want to be here. I hate it…"
Payton jumped out of the chair and backed away as a nurse rushed in and pushed him back onto the bed. "Calm down, honey. You're okay, just stay in bed." They said gently, leaving the room a couple minutes after checking up on Kyle and telling him why he was there.
Payton watched, pressed up against the wall with tears in his eyes. Maybe he won't notice me..
