forum Your personal venting space.

Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

tune

i'm tempted to do something reckless. like bruise my wrists again. it's not like they ever notice

Hey, what about drawing on your wrists?

Well im sure it will get better for you in the future

smudges , so no
and bruising has a better pain than cutting and it goes away after like five days so idc
i'd go do it rn but i can't make myself get up bc executive dysfunction
i'm way past the point of caring anyway

O.o, well that kinda escalated

sorry
i have depression with a hair trigger and i've had a very shitty day, this is after a whole ass day of fighting with my parents

sorry guys, i'll stop talking about it if it bothers you

Its not bothersome

And sorry your having such a shitty day, its pretty relatable

my mom has been talking for ten minutes about needing a plan before i get a job and how i need all this extra stuff to even get considered and then she finished with "i always seem like the bad guy" like what a classic guilt-trip method even mother gothel said that shit and she's canonically abusive fuck with that

Oml my mum always uses that method and its annoying af.

My beautiful boyfriend is in Pennsylvania all weekend, and I haven’t seen him since Thursday morning. I miss him so much. And I know it’s only the weekend, but it just feels so much longer because he left Thursday afternoon, wasn’t at school Friday, and his flight gets back at like 10 pm Sunday night, then it takes an hour from the airport to his house, so that’s like 11pm, probably closer to 12, so he might not even go to school Monday just so he can get some rest. I totally, understand that, and I’m not like mad or anything, I’m just really sad because I miss him so, so much and I just want to hug him forever and ever and sit with him and talk with him and spend actual time with him. We have only been able to video call late at night for like an hour or two and the WiFi has been pretty weak. Plus school is ending next month, so that’s even less time to spend together since we won’t be at school together. I want to make a bunch of summer plans with him, like, I want almost my whole summer booked up with he and I doing stuff together. I want to see him and hold him. I want to be near him and spend time with him. I just miss him so much now, and I miss him for the summer too.

My beautiful boyfriend is in Pennsylvania all weekend, and I haven’t seen him since Thursday morning. I miss him so much. And I know it’s only the weekend, but it just feels so much longer because he left Thursday afternoon, wasn’t at school Friday, and his flight gets back at like 10 pm Sunday night, then it takes an hour from the airport to his house, so that’s like 11pm, probably closer to 12, so he might not even go to school Monday just so he can get some rest. I totally, understand that, and I’m not like mad or anything, I’m just really sad because I miss him so, so much and I just want to hug him forever and ever and sit with him and talk with him and spend actual time with him. We have only been able to video call late at night for like an hour or two and the WiFi has been pretty weak. Plus school is ending next month, so that’s even less time to spend together since we won’t be at school together. I want to make a bunch of summer plans with him, like, I want almost my whole summer booked up with he and I doing stuff together. I want to see him and hold him. I want to be near him and spend time with him. I just miss him so much now, and I miss him for the summer too.

the love of my life lives on the other side of the continent and he's coming back from a 2-week wifiless vacation on monday and i too miss him so goddamn much and imlov him

so i really stan this man i hope u guys get to talk on tuesday and hug and stuff

My beautiful boyfriend is in Pennsylvania all weekend, and I haven’t seen him since Thursday morning. I miss him so much. And I know it’s only the weekend, but it just feels so much longer because he left Thursday afternoon, wasn’t at school Friday, and his flight gets back at like 10 pm Sunday night, then it takes an hour from the airport to his house, so that’s like 11pm, probably closer to 12, so he might not even go to school Monday just so he can get some rest. I totally, understand that, and I’m not like mad or anything, I’m just really sad because I miss him so, so much and I just want to hug him forever and ever and sit with him and talk with him and spend actual time with him. We have only been able to video call late at night for like an hour or two and the WiFi has been pretty weak. Plus school is ending next month, so that’s even less time to spend together since we won’t be at school together. I want to make a bunch of summer plans with him, like, I want almost my whole summer booked up with he and I doing stuff together. I want to see him and hold him. I want to be near him and spend time with him. I just miss him so much now, and I miss him for the summer too.

the love of my life lives on the other side of the continent and he's coming back from a 2-week wifiless vacation on monday and i too miss him so goddamn much and imlov him

so i really stan this man i hope u guys get to talk on tuesday and hug and stuff

Me too. My love language is partly quality time, so I’m just aching to be near him and spend some good, one-on-one, real time with him.

so i really stan this man i hope u guys get to talk on tuesday and hug and stuff

Me too. My love language is partly quality time, so I’m just aching to be near him and spend some good, one-on-one, real time with him.

oof yes. i'm more physically and verbally affectionate so i can't w a i t until we get to meet next year in the summer and i get to hug him and kiss him and slow dance w him to our song i fdbhht
i'm glad u know him irl

so i really stan this man i hope u guys get to talk on tuesday and hug and stuff

Me too. My love language is partly quality time, so I’m just aching to be near him and spend some good, one-on-one, real time with him.

oof yes. i'm more physically and verbally affectionate so i can't w a i t until we get to meet next year in the summer and i get to hug him and kiss him and slow dance w him to our song i fdbhht
i'm glad u know him irl

Thank you, I am too. I hope you guys have a wonderful time when you get together face to face

so i really stan this man i hope u guys get to talk on tuesday and hug and stuff

Me too. My love language is partly quality time, so I’m just aching to be near him and spend some good, one-on-one, real time with him.

oof yes. i'm more physically and verbally affectionate so i can't w a i t until we get to meet next year in the summer and i get to hug him and kiss him and slow dance w him to our song i fdbhht
i'm glad u know him irl

Thank you, I am too. I hope you guys have a wonderful time when you get together face to face

:)))

Its not bothersome

so i ended up not self-harming yesterday. thank you for listening guys

Agh… I'm not sure what to do. One of my internet friends is acting extremely suspicious again, this time they seem to be lying about an incredibly serious problem (As usual…) to gain pity from others and I'm honestly not sure if I can trust them anymore.
I feel like such a jerk because it's a sensitive topic and I'm basically accusing them of making everything up, but it's still somewhat worrying… How many other things have they lied to me about?

So… Does anyone have any advice on how to properly confront them? I still really care about this person and I don't want to hurt their feelings even more just because I'm a little skeptical of their problems…

Its not bothersome

so i ended up not self-harming yesterday. thank you for listening guys

That's good. I'm sorry that you have to go through that and that I wasn't here for you, but it seems like everyone else took good care of you.

Agh… I'm not sure what to do. One of my internet friends is acting extremely suspicious again, this time they seem to be lying about an incredibly serious problem (As usual…) to gain pity from others and I'm honestly not sure if I can trust them anymore.
I feel like such a jerk because it's a sensitive topic and I'm basically accusing them of making everything up, but it's still somewhat worrying… How many other things have they lied to me about?

So… Does anyone have any advice on how to properly confront them? I still really care about this person and I don't want to hurt their feelings even more just because I'm a little skeptical of their problems…

This might be hard for you and I understand, but they might not be who they say they are. Take it slow and don't anger them. I value your safety more than anything, so be cautious with them.

Agh… I'm not sure what to do. One of my internet friends is acting extremely suspicious again, this time they seem to be lying about an incredibly serious problem (As usual…) to gain pity from others and I'm honestly not sure if I can trust them anymore.
I feel like such a jerk because it's a sensitive topic and I'm basically accusing them of making everything up, but it's still somewhat worrying… How many other things have they lied to me about?

So… Does anyone have any advice on how to properly confront them? I still really care about this person and I don't want to hurt their feelings even more just because I'm a little skeptical of their problems…

This might be hard for you and I understand, but they might not be who they say they are. Take it slow and don't anger them. I value your safety more than anything, so be cautious with them.

Okay, I'll try that… Thank you.

Its not bothersome

so i ended up not self-harming yesterday. thank you for listening guys

That's good. I'm sorry that you have to go through that and that I wasn't here for you, but it seems like everyone else took good care of you.

it's perfectly alright, and thank you.

man i wish these boys didn't automatically dislike me. can they instinctively sense i'm gay??? do they just dislike that i don't let them throw slurs around??? we'll never know

Sounds annoying